I own nothing.
The trip to Edward's house in the Hamptons was the best weekend of my life. Edward and I had finally become one. He claimed my body as his and gave me everything I've ever wanted, him. He was amazing. Our lives fit together perfectly just as he said we would. And the sex, oh my god, the sex was incredible. I seriously couldn't get enough. I actually had a hard time walking around on Monday because I didn't want to stop doing it while we were away. It freaked me out a little just how much I wanted it, but Christ, who wouldn't?
Edward paid attention to my every movement, my every breath and just seemed to know every way to pleasure me. He was very skilled at lovin' and taught me things I never thought I could do with my body, things that gave both of us pleasure. And knowing that I could make Edward dizzy with want and make him feel so incredibly good made me proud of myself.
When we got back, we fell into our usual routine. I would go to class, study, and then make my way over to Edward's penthouse. I was practically living there and he loved it. I was not complaining at all. I loved Edward coming home to find a home cooked meal waiting for him or have him pick up pizza or subs if I was at the library late. We took care of each other and I loved every minute of it. Edward kept mentioning the future and how we would always be together and I was getting really comfortable with the thought. I realized I wanted to marry Edward, wanted to be with him always, give him children and grow old with him. Did Edward want to get married? Did he even want kids? Why did those things just seem to naturally pop into my head when I was around him?
It was now the beginning of May and finals were a few weeks away. I had all my notes and outlines in order and planned on spending the coming weeks finishing classes and studying for finals. Graduation was just around the corner and then the big bar exam study summer was coming up.
It was Tuesday and I was in the library studying for my finals. Edward had been working so much lately I was starting to get concerned about him. He seemed stressed and over-burdened and a little fidgety like he wanted to tell me something. Of course he never said a word, he was always just concerned about me and if I was studying too much or if I was happy. As if he didn't realize I cared as much about him as he cared about me, if not more. We were meeting later tonight for dinner and I decided to I'd talk to him then.
I heard a knock on my study room door and yelled for them to come in. I looked up and saw a giant of a man with dark hair and very tan skin. He was wearing a suit but you could see his over-abundance of muscles through it. He had nothing with him and he looked slightly menacing and I immediately thought of James. I wasn't sure why, I hadn't thought of James in months, but I felt threatened by this stranger and my thoughts went directly to the man that harmed me the most in life.
"Isabella Swan?" His look said he already knew who I was but was trying to be formal.
"Yes." I wasn't going to ask questions or give any more information than I needed to. I don't like strangers and I don't like strange big men who knew me.
The man took the seat across from me without it being offered. I just stared at him. I did my best not to look frightened. I'm not really sure how well that worked.
"I'm FBI Agent Jacob Black." Okay. Good for him. I just continued to look at him. I didn't remember sending my resume into the FBI but I'd sent it so many places it could have been possible.
"I'd like to talk to you about your gentleman friend, Edward Cullen." Now I started to get upset. What the hell did an FBI agent want with my Edward? And why is he calling him my "gentleman friend"? I was definitely only speaking when spoken to.
"You understand who your gentleman friend is don't you Isabella?" He was looking at me like I was stupid and I didn't like it. I continued to just stare at him blankly.
"Isabella, you're a law student, and an intelligent one at that. Do you really think getting involved with the Mafia is going to be good for your career?" What the FUCK was he talking about?
"I'm going to need to see some identification officer Black." I knew it was agent, but I also knew from my father law enforcement always got irritated about being called by a title lesser than their current position.
"It's Agent." He said with an agitated looked on his face as he pulled out his credentials. Yep, he was a Federal Agent. Now, what the hell did he want with me?
"Am I under arrest officer?" I couldn't help myself, this over testosteroned FBI agent was interrupting my study time and questioning me about the love of my life.
"As I said, Agent. And no, you aren't under arrest Ms. Swan." Ah, cool exterior cracking a little? It was hard to tell.
"Then you can leave now Mr. Black." I had shit to do and now he was pissing me off.
"Isabella, you need to understand getting involved with the Mafia usually doesn't end well. And Edward Cullen, you just had to go for the top guy didn't you?" What the fuck is this guy talking about?
All of the sudden the door swung open and some huge Italian guy walked in looking completely alarmed and determined to get to me. I was immediately startled and did not hide it well.
"Miss. Swan, Mr. Cullen would like to speak with you." He handed me a Blackberry and I tried to understand what was going on. Everything was happening so fast I had to work to get myself under control. I put the phone to my ear and heard the soft velvet voice that always comforted me.
"Bella?" He asked. Except my love's voice didn't seem as calm and collected as it always was. This startled me the most.
