The Lonely

(I own nothing! JKR and Christina Perri own what is rightfully theirs! Takes place in Deathly Hallows when the Golden Trio is on the Horcrux hunt. Ginny's POV)

I sat on my window bench. I stare out at the rain pouring down. It reminds me of how I feel right now. So lonely, I could cry.

I glance at my clock, it's almost 2:30 am. I don't know why I'm still up. It's Christmas Eve. I should be snuggled in my warm blankets, fast asleep.

But I'm not.

I want Ron, Hermione, and Harry to come back. Hermione's my best friend. I don't feel lonely when she stays over here because she's usually on the other side of the room. Ron is my brother. I'm closest to him out of all my brothers. It's only because when everyone else was off at Hogwarts, we were to two always left behind. I cried as I saw him leave on the Hogwarts Express. I knew he would find new friends, and I would just be his little sister.

And Harry, well Harry, had been my childhood crush. I had claimed in my fourth year that was over him, but I knew that wasn't true. I had just said that because I knew I was nothing compared to Cho Chang But in my fifth year, his feelings for me started to grow, and in knew it. I knew he didn't say anything because he thought I was over him, plus I was his best mate's little sister.

But eventually, he did tell me. Well he kinda kissed me first, and then we took a walk and he told me.

Within those short weeks, I had fallen in love with him. I have a feeling that I was in love with him all along, but I think I just now figured it out. He tore my heart out when he left to do God knows what.

And now, I sit on my window seat, trying to contain my tears, knowing all too well, that it won't last long.

I got up slowly and walked over to my desk. I switched my radio on and turned it down so I wouldn't wake anyone. I put in my favorite CD –A muggle singer named Christina Perri- and skipped to the song that fit my mood right now.

The piano filled the room. I put the song on repeat and then laid on my bed.

2am, where do I begin
Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed

I started to sing along softly so no one could hear.

I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well

I felt the tears fall down my pale cheeks. I miss them so much.

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

Too afraid, to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me till I fall asleep

I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

I listen as I remember Hermione's bushy hair, Ron's temper, and Harry's eyes.

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me
And the lonely...

I wish they were here right now. I need comfort. I could always tell my mom, but she would just suffocate me until I'm better. I won't be better until they come back.

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again...

I wish I could have been stuck in my fifth year. I wish I could've stayed there my whole life, I wish I had never left. I wish Harry hadn't left, because he had taken my heart with him

(Thanks for reading!)