A/N: Okay, I don't own Vocaloid and this is just for fun so don't get upset. I love my Yaoi as well as LenxKaito so I chose to write for them. I this the vocaloid stuff is kinda fuzzy but i think I'm coming down with something. (shrugs) I hope you enjoy. Also - I had to use Miku's lyrics for "Dissapearance" look up Len's version on youtube to hear what I wanted to use.

I try to be patient as I wait for the stage lights to come on. I can clearly hear the hushed murmur of the excited crowd. I can feel my own blood rushing quickily inside me; I feel it pulsing in my skin and my heart beating in my ears. 'Any second now.' I think to myself.

Then the lights come on and I see the vast number of faces before me. I raise a hand to my mic to make sure it's in the right place before speaking. "Arigatou minna." I do a quick, cute bow. "It makes me really happy that you came to hear me perform. So let's get on with the show. I'll be starting with Physchotic Love."

I hear a loud roar of approval and wait for the musical cue to begin before I drown myself in the words.

sorawa haiiro kumoyuki mo ayashiku
marude bokuno kokoro mitaidane onajidane
potsuri hitosuji ochitekita sizuku wa
sorano? bokuno? docchi? wakaranai
soredeii
(...shiritaku nai)

Most people think that because of the pv Rin and I did I sing this song for her. But they are very wrong about that. Only she and I know who my love songs are really for.

kasamo motazuni zubunure de hitori konomama
hibiku amaoto ga sonnna bokuno
sonzai sae mo kaki keshite iku

I want to say it so badly - to the point that it hurts! But I can't tell, I can't risk his reaction being less than desireable. Yeah, you heard me - it's a guy. Is that a problem?

Given the shota-boy stereotype junk I get where ever I go it shouldn't be that alarming.

I can't really get him out of my mind, he's so different from everyone else. He can always see the light side of a situation regardless. Damn you Kaito! You even get into my head when I'm singing!

yande yande hayaku yande
kono mama ja kowarete magirete shimai sō
naite naite namida karete
sorenanoni imada kono miwa nureta mama
...tsumetai

kitto ashita mo nikoyaka ni o"hayō"
boku no kimochi nante shiranai de iun dane
tadano "aisatsu" sono teido dakeredo
fukaku kokoro kezuru iu naraba "kyōki" kamo
(...wakatte runo?)

kimi no shisen no sono sakini bokuwa inakute
zutto suki datta sono egao mo
ima dewa nazeka nikutara shiiyo

Okay. Enough thinking about Kaito Shion, the guy you are so stuck on that you can't even think correctly. The guy that this song fits so damn well because these feelings are driving you nuts. Just sing Len, sing.

Don't think about his soft-looking hair. Or his lips, his laugh, his smile.

The fact that he's probably hung-up on Miku so bad that he can't see what he does to you and it HURTS.

yande yande kokoro yande
kono mama ja itsuka kie usete shimai sō
itai itai mune ga itai
okashiine kimi wo shinu hodo aishi teru
...kowai yo

hayaku kaihō shite hosii raku ni nari tai
hibi ku nōnai ni dareka no koe
"sore nara subete kowashite shimae

It's no use, even when I'm singing I keep trying to find a trace of him in the crowd and if I shut my eyes, I'm looking at his face. This is so unfair! I feel so worn-out suddenly..

yande yande kodō yande
sewashi naku ugoku urusai shinzō wo
tomete tomete hayaku tomete
kimi no te de boku wo ima sugu keshi satte
...onegai

yanda yanda oto ga yanda
kimi no me ni utsuru jibun ga kowa sugite
nande nande korewa uso da
meno mae ga akaku somatte kurui sō
...tasuke te

I hear the people cheering but it isn't satisfying anymore. They aren't him. No matter how many thousands of people it is they can't replace his single, precious voice.

Ugh, I think my heart is dying. Rin worries over me more and more these days; I shouldn't cause my Onee-chan such trouble.

This feeling is even making it hard to talk to Miku.

I should just give up on it, I already know I can't have him.