"Edward. What is going on?" I couldn't help the fear in my voice.
"Baby, I need you to listen to me okay?" He sounded so concerned for me.
"Of course Edward, always."
"The big guy that handed you the phone, that's Alec. He works for me baby. He's there to protect you when I can't honey. He's a good man okay? You have to trust me." He sounded a little scared while he was talking to me, like I might not understand and to be honest I didn't. I just stared at the man I now knew as Alec.
"Um, okay." I felt myself getting a little lightheaded but knew I had to keep my bearings considering there were two huge men in my small study room and my boyfriend was on the phone sounding slightly frantic.
"The guy sitting across from you is a dirty federal agent Bella. His name is Jacob Black. I don't want you near him. I need for you to pack up your stuff and leave with Alec now baby. I love you Bella, you have to let me keep you safe right now, okay?" I looked over and saw Jacob getting angry while Alec was gathering my books together.
"Edward, I'm scared." I couldn't help but let him know. He was always my salvation, and I had no idea what was going on. I was in a small study room in my law school library watching a federal agent and a huge scary looking Italian dude who was supposedly here to protect me have a facial battle. I was starting to lose my shit and could feeling the beginning of a panic attack coming on.
"God baby, I know you have to be scared right now. Please just try to take deep breaths Isabella. I'm so sorry. Just please, understand I trust Alec completely. He wouldn't be around you if I didn't. And I'm on my way to get you baby. I'm less than 10 minutes away. Just go with Alec up to the lobby. It's a public place and you'll be safe there with Alec. Please baby. I'll be right there."
"Okay Edward. I'll be waiting for you." I didn't know what else to do. I had to get out of this room and to Edward.
"Thank you baby. I love you. I'll be in the lobby in a few minutes." Then the phone went dead.
I helped Alec finish gathering my stuff and started to make my way out of the room.
"Ms. Swan, Edward Cullen is a very dangerous man. He's a mob boss Isabella. You didn't even know you had a bodyguard did you? Did you Isabella?" He became visibly angry and was pointing and shouting now as Alec gently led me out of the room and into the library. He walked me upstairs to the lobby.
"Miss. Swan, you should probably have a seat. You look a little pale ma'am." Alec looked generally concerned for me. He took my bag and practically forced me to sit down.
"You're, you're my bodyguard?" I honestly don't even know what my question meant. My head was spinning.
"Mr. Cullen will be here momentarily ma'am." I felt lightheaded and nauseous. Time seemed to be ticking by so slowly. Alec didn't say another word.
A few minutes later Edward and a bunch of guys all dressed in black suits rushed into the lobby. He ran straight to me and just pulled me into his arms.
"Come on baby, let's get you home." I walked with Edward to a waiting fleet of cars. He put me into one of the cars as I watched Alec slide into the front seat and then the driver took off. We drove back to the Penthouse in silence as I tried to understand what the fuck was going on. Once we got up to the apartment I sat down on the couch trying to collect my thoughts. Edward was just staring at me and I swear he looked scared. I've never seen Edward look scared. I had to find my voice.
"Edward, I need to know what's going on." Fear was all I saw in his eyes. He said nothing.
"Edward, you're scaring me. I'm getting the feeling you're keeping something from me." He nodded in agreement and then looked at the floor but still didn't say anything. He ran his hand through his hair as he sat on the couch across from me, elbows on his knees hands cradling his head bent down in … shame?
"Bella…" And nothing. Hands through the hair.
"Bella, there are things about me…." And nothing again. Okay, this could take all day.
"Who is Alec and how did he know where I was?" Edward stood up and walked to the bar. He poured us each a scotch and sat back down across from me. He ran his hands through his hair, again, and looked up at me. He had a look of determination on his face.
"Alec is your personal bodyguard. He watches out for you. Makes sure you're safe when you're not with me." What?
"How long has he been doing that?"
"Since the morning after our first date." I couldn't believe it. Months. For months now a strange man has been following me around and I had no fucking clue. Way to notice your surroundings Swan!
"Edward, how could you? How? You had someone following me? How could you not tell me?" He just stared at me with sorrow in his eyes. I was fucking furious.
"I'm so sorry Bella, so fucking sorry. I've been trying to find a way to tell you. I just, I had to keep you safe. I knew that night I was falling in love with you. And I knew something was wrong from that first night at the club and I just, I wanted, no, I needed so badly to make sure you were safe."
"But why Edward?" My head was spinning. "Why would you need to keep me safe?" I just stared at him. He started to say something but then it hit me.
