Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns all things Twilight. I'm just doing something a little different with my story and her characters. NO copyright infringement intended. WARNING: CONTAINS DARK THEMES MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL.
Hey kiddies. I am barely alive, barely able to function after last night. There are no words to express how AMAZINGLY FUCKING BREATHTAKINGLY SPECTACULAR that trailer was. And Rob and Kristen just WOW! November can't get here soon enough. So, here is the end. We fast forward a bit. Again, the magic of my beta wasn't able to dazzle this day. Long ass author's note at the end.
Sweetcheeks, you encouraged me so much through this and I thank you so fucking much. Love you mega hard!
Edward and I drive in silence.
I twist my hands in my lap, my heart beating a little faster than usual but not for the reason I would like.
He glances at me, "You don't have to do this, today. We can,"
I cut him off, "I know, but I need to, I'm ready to."
He reaches over the console and gives my hand a gentle squeeze and doesn't let go.
"I love you," he tells me the corner of his mouth smiling.
"I love you," I echo and squeeze his hand back.
As always, Edward is giving me exactly what I need at the right moment. The feel of his hand in mine grounds me, makes me feel not just loved and cherished but protected.
I must have gotten lost in my thoughts along the way because before I know it Edward is turning the car off.
"We're here," he announces in a hushed tone as he unbuckles he seatbelt.
I feel my heart begin to beat a little faster.
He turns in his seat so he's facing me. His green eyes sparkle and show so much concern, concern for me.
"Are you sure you're ready to do this, Bella? I know Dr. Elezar said it was a good idea and that you're ready, but if you have reservations at all I will gladly turn this car around and take you anywhere you want to go, just say the word."
"Edward, I know you're concerned and worried about me, but I am ready. This is something I need and want to do. I can't explain it, I just know if I don't do this I won't feel complete. I feel like I owe her after, well, after everything."
He nods his understanding, gets out of the car and comes around to open my door.
Edward helps me out and hands me my cane.
Physical therapy has helped greatly but my leg still isn't fully healed and the cane helps immensely. At first I didn't want it, stubborn Edward called me. I hated looking like a little old lady. Edward was very thoughtful because he gave the metal old-person cane back to the hospital and bought me a deep blue one. Edward said the color suited me.
Edward guides me down the path, his hand on the small of my back.
Comfortable silence surrounds us.
A gentle breeze lifts loose strands of my hair, the scent of the fall air assaults my senses.
I inhale deeply, enjoying the fresh air.
The sun peeks out from behind a few wispy clouds.
Gravel crunches under my feet as I try my best not to stumble.
Suddenly we stop.
"We're here, Bella."
Before I can respond, Edward pulls me into his chest.
The rise and fall of it relaxes me, his warmth blankets me, his arms protecting me.
I hold on to him so tight, I can't let go.
I so need him now.
More than ever.
He senses it and holds me tighter, closer.
"We can go back, still, it's okay," he offers.
I shake my head against his chest.
I have to do this.
I need to do this.
I may be scared, but I am ready.
I need to do this.
Edward kisses the top my head and slowly pulls away. His green eyes brilliant, catching fragments of the sunlight through the trees. His smile is warm, comforting. And then it changes. His playful, only for me, crooked smile graces his lips and it gives me strength, strength I so desperately need.
I need to do this.
I'm ready to do this.
I hobble as gracefully as I can to her spot; Edward a step behind me.
I stare at the marker and tears begin to prick my eyes.
I can do this.
I turn to Edward and without saying a word he knows.
He takes my cane and walks over to a nearby bench and places it down.
When he gets back to me he carefully lifts me up into his arms and cradles me as if I were a child.
He holds me a moment longer, allowing me to ready myself, then I nod.
Ever so slowly, Edward lowers me to the ground and crouches down beside me.
"I will be just over there. Far away enough to give you the privacy you need, but close enough that if you need me I'm only a few feet away."
I nod, knowing the words will get caught on their way out.
He leans down and his lips mold to mine.
The kiss is sweet and tender and gives me more strength.
He pulls away and walks over to the bench.
I take a deep breath and better position myself, the bronze marker facing me.
I run my fingers over its engraving—Kate Delani May 4 1988 – August 7, 2011.
Tears slowly stream down my face.
I pull my trembling hand away and wipe my fallen tears.
I take several deep breaths and close my eyes, remembering the exercise Dr. Elezar gave me to remain calm and focused.
After several more deep cleansing breaths I open my eyes and a stream of sunlight shines on her marker as a strong breeze swirls around me.
I suddenly feel calm, at peace.
"There is so much I never got to say to you, so much. I'm so very sorry, Kate, so sorry."
Tears fall freely.
"You were strong for so long. I just wish…" I pause.
I wish for so many things, all of them irrelevant now.
"There's so much I want to tell you, so much."
Where do I start?
I take another deep breath choking back the lump forming in my throat.
"They found me, us obviously. I'm doing okay, better."
My fingers on their accord begin to trace the letters of her name, again.
Silent tears continue to fall.
"Um, they were able to catch him, James. He, um, tried to take another girl, but she, she was able to get away and give a detailed description to the police, the FBI…"
"God, Kate, he was doing this for so long, so long. Edward saw the sketch and…"
A sharp pain slices through me, I wince.
Edward's arms wrap around me.
I can do this.
He squeezes me and then whispers in my ear, "You're so strong, love, so brave. Again, I'm right over there when you need me, okay?" He smiles.
It tugs at my heart and I can't help but smile back and nod.
"That, that was my Edward. He's been so amazing through all this. I wish he had a chance to meet you."
A deep breath.