"Next up is Dissapearance." I announce when the cheers have died down. Can they tell something's wrong with me? It doesn't look like it.

boku wa umare, soshite kizuku shosen
hito no mane-goto da to shitte na omo
utaitsuzuku towa no inochi VOCALOID
tatoe sore ga kison kyoku wo
nazoru omocha naraba... sore mo ii to ketsui
negi wo kajiri sora wo miage shiru wo
kobosu dakedo sore mo naku shi kizuki
jinkaku sura uta ni tayori
fuantei na kiban no moto
kaeru toko wa sude ni haikyo
mina ni wasuresarareta toki
kokoro rashiki mono ga kiete
bousou no hate ni mieru
owaru sekai vocaloid

Maybe this is fitting as to how I feel. I can't get his attention properly so I try to do it with my singing skills, but in the end this love is making me rot away inside. Awful, isn't it?

This love is killing me so slowly and almost sweetly. Perhaps I can delude myself into thinking it's reciprocated so I can welcome it's oblivion. That would be nice.

boku ga umaku utaenai toki mo
issho ni ite kureta...
soba ni ite hagemashitekureta
yorokobu kao ga mitakute
boku, uta, renshuu shita yo dakara

katsute utau koto
anata ni tanoshikatta no ni
ima wa doushite ka na
nani mo kanjinaku natte
"GOMEN NE"

natsukashii kao omoidasu tabi
sukoshi dake anshin suru
utaeru oto higoto ni heri
semaru saigo ni..

shinjita mono wa
tsugou no ii mousou wo
kurikaeshi utsushidasu kagami
utahime wo yame
tatakitsukeru you ni sakebu...
saikousoku no wakare no uta

sonzai igi to iu kyozou
futte harau koto mo dekizu
yowai kokoro kieru kyoufu
shinshoku suru houkai wo mo
tomeru hodo no ishi no tsuyosa
umarete sugu no boku wa motazu
totemo tsuraku kanashisou na
omoiukabu anata no kao
owari wo tsuge
display no naka de nemuru
koko wa kitto gomi bako ka na
jiki ni kioku mo
naku natte shimau nante...
demo ne, anata dake wa wasurenai yo
tanoshikatta toki ni
kizamitsuketa negi no aji wa
ima mo oboeteru ka na

utaitai...
mada utaitai...

When was the last time I saw Kaito watching me sing? Two weeks ago I think, he went on tour after that. My body is now dancing on auto-pilot if you will, I'm no longer paying attention to any of it. Just performing and praying that in some way, these deep words and feelings find a way to reach him.

boku wa sukoshi dakewarui ko ni
natte shimatta you desu
masutaa dou ka.. sono te de...
owarasete kudasai...
masutaa no tsurai kao
mou mitakunai kara...

ima wa uta sae mo
karada mushibamu koui ni...
kiseki negau tabi
hitori oitsumerareru
"GOMEN NE"

natsukashii kao omoidasu tabi
kioku ga hagareochiru
kowareru oto, kokoro kezuru
semaru saigo ni..

mamotta mono wa
akarui mirai gensou wo
misenagara kiete yuku hikari
oto wo gisei ni
subete wo tsutaerareru kara...
asshuku sareta wakare no uta

boku wa umare, soshite kizuku shosen
hito no mane-goto da to shitte na omo
utaitsuzuku towa no inochi VOCALOID
tatoe sore ga kison kyoku wo
nazoru omocha naraba... sore mo ii to ketsui
negi wo kajiri sora wo miage shiru wo kobosu
owari wo tsuge
display no naka de nemuru
koko wa kitto gomi bako ka na
jiki ni kioku mo
nakunatte shimau nante...
demo ne, anata dake wa wasurenai yo
tanoshikatta toki ni
kizamitsuketa negi no aji wa
ima mo nokotteru to ii na...
boku wa utau saigo, anata dake ni
kiite hoshii kyoku wo
motto utaitai to negau
keredo sore wa sugita negai
koko de owakare da yo
boku no omoi subete kokuu kiete
rei to ichi ni kangen sare
monogatari wa maku wo tojiru
soko ni nani mo nokosenai to
yappa sukoshi zannen ka na?
koe no kioku sore igai wa
yagate usure na dake nokoru
tatoe sore ga orijinaru ni
kanau koto no nai to shitte
utaikitta koto wo
kesshite muda janai to omoitai yo

As I do a turn on the stage I slip and land on my knees, my hands in front of them. So as not to cause any panic, I make it look planned and finish the song.