- "He's a mob boss Isabella." -
"Oh. My. God! Is, is, was what the agent said true Edward? Are you, are, God Edward, are you in the Mafia?" I felt a tear slide down my cheek and I roughly wiped it away. I didn't know if I really wanted the answer to that question. The more I thought about it, the more sense it made. Holy Fuck! The guards at the club, all the money, the late business calls, the fear some people physically displayed when Edward was around. I looked up at him, his face was set in stone.
"Yes Isabella. I am." I just sat there staring at him. He took a huge swallow of his scotch, ran his fingers through his hair and looked up at me.
"I'm not just in the Mafia Bella, I run it. I'm the head of the Cullen Family. I'm sorry you had to find out this way. So fucking sorry. I've been trying to figure out a way to tell you. I swear I have. I've just been so afraid you'd leave me if you knew. And I can't, I can't live without you Bella. I can't. You have to understand, I didn't mean to keep things from you." My mind was racing.
"Emmett and Jasper too?" I suddenly had so many questions. Where the fuck had I been for the past few months?
"Yes. They're my top guys. My best friends and my most trusted men."
"No Bella, Carlisle is just a doctor. He's not involved with the family. My father was. He was the Boss until he was murdered."
"Does that mean you can be murdered too?" Now I was starting to get scared. Um finally dipshit!
"Bella, my father was murdered because he couldn't keep it in his pants and he pissed off too many people because of that. Not because of the Family. But there are always dangers involved with what I do. That is why Emmett heads up security. He's the best there is. And it isn't like the movies Bella. It's mostly peaceful unless rules are broken or there is disloyalty."
"Have you ….. killed people?" I think I already knew the answer.
"Yes Isabella, I have. But only when necessary." Cause that makes a difference?
"My father? Is he?" I couldn't bring myself to say it.
"No Bella. He defends some of my associates from time to time, but he isn't a member of the Family."
I stood and began pacing the room. I had no idea what to do with all this information. No way to process it. I'd been followed by a bodyguard I had no idea about since I'd met Edward. And Edward. He was in the Mafia. Along with most other people we associated with. And my own father is a mob lawyer "from time to time". I started to get panicky. I felt dizzy and scared. Edward was behind me, pressing me up against him, while he put his hand on my chest and whispered, "Breathe with me Bella. It's okay. God baby, it's okay. I never wanted to scare you. I love you so much. You're safe Bella. You're safe with me. I would never ever hurt you baby. Just match my breathing. It's still me baby, it's still me, you know me." After a few minutes I was breathing just like Edward, panic attack averted, again because of the comfort I had with the man holding me.
"You okay baby?" The concern on his face was overwhelming. I saw nothing but love in his eyes.
"I'm okay Edward. I just. This is just so much to take in." Nothing made sense to me right now. I stepped away from him.
"How could you keep this from me? I don't understand." I felt the tears on my cheeks. Edward lied to me. Not telling me is the same as lying right? Yep, it is. I had to get out of the Penthouse. I needed to think. I couldn't think with Edward around.
"I need some time to process this Edward. I need to go. I'm sorry, I just can't think straight here." I began to pick up my purse as Edward's hand reached out to me taking my hand in his.
"Bella, please. Please don't leave me. Please. I'll do anything. I love you more than life Isabella. I. Need. You." Pain was all I saw on Edward's ashen face, his voice was full of desperation. I love you too Edward.
"I don't know what I'm doing. I just need some time to think Edward, please try to understand that." He slowly let go of my hand and I suddenly felt cold.
"Anything you need baby."
I took my purse and left the Penthouse. Alec was in the lobby of the building with a sad look on his face. "I've been instructed to take you wherever you need to go Miss. Swan."
"I'm just going to take a cab but thank you Alec."
"Miss. Swan, I know you may be a little confused right now but you have to understand I still need to look after you." I figured it was just a ride and I was in no mood to argue.
"Alright then. Can you take me to Rose's place?" I didn't know where else to go.
"Of course ma'am."
We drove in silence. I didn't know what to say. This man had been watching my every move for the past five months.
"Do you report back to Edward everything I do?" I had to know.
"No Miss. Swan, it isn't like that at all. Mr. Cullen just wanted me to make sure you were always safe. I was also instructed to look out for a James Alistair." Well, that definitely made sense and actually made me feel a little better.
"Thank you." It was all I could think to say.
"There is no need for thanks Miss. Swan. If anything everyone should be thanking you. The Boss has never been as happy as he's been since you came into his life."
- I. Need. You. -
We pulled up to Rose's condo and I went to her door. I was crying by now. Rose answered and just looked at me. "Bella, what is it?"
"An FBI Agent came to see me at the library today Rose." I began to tell her what happened as she walked me into the condo.
