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"I'M SO OFFENDED."

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April 11

Of course I didn't kill myself

That would have been a wonderful way to go

At least I could of left with some honor

But I couldn't

I felt so scared

I felt like I had a reason to live

But I don't

What honor do I hold now?

Nothing

Now I have the curse of having to remember the brown pants

The droplets of blood

And the eyes of a murdered lamb

April 11 7:05 PM

Oh guess what?

Baba caught me with the pill

Yes he did and he finally hit me

It felt almost soothing

Like a sweet gateway to penance

But good old reliable Hassan, stopped him and pleaded

"Don't hit him agha, he must feel horrible already for him to try such a thing."

Baba let go and he murmured to me

"Boy you fix whatever you have broken."

Hah if he kept hitting me than I would have been "fixed"

Hassan than looked at me and all to knowingly said

"Agha it's not your fault for what happened to me."

I than blew up

"Stupid I hate you, you forgive everything I do you you are to good for me, please Hassan just hit me or something so the guilt within my heart does not claim me."

Hassan than did something

He kissed me

Weird, I actually felt happy, a bit of sorrow left my heart

He however was embarrassed

"Agha I'm sorry I just thought if I …"

I shushed him and replied

"Call me Amir, and kiss me again."

"Amir."

That night my guilt fluttered to the door and that night I created a sin

A sin I would surly die for if ever found out

No kidding

That night shall remain with Hassan and me

Maybe with god, that baba doesn't believe in