The Beginning of the End

River collapses against the bars of her cell. He didn't know who she was. He didn't know what she was – to him. He didn't know they were.

Your firsts are my lasts.

She put her fingers to her lips. That was their first kiss for him, their last for her. And he didn't even know. Didn't even know who she was.

Your future is my past.

Her knees gave way. She would see him again – she knew that much. But it won't be the same. Would he even know her name? She hit the concrete floor, almost savouring the pain. It was better than the heartbreak she felt.

River closed her eyes, trying to hold back the tears threatening to fall like her namesake. She'd known this day was coming. She had since she'd worked out they were travelling in opposite directions.

Every time we meet, I know him more and he knows me less.

Never let it be said that River Song wasn't smart. On a good day, she could hold her own with the Doctor. A smile at the memories of adventures past found its way to her lips. She wouldn't trade those days for anything. Even if it meant this pain.

I hate you.

No, you don't, River.

She couldn't hold back the tears anymore. They fell like shooting stars down her cheeks. It was the beginning of the end. For her. It was just beginning for him. The logical part of her mind knew she should find solace in that that. He wouldn't be so lonely, wouldn't feel like she did.

He'll be one step further away.

River pounded her fist on the ground. Then the other. She knew she looked like a petulant toddler having a tantrum but she was beyond caring.

I'll look into that man's eyes – my doctor- and he won't have the fainest idea who I am.

Her tears stained the concrete. She took a deep breath, trying to regain control. She snorted, what control? She had none. Neither of them did, not really. They were a paradox. They were doomed. She only had her memories now. Memories and heartbreak.

And I think it will kill me.

A/N: I've always loved River -She made a dalek beg for mercy for crying out loud- and her last scene of 6.02 was so sad. So I wrote this. Never really done anything like this before. Tell me what you think. Pretty please.