"Damn it." She said it so quietly I almost didn't hear her. I turned.
"You know?" I shouted. Rose just nodded her head and looked at me apologetically.
"How could you know and not tell me?" I was stunned.
"It wasn't my place Bella. And Edward begged me to let him be the one to tell you. He's been struggling to find a way to tell you for a while now."
"Hey sexy, where'd you run off too?" Emmett came walking into the room in a pair of sweats with a smile on his face. It fell as soon as he saw me.
"She knows. She got a visit from a federal agent at school." Rose started to explain.
"Fuck! Fucking feds. Fuck. Edward has to be shitting himself." Hello, I'm standing right here people.
"Can someone please tell me how I'm the only person who didn't know I was dating a mobster?" I started yelling. On top of everything I was starting to feel stupid, like I was left out of some sort of secret and it was all a big joke on me.
"Bella, it isn't like that. Most people don't know or pay attention. The Family hasn't been in the news much recently. I put it together after talking to some old news guys at work. I approached Emmett about it a couple of weeks ago and I just knew it was true." Rose tried to defend herself.
"And why all this concern for Edward? I'm the one he lied to!" I guess I was a little angrier than I thought. "Do you realize I have a personal bodyguard that has been following me around since my first date with him? Following me around Rose. Everywhere I went some guy I didn't know was watching me." Rose nodded her head.
"I have one too Bella. It's just a precaution."
"But he didn't tell me about any of this Rose. I think I have a right to know when I'm being followed. Or that my boyfriend has a whole other life I know nothing about." I couldn't understand how she wasn't upset about this.
"Look Bella, Edward has really been struggling with this. Hell, he even came to me for advice on how to tell you. He seemed physically scared of losing you. He loves you so much Bella. I don't think he was purposely keeping things from you to hurt you. I mean, how do you tell someone you're the head of a crime family? It isn't really dinner conversation."
"Really Rose, really? How do you tell someone your last boyfriend beat the shit out of you repeatedly and you let him? How do you tell someone you're a virgin at the age of 22? Those aren't dinner conversations but I had them with Edward. Because I trusted him and I didn't want any secrets between us. I slept with him Rose, and the entire time I didn't even know him. I don't know him. Everything up to this point has been one big lie!"
"Bella, I understand you're upset, and you have every right to be, but your relationship with Edward has not been a lie. You can't say that. You know the man he truly is. You know his heart. Does his job really change that?" It was like she was trying to convince me I was overreacting.
"His job Rose, his job? He's a crime boss! He's killed people! Those precious hands that I love so much that calm me and hold me have also taken lives."
- It's still me baby, it's still me, you know me. -
Emmett stepped in at this point. "Bella, it isn't like that. Edward isn't going around like some serial killer taking out innocent victims. And it isn't like he enjoys killing people. There are certain codes and rules we live by. It's only when those rules are broken that people get hurt. And the people who do get hurt know the consequences of their actions ahead of time. It's kind of like well, being in an army or something. When your enemy in another army comes after you, you have no choice but to defend yourself."
Could I try to see where Emmett was coming from? From what I understood everyone involved joined the mafia because they wanted to. And Charlie obviously didn't see a problem with anything. I was just so confused and angry.
"And how do you justify him lying to me Emmett? Having me followed and God knows what else. Does he have a mistress too? Someone who understands and gets off on the mobster side of him? Isn't that what you guys are known for? You're Friday night wives and Saturday night girlfriends?" Yeah, I'd seen Goodfellas.
Emmett chuckled a little at this. "Do you really think Rose wouldn't kick my ass if we all did that?"
"Damn straight baby." Leave it to Rose and Emmett to make jokes.
Emmett continued. "Bella, do you really think Edward would cheat on you? That man is so in love with you it's almost scary to watch. His every thought is about you and if you're okay and if you're happy and what else he can do to make you smile. The idea of other women probably sickens him at this point. He's changed because of you Bella. He's found happiness because of you. He wouldn't jeopardize that with other chicks. And Bella, you have no idea the struggle Edward's been having with himself trying not to lie to you."
"I don't even know what that means Emmett."
- It's still me baby, it's still me, you know me. -
"At first Edward was really worried about getting involved with you and bringing you into this type of life. He knew you were too innocent for him. But he fell in love with you Bella. He realized he couldn't be without you and he made a go of it. He's seriously been trying to figure out a way to tell you for months now. And to be honest, if Rose hadn't confronted me I'd still be too much of a pussy to tell her and I'd be having the same problem as Edward right now."
"And you're okay with all of this Rose? You're okay that your boyfriend is in the Mafia?"