"Edward saw the sketch and he recognized him. God, Kate, they were in medical school together for a short time. Edward recognizing that sketch led the police and the FBI straight to him. That's how they found us, Kate."
A shudder rips through me as I remember what Special Agent Banner told me…
"We found his residence but no sign of him. We uncovered a secret room and what we found was quite disturbing. I won't go into all the horrific details, but we found pictures of you, Miss Swan, dozens of them. He was planning this for some time."
"How, where?" Is all I can get out.
"Various different public locations; supermarkets, coffee house, work. Most of them were just of you alone, a few were of you and Mr. Cullen."
My eyes flash to Edward's and he grimaces.
"What?" I glance between Edward and Special Agent Banner.
Special Agent Banner and Edward share a look, contemplating what to do.
I decide for them, "Just tell me."
Edward nods and Special Agent Banner continues, "The pictures of you and Mr. Cullen were altered. Mr. Cullen's image was scratched out or replaced with an image of Mr. Stevens. I'm sorry, Miss Swan."
I clutch my chest, my heart pounding against my hand.
My breathing becomes labored and one thought assaults me.
He planned this, I wasn't random like the others.
I gasp as Special Agent Banner's words firmly take hold and sink in.
He was going to hurt Edward. He was going to kill him.
My eyes flicker, bringing me back to the here and now.
I blink away the tears that are blurring my vision.
I close my eyes and put in practice Dr. Elezar's exercise.
In and out.
Slow, deep breaths.
In and out.
I feel warm hands on my shoulders and they send a wave of calm over me.
I reach my hand up and interlace my fingers with Edward's and tug on him to sit beside me.
He doesn't deny me.
I peer up at him through my wet eyelashes.
Edward leans in and gently kisses me, giving what I always need, his love, his strength, his compassion, his everything.
"Kate, this is Edward," I turn to Edward, "Edward this is Kate."
Edward's slender fingers graze her marker, "Nice to meet you, Kate. Thank you for being there for my Bella. I owe you so much."
Edward wraps his arm tighter around me.
I take another deep breath and continue.
"They found a deed to where he had us when they searched his house. They, um, found pictures of me. I wasn't random, but you and the others were. I'm so sorry, Kate."
Edward releases me and he starts to get up.
I quickly grab his hand.
"Stay, please, I'm almost done."
He smiles and nods and then takes his spot beside me again.
"He knew what he was doing. He had enough medical background to do what he did. He kept us alive by giving us IV fluids when necessary, when it suited him. When he tired of a girl he had, he stopped and began preparing for a new one. I'm so sorry."
Tears flow and Edward just holds me.
I need to finish.
I need to tell her everything.
I owe her that.
"They told me he created the injection he kept giving us. It was a mixture of really long words, but in essence its purpose was to knock us out and leave us feeling paralyzed—a neuro-inhibitor of some kind. That's how he took me, took us. That's what enabled him to do the torturous things he did. He didn't leave anything behind that could tell us why he did it, no letter, no video confession, nothing on his computer. James was just sick and twisted. The FBI found him one hundred miles outside the city at a truck stop. They had enough to prosecute him."
I take a deep breath before I tell her the most important part.
Edward kisses the top of my head knowing what I'm about to say.
"They didn't get a chance to. While in prison awaiting trial his follow inmates learned that he had killed a girl who was only thirteen and then a woman who was pregnant. I guess there's honor among criminals. They have their own set of rules when it comes to right and wrong."
A smile tugs the corner of my mouth, "Kate, it was a slow painful death. I guess he got a taste of his own medicine, got what he deserved."
I exhale, relief consuming me.
I did it.
I told her what I needed to.
"I'm doing my best to move on. I have my good and bad days." I smile at Edward.
"More good than bad."
"I guess I better go. I just wanted to see you and say thank you. Thank you, so much, Kate, for everything."
Edward lifts me and gently set me back on my feet. He quickly gets my cane and hands it to me.
We start to walk away but I pause and turn back to Kate.
"I love you, Kate, thank you."
The sun breaks through the clouds, shining brightly, warming me. A rush of air swirls around and then abruptly stops.
Edward squeezes my hand and smiles my favorite smile at me.
I can't help but smile back.
He takes my hand and we walk down the path in comfortable silence.
I feel lighter, freer, than I have in weeks.
For the first time in a long time, I feel stronger and really ready to move on.
Kate helped with that.
Kate made that possible.
Thanks to Kate, Edward and my family, I survived.
A/N: Well that's all she wrote. We have finally reached the end of my dark and twisted tale. It's been requested that there be an epi...I'll think about it, I hadn't originally planned on writing one, but we'll see. I want to thank each and everyone of you for taking the time and reading this dark and at times very confusing fic of mine. It means so much to me that you stuck with it til the end. I also cherish each and every one of your reviews. You guys really kept me going when I doubted I should even continue. Thank you so much.
Also, thanks to those of you who voted for my other fic, "Sex, Distractions and Rock n Roll" in the Sunflower Awards. Sadly, I didn't win, but it was an honor to be nominated. That fic is also nominated in The Eternity Awards but voting isn't until the end of June.
I want to give a big huge wet sloppy kiss to my fuckawesome beta, Red20881 or as I like to call her Sweetcheeks. She encouraged my dark side and really made this fic the best it could be. I love you so much and I am here for you.
I am done with the dark side. I have a new fic in the works and I get back to writing what I like best, romance and humor. It's called "A Four Letter Word". I want to get few chapters written before I start posting so if you put me on your author's alerts you will know when I do. It will be a funny fic actually I laughed my ass off writing the first chapter.
Thanks again so much. So one last time let me know what you're thinking. See ya soon!