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Ch. 17:

"No."

The Doctor pouted as Lily moved around their room, still dressed in her pajamas and refusing to change.

"But…Pirate ship!" he sputtered.

"And I'm not saying you can't go, I'm just not going." Lily told him.

"But Lily!" He whined.

Lily sighed and sat down next to him.

"Theta, I'm still weak." She told him. "I need rest."

"You need to stop hiding." He shot back, trying to make her mad so she'd prove him wrong, but it didn't work.

"Maybe." She agreed calmly. "But right now, I'm doing what I think is best, and that's staying here for right now."

The Doctor sighed.

"Alright." He agreed. "I still wish you'd come, but I won't make you."

"Like you could." She said, smirking.

"At least come see us off." He told her, pulling her to her feet.

They walked hand in hand down the hallways of the TARDIS, Lily leaning her head on his arm as they walked.

They reached the control room to find Amy and Rory waiting for them.

"You're not coming?" Rory asked, seeing her attire. "You're leaving us alone? With him?"

Amy smacked his arm and the Doctor glared at him, but Lily just laughed, moving over the railing to lean on it, gripping it with one hand.

"I'm sure you'll be just fine." She told him.

"If I die, I'll never forgive you." He shot back.

"What? Again?" Lily replied, smirking.

Rory just glared at her.

"What are you going to do while we're away?" Amy asked.

"Oh, just putter around." Lily replied. "Clean up a little. Do some work on the TARDIS to fix the work the Doctor has done on the TARDIS. You know, the usual."

"Okay, we're leaving before you manage to insult all of us." The Doctor said, kissing her swiftly.

"Have fun storming the pirate ship!" Lily called after them.

The door shut and Lily sagged, breathing hard. She reached over and peeled her other hand off the railing. She gently ran her finger over where her nails had bit into her palm and the mark the bar had left.

She closed her hand again and slowly headed off to the medical bay.


She quickly healed her hand and turned to the scanner. She quickly ran a full body scan, took one look at the scan and quickly erased it from the database.

She sighed and moved out of that room and down the hall. She stood in front of a pale wood door for a moment before taking a deep breath and walking inside.

Inside was a large, circular room, lined with mirrors.

"Back again to test your sanity?"

"I'm not insane." Lily replied. "Show yourself."

A young looking woman, a little older than Lily, stepped out of the shadows and grinned.

"Hello, Lily." She said.

"Hello, Phoenix." Lily replied.

The woman, who had short brown hair and gold eyes, walked around the mirrored edge of the empty room, coming to a stop in front of Lily. She raised her hand and quirked her eyebrow at the other woman. Lily raised her hand and rested her hand against the glass separating her from the phantom.

"Tell me how you're not insane again." The Dark Phoenix said.

Lily pulled her hand away.

"I'm not insane." She repeated. "But I am something different, and with everything I've been through and am going through, a little hallucination is to be expected."

The Dark Phoenix laughed.

"I suppose you're right." She agreed. "How did you know I was here?"

"I've been seeing you for days." Lily admitted, sitting down on the floor. "In my reflection. A wink that I didn't wink, a smirk I didn't smirk. I've been pushing it as far back in my mind as I could, waiting for some time when Theta would leave me on my own."

"Why?" The Dark Phoenix asked. "Afraid he'll think you're insane?"

Lily was silent.

"Afraid he'll leave you?" she said nastily.

Lily glared at the woman in the mirror.

"He wouldn't leave me." She said. "He loves me."

"If he wouldn't leave you, why bind me?" The Dark Phoenix asked. "Wouldn't he love you no matter what?"

"One can love someone and still fear them Lily said softly. "I saw the look in his eye when I tried to attack River."

"River." The Dark Phoenix sneered. "Would the universe be so bad if we had put an end to her?"

"I believe the Doctor would dislike it." Lily said, absentmindedly picking at her sleeve.

The Dark Phoenix walked around the room.

"It bothers you, doesn't it?" she said. "How much he cares for her."

"She's fascinating to him." Lily said. "She's a puzzle, and he can't resist a puzzle."

"But she's not just a puzzle, is she?" The Dark Phoenix murmured, more to herself than to Lily. "The way he looks at her. She could so easily…"

"Replace us." Lily whispered.

The Dark Phoenix locked her eyes on Lily's.

"Replace you." She said. "He doesn't love me. He loves you."

"You're a part of me." Lily said.

"I'm glad you've finally admitted that." The other woman said, smirking.

"A part of me I can't control." Lily continued.

"Wuss." The Dark Phoenix muttered.

"Bitch." Lily shot back.

"It's not nice to call yourself names." The Dark Phoenix said, walking back around the mirrors. "Now, can we go back to why you locked away the thing that made you most special in this universe? Namely me?"

"I can't control you." Lily said, frowning. "You're dangerous."

"We're dangerous." The Dark Phoenix corrected. "I am you and you are me. We are one."

"And what am I supposed to say when I lose control and you strike out at an ally?" Lily demanded. "What then, Dark One? What do I do when I wake up with blood on my hands and my mate looking at me in horror? I'm the one who has to deal with the fallout of your bloody actions, while you get to go back to sleep! I could've killed her!"

"We should have!" The Dark Phoenix shot back. "Instead, we drove him into her arms."

"No." Lily whispered.

"He kissed her." The Dark Phoenix sneered.

"SHUT UP!" Lily yelled, surging to her feet.

She felt the band around her neck contract and she fell to her knees with a gasp.

"You hate her." The Dark Phoenix said as Lily tried to regain her breath. "She dangerous to the Doctor. This is what we were made for. To protect him. Killing her protects him."

"No." Lily replied, shaking her head. "Killing her only protects us and hurts him. I won't do that."

She raised her eyes to meet the Dark Phoenix's.

"I won't let you control me."

She staggered to her feet.

"You may have been stronger than me when I was human, but I am Time Lord now." She continued. "I am the High Priestess and the mate of the Doctor. You will not control me."

She turned and walked towards the door.

"The day is coming." The Dark Phoenix called, stopping her. "The day when your need for my power will outweigh your need to keep him comfortable. A day of blood when you have nowhere else to run to. That day…you're realize who we really are. One."

Lily squared her shoulders and walked out the door.


Lily woke with a start to the Doctor shaking her. She sat up in confusion and realized she was in the control room.

"How was the Pirate ship?" she asked, rubbing her eyes.

"Fine, met an automated sick bay posing as a siren and trying to heal the whole human race with no idea how." He replied distractedly, taking her hand in his. "What happened here?"

He pressed her hand and she hissed in pain. She looked at her hand and saw where her nails had bit into her palm and the bruise from the railing.

"I thought…" she said, confused. "I don't know."

He looked at her in concern.

"Come on." He said, pulling her to her feet. "Let's get you fixed up and into bed."

She let him pull her out of the room, but as she moved past the console, she caught sight of her reflection.

And it smirked at her.

A/N: Okay, so I don't really like the episode Curse of the Black Spot, so I decided to focus on Lily for a chapter. I hope that's okay. Let me know what you thought.

Abbey