"Bella, I love Emmett and he loves me. Sure I had a problem with it when I found out. But it was more fear of the unknown than anything. The more we discussed it and the more I thought about it, the more I realized this was a part of who Emmett is, a part of the Emmett that I love. I couldn't just not love him anymore because of what he did for a living or who he associated with."
- It's still me baby, it's still me, you know me. -
"What do I do Rose?" I was at a loss.
"I can't tell you that Bella. You have to make that decision on your own. Maybe you just need to ask yourself if you love Edward enough to accept this additional part of him and move forward?"
Could I do that?
Bella finally knew all about me. And I wasn't the one to tell her. No. Agent Jacob Fucking Black was. I could kill that son of a bitch just for this. And now she was gone. She left. Just as I had always feared. The pain in my chest was indescribable.
I made my way to my home office, poured myself another scotch and just sat at my desk staring at nothing. All I could see was the look in Bella's eyes, the look of disbelief. All I could hear was her asking me how I kept this from her. She had every right to be furious. I knew that. She had bared her secrets, her soul, given me her love and her body and trusted me with her heart. And the entire time, I was keeping the biggest part of my life from her. I hated myself for it. Plain and simple I was too fucking selfish to tell her. I didn't want her to leave me so I kept my mouth shut. And now she was gone.
I looked at the clock and saw it was half past midnight. She'd been gone almost four hours and I still couldn't move. I wasn't going to make it without her. My heart would stop beating again. I thought about what I could do to fix this. The problem was that Bella wasn't like most women. Diamonds and flowers weren't going to take care of this. She didn't care about any of that shit the way most women do. There's always begging. I could try that but I don't think Bella would even let me beg. She's too good to allow me to do that. Fuck. I have the power to give the woman anything she could ever want and I failed at giving her the one thing she needed. The truth. I knew in my heart I didn't deserve her.
She was gone. It hurt to fucking breathe. Why didn't I just tell her? All those times I was so close to just saying it. Yeah, cause "Hey babe, just so you know, I'm in the mafia, kay?" would have worked out really fucking well Cullen.
I was terrified. Plain and simple. I couldn't get the words out. I just kept pushing it off worried about myself and my need for her. I never really stopped to think about Bella. I automatically jumped to the conclusion that she'd leave me. She'd see me as a monster and want nothing to do with me and I'd lose her. I never stopped to think about how much keeping this part of me from her would actually hurt her.
And damn it did I see the hurt written all over her beautiful face. The image was burned in my mind. I banged my forehead against my desk in defeat. So fucking stupid Cullen. You take the one good and pure thing you have in life and ruin it.
So fucking typical of Bella to feel hurt instead of anger, God what I would give for anger right now. But no, Bella loves and trusts and gives. And now she probably thinks I didn't trust her enough and that's why I didn't tell her. And she couldn't be farther from the truth. I trust Bella with my life. It was never that. I just couldn't handle the thought of not being with her. Maybe you should have trusted her enough to stay.
God I hope she's okay. The knowledge that I caused her pain was eating me alive. I have to make this better. I have to take away her hurt. Even if she doesn't stay with me, she has to know how much I love her and trust her and always, always will. She has to know that I was just a pathetic excuse for a man and who was too scared to give her what she really needed. She has to know that she's perfect. Everything every fucking thing about her is perfect and I'm the one who fucked up here.
Can I go to her? Would she even be at her place? Shit. This is her place. This is her home. Our home where we were supposed to build a future together. Fuck. And she asked me for time. As much as I hated it I knew it would be so wrong of me to seek her out right now. I looked at the clock again, five hours now she's been gone. I'm not going to make it.
Something caught my attention by the door and I looked over. I thought maybe I was seeing things. There in the doorway stood Bella. Maybe I had already gone insane and was hallucinating.
"I'm sorry I left." She was apologizing, yes, definitely a hallucination.
"I'm home Edward." Home? I stood up and met her in the middle of the office. I pulled her into me and kissed her forehead. She was real, and she had come back. I couldn't fucking believe it.
"You came back?" I had to be sure.
"Yes Edward. I'm sorry I left. I just needed to clear my head. I needed some time to think." I was nervous.
"Bella, you don't have to apologize to me. God, you've done nothing wrong. I have. I'm the one who's sorry baby. I should have told you. I wanted to tell you so many times. But I was selfish. I wanted you to be with me and I didn't know what you would do if you knew."
"I love you Edward." She said it with such finality it startled me. Could it really be that simple?
"Still? Even now that you know I'm a monster?"
"I don't think you're a monster Edward. I am really upset, pissed actually, that you kept something so big about yourself from me, that you lied to me. But I think I'm more upset that you didn't trust me enough to tell me." She looked dejected and it was all because of me.
