Why I'm Alive

By: Carly Soden


Why am I alive? I shouldn't be. That's all I can tell you about myself, other than the fact that I am one of the lucky ones. My fiancé Eli is visiting his parents for the weekend, but other than him I have no one. It didn't start out that way, let me tell you. How did I end up in this crappy motel room, writing this on my ancient laptop that is bound to break? I probably shouldn't complain, before everything that could go wrong did, I had it all; Loving parents, a big house (well, 2 if you count the one in Florida for summer vacations, which I don't), friends, clothes, and an amazing boyfriend. Then on April 15, 2001, when I was 12 years old, my whole world exploded. Literally. I'm getting ahead of myself. Let's go back to the day I turned 10, and let me tell you, it's a birthday I'll never forget…