"Bella, I trust you with my life. It was never that I didn't trust you. Please, you have to understand that. It's just, for the first time since my father died, I felt fear. Fear that I was going to lose the best thing in my life. Fear of being without you. God baby, just the thought of that froze me. I'm so fucking sorry baby."
She was back. And she was talking to me.
"I know it's a lot to ask, and I swear I'll respect any decision you make, but can you let me fix this Bella? Can you give me a second chance to make this right? Because I'll do anything to fix this baby, to make you see this was my fault and I'll never, ever keep anything from you again. I need to know baby, can you still be with me knowing what you know now?" There, the questions that were key to our future.
"I had a long talk with Rose and Emmett. And well, after I calmed down a little they helped me to put things in perspective. Edward, I love you. You were right, you're still the man I fell in love with. What you do doesn't change that. Mafia boss or club owner, you're still my Edward. My love for you is complete, pure, endless. I'm not leaving you Edward."
I couldn't believe it. I had found an angel, fallen in love with her, and she accepted me for who I was, even with all my faults. And thank god for Rose and Emmett. Bella reached up and gently wiped away a tear I didn't even realize I had shed.
"I just need to know if there is anything else. We can't have secrets Edward. You can't lie to me. You can't hurt me like that. And we can't allow anything to come between us." Hearing her admit that I hurt her was enough to make me want to eat my gun. I wrapped my arms around her and began crying with her.
"I'm so sorry I hurt you Bella. I've never wanted to do that. I'll do everything I possibly can to make sure I never do that again. And the only other thing to know is that I'm going to spend the rest of my life making you happy Isabella. I'm going to marry you, protect you, give you children, and always, every day, keep you happy." Bella gave me a small smile but continued.
"You can't ever keep things from me again Edward. It hurts, and it will destroy us."
I replied the only way I finally knew how. "Never Bella, I can't. I won't. I'm so sorry. I never want to hurt you baby."
Bella reached up and caressed my lips with hers. She licked my bottom lip and I opened my mouth meeting her tongue with mine. She pulled her hands up around my neck and into my hair and began tugging.
"Take me to bed Edward." And I did just that.
As I pushed my aching cock inside Bella's hot, warm, center I felt like I'd found my way home. She laid beneath me, touching me pushing her hips into me and I reveled in the fact that we were one. I sucked on her nipples, and whispered my love for her over and over again as I plunged myself inside of her, pulling out and pushing in again. Our love making became frantic at some point. We were grabbing at each other like we were each the other's life source. I was fucking Bella as hard as I could, reclaiming her with each thrust, apologizing with each kiss, and hopefully erasing her hurt with each touch.
"Yes Edward, harder, please. More, don't stop. Fuck me Edward, please fuck me." She understood this wasn't just making love, we were physically taking each other as our own. Her back arched pressing her breasts deeper in my mouth, her hands pulling at my hair painfully, while her walls squeezed around my cock, owning it, fucking it, taking it.
"Edward. Cum with me, please baby, cum with me." I felt Bella contract around me and it triggered my release. I rammed my cock into her a few more times and we came together in a tangle of limbs, sweat, and love. I laid on top of Bella, still nestled inside of her, until our breathing calmed. I eventually rolled and pulled her with me.
"I love you Bella. I won't fail you again baby. I promise. Forever Bella. We're forever."
"I know Edward. I know. I love you." I held her as tight as I could thanking god she was back in my arms until we both fell asleep.
I woke early and watched Bella sleeping. I still couldn't believe she came back. I made a promise to myself right then and there to never keep anything from her ever again and to do everything in my power to always make sure she was by my side and happy. She's given me everything and she deserves the best in return. She doesn't deserve my selfishness or the consequences of my fears. She deserves a man who can open his mouth and say what needs to be said. And now that she knew everything, I knew it was time to secure our future.
Bella woke and just looked at me. "Hi." She even sounded like an angel.
"Good morning. Sleep well?"
"Amazingly well. You?"
"Better than ever. I never want to spend a night without you in my arms. Move in with me Bella?" It just felt right. This was our home. And she practically lived here to begin with. I saw no reason why we shouldn't make it official.
"Edward, I don't want you to ask me to live with you because you're afraid you're going to lose me." I guess after last night it could seem that way. Ya think? I had to make her understand that wasn't it at all. Hell, the only thing standing in my way of dragging her down to the justice of the peace was my inability to tell her about the Family. Yeah, that and her consent you dumb ass.
"Baby, I've wanted you to live with me for so long now. I just didn't think it was right to ask you until you knew about the Family. You know everything now and for some amazing reason you're still here. I want you to be a permanent fixture in my life Bella. I want you to live with me because I love you and want us to begin merging our lives together. Move in with me. Today."
A silent tear fell down Bella's face and I wiped it away. "I want that too Edward, so much. But um, I have finals, I really don't have time to pack up and move right now. How about after my exams? And I'll be here every night until then if you'd like."
"Ah, my sweet girl, I happen to be a rather powerful man. I think I can arrange to have your things packed and moved in by the time you get home tonight. All you have to do say yes."
"Seriously? But Edward, I don't want one of your men going through my underwear and stuff." Like I'd even allow that to happen.
"Don't worry, I'll have Jane supervise the move and make sure she handles your personal things. Say yes."
"Yes." It was one ordinary word and it completely changed my life. And she said it with an air of confidence about her that I'd never experienced from her before. My Bella was moving in with me. I went to pull her face to mine and she giggled and jumped out of the bed before I could touch her.
"I need a shower," she said, then giggled again. "And you need to do something about that giant hard on you're sporting." With that she removed her shirt and ran to the bathroom completely naked and giggling the entire way. All I could do was follow.
After some of the most amazing shower sex and checking to make sure I didn't hurt my girl after slamming her into the tiled wall so many times, we dressed and went to grab some coffee and breakfast.
"Edward, I do have a couple of questions about your business if you don't mind." Ah shit. I was determined to be honest with her but I had to be careful not to make her any sort of accessory. That said, I sure as hell wasn't going to keep anything from her ever again.
"I don't want to know much. I mean, unless you want to talk to me about things and if you don't I understand and I'm not offended. I just ask that you let me know about the bigger things. Like that I have a bodyguard and stuff that impacts us. Is that okay? I mean, I'm not really sure how all this works." The innocent look on her face was breathtaking. And she asks if that's okay. Half of me wanted to tell her she would be well within her rights to make me suffer for a long time for what I did but the other half of me reminded me I'm not fucking stupid.
"Always Bella. I don't want us to ever have secrets between us again. I'll tell you anything you want to know."
"Um, I was also wondering about Alec. I understand that you think he's necessary, but can he just be out in the open? I mean, I know he's around now so it would really creep me out if he was like hiding in the bushes or something." God, she didn't even know how happy I would be to have Alec in the open with better access to her?
"Of course Bella, and I don't mean to scare you, but Alec is completely necessary. You need to understand that being with me means that you need security too. I would die if anything ever happened to you especially if it was because of your involvement with me. Security is needed to make sure no one tries to use you to get to me. Doing that is clearly against the rules, girlfriends and wives aren't to be mess with and they usually aren't. And there's always the James factor to consider." I didn't want her to be scared, but she had to be aware that there are some risks. I'd kill any motherfucker with my bare hands that tried to harm Bella.
"I guess I understand that. Rose said she had a bodyguard too. I'll try to get used to it if it means that much to you."
"Thank you baby, you have no idea how much that means to me." And she didn't. I'd be able to breathe a little easier knowing Alec was closer, protecting her.
"And Bella, it isn't like Alec is there to keep tabs on you or to watch you. He's mostly there to watch other people. I hope you understand that. Alice and Esme both have bodyguards too. Hell, Emmett's my bodyguard and when he isn't with me, someone else always is."
"I don't like thinking that you're in danger Edward." And there she is, my angel, always concerned about someone other than herself.
"You don't have to worry about that Bella. I'm well taken care of and I'm the best at what I do. And I surround myself and those important to me by the best there is." The last thing I needed was Bella being worried all the time.
She continued with her questioning. "Um, and that federal agent, I hope you know I never would have said anything to him about you." She actually looked nervous and I didn't understand that.
"Bella, the thought never crossed my mind. I trust you completely. My not telling you wasn't about trust baby. It was about, well, it was about me being a pussy if you want my brutally honest answer." And it was, and I just admitted it. First time for everything.
"Do you think he's going to try to bother me again?" Unfortunately the feds had no respect when it came to woman.
"If he's figured out that you're important to me, he'll probably try to get to you again. I hope he doesn't, but dealing with the feds is a little different than dealing with rivals or other business associates. And Bella, I know it sounds cliché, but Black dirty. He's out for himself and can't be trusted."
"Anything else I should know?"
"Just that I'm going to make you the happiest woman in the world for the rest of your life."
"I already am Edward. I already am I can promise you that." With that Bella stood up and grabbed her bag. "Oh, and Edward, I'll be home around 6 or so." She kissed me on the cheek and giggled.
"God I love the sound of that baby!" Nothing had ever sounded sweeter.
I made arrangements with my assistant Jane for Bella's condo to be packed up and her things moved into the Penthouse. I also called my jeweler and told him what I wanted. I then made an official appointment to speak with Charlie Swan. I was going to do this the right way.
I was sitting at my desk going over some paperwork when I received a call from Jenks.
"Mr. Cullen, I have some upsetting news." Well, that's never a good way to start a call.
"It appears Mr. Alistair has returned to the states. He landed in California this morning. He's staying with some friends from college." Son of a bitch.
"I want him watched Jenks. I want updates on his movements. His father is going to be starting his re-election campaign soon. I suspect he's making his way back for that." I had already spoken to the Senator about his son a while ago. I wasn't going to touch the asshole because that was what Bella wanted. But damn it, I would have to get her to understand if a single threat was made towards her I would do what needed to be done.
"He doesn't make a move without me knowing about it. Understood?"
"Yes Mr. Cullen."
I hung up with Jenks and continued working. Alice walked in soon after.
"So Edward, Bella's graduating soon." Ah, my sister, always with a knack for the obvious. "I want to throw a graduation party for her. I've spoken to Mom and she thinks it's a wonderful idea." Great, Alice and Esme planning a party. I could just see it now, over the top and completely embarrassing for Bella. She did not enjoy being the center of attention.
"Alice, first, I think Renee should probably be involved in any graduation plans for Bella. Second, do you really think Bella would enjoy a big fuss being made about her? I don't think so. You might want to let her in on your little plan or I will. She's worked too hard for this and I don't want her uncomfortable on such a big day."
"I'll give Renee a call and talk to Bella if it will make you happy. And you know Bella and I have become quite close lately, I know not to embarrass her. I was thinking maybe a big dinner or something." That sounded a little better.
"She's moving in with me today." I couldn't help it. I was so happy I had to share and I knew the little pixie would freak out about this news.
"Oh my god are you kidding me? You're going to live with a girl? Edward this is so fantastic! I can't believe this!" She was shrieking and jumping up and down with so much energy I almost wanted to join her. "So she knows everything now?"
"Yes Alice, she knows and she's, well, I guess she's okay with it. She said she just wants to be with me and I'm going to make sure she is." Alice resumed her jumping and screaming. Yeah, she was starting to give me a headache. She started rambling on about a dinner and shopping and house warmings as she got up and made her way out of my office. Lord only knows what she was planning.
I heard more shrieking from outside my office and figured everyone I knew would know Bella was moving in with me by the end of the day. Telling the little pixie was like broadcasting the news.
I heard another knock on my door and yelled for them to come in. I looked up and saw Bella. She was completely quiet and had a small smile on her face. She walked behind my desk and sat on it right in front of me.
"So Edward, I recall you once telling me you'd like to bend me over your desk and have your way with me. Maybe it's time you made good on that little admission." She slowly uncrossed her legs and put her pinky finger in her mouth. I loved it when bold Bella came out to play.
I pulled her finger out of her mouth, picked her up off the desk and set her down right in front of me.
"You little minx. I'm gonna make good, actually I'm going to make deep, hard, and good." With that I spun Bella around, pushed her shirt up, pulled her jeans and panties down and bent her over my desk. I quickly undid my pants and with one quick move, I thrust my cock so deep inside her I could hear my balls smack her ass.
"Jesus. Christ. Edward." I bent down slightly and palmed Bella's fantastic breasts and quietly whispered in her ear, "Baby, I will always make good for you and your sweet tight pussy." I put my hands on her hips and began pounding into her. She was grabbing onto the edge of the desk for dear life muttering incoherent words as I continued to ram my cock into her like it was the last thing I would ever do. I was being rough and frantic and eventually Bella was screaming my name as I felt her walls clenching around me.
"Jesus Edward, I'm gonna cum. You're so fucking amazing." I slammed into her a few more times while Bella came all over my cock triggering my own release. I fell onto her back while we tried to calm our breathing. I eventually pulled out of her, sat back in my chair and pulled her on my lap.
"God baby, what brought that on? Not that I'm complaining."
"I don't know. Something feels different about us now, lighter? And well, my last class was cancelled and I thought a little visit with my roomie might be a fun way to spend the unexpected free time." She just giggled.
"Baby, you can visit me at work any time you'd like." She giggled again, stood up, dressed herself and kissed me on the cheek. "I'm sure you have plenty of work and I need to get back to the library." Every single thing this woman did surprised me. She literally just stopped by my office so I could fuck her on my desk because I had once mentioned I'd fantasized about it. My Bella was anything but predictable.