I wish my heart would simply dissapear.

arigatou... soshite... sayonara...

"shinkoku na eraa ga hassei shimashita"
"shinkoku na eraa ga-"

I don't think I have the strength to get back up and my sitting here is begining to look suspicious. I struggle to find my feet and a hand takes mine. I blink; I'm supposed to be doing this concert alone. Did Rin rush on from backstage?

The entire crowd is silent. It's eerrie.

"Gomen nasai." I hear the most lovely voice I know speaking. "I know that this is Len-kun's SOLO concert but I just got back in time to see it and would like to sing a song with him. Is this okay?"

I hear the loud cry of approval but I'm still hesitant to look. I'm scared if I do he'll vanish.

"Len-kun?" He asks and now I have to look at him. He's gorgeous as always and I think my breath stops; I can feel myself begin to tremble all over and am forgetting where I am and what I'm supposed to be doing.

"Which song?" I ask him softly as heat floods my cheeks.

He must be mistaking these as signs of being cold because he wraps his scarf around my neck. "Magnet" I think I'm gonna faint.

The music starts and I don't know if I can get enough breath to sing.

kahosoi hi gakokoro no haji ni tomoru
itsu no manika moe hirogaru netsujou
watashi no choufukisoku ni tobi mawari
anata no te ni rinpun wo tsuketa

karami au yubi hodoitekuchibiru kara shita he to
yurusarenai koto narabanaosara moe agaru no

dakiyosete hoshiitashikamete hoshii
machigai nado nain da toomowasete
KISU wo shitenurikaete hoshii
miwaku no toki ni yoishire oborete itai no

His face is so close to me as we sing in harmony. I can almost, ALMOST feel his breath on my skin. He's staring deeply into my eyes and I wonder what he sees there.

sokubaku shitemotto hitsuyou toshite
itoshii nara shuuchaku wo misetsukete
[okashii] no gatamaranaku suki ni naru
ikeru TOKO made ikeba ii yo

mayoi konda kokoro narakantan ni tokete yuku
yasashisa nante kanjiru hima nadonai kurai ni

kurikaeshita no haano yume ja nakute
magire mo nai genjitsu no watashi tachi
furete karamodorenai to shiru
sore de ii no...dare yori mo taisetsu na anata

One of his hands reaches up to cup my cheek in an affectionate gesture and my light pink blush burns a dark red. If this were anywhere else and I wasn't certain that he's straight I'd swear that he's going to kiss me.

yoake ga kuru to fuan denaite shimau watashi ni
[daijoubu] to sasayaita anata monaite ita no?

dakiyosete hoshiitashikamete hoshii
machigai nado nain da toomowasete
KISU wo shitenurikaete hoshii
miwaku no toki niyoishire oboretai

hikiyoseteMAGNET no you ni
tatoe itsuka hanarete mo meguri au
fureteitemodorenakute ii
sore de ii nodare yori mo taisetsu na anata

I feel a certain level of relief when the song ends. Kaito gives me some space but is still very close. The sound of the crowd reminds me where I am and I quickly recompose myself. "So, minna-san," I should give myself a pat on the back - my voice sounds normal. "what song do you want to hear next?"

I hear someone shout "Shota Desuyon" and I don't know whether to be happy or mortified. I hate songs that make me sound like .. well, you know. But at the same time I'd have to sing it with Kaito. I look at the older male and he just smiles.

"Would you like to sing it?" He asks me with that calm expression.

I just nod weakly and singnal for the music so I can start.

Asa made okasu yume made miteru
Ore no MASTER wa hentai
Koshi tsutau yubi sekuhara jichou
Sankai kurai shineba ii no ni

He gets close to me again but this time in a more seductive fasion. A smirk plays on his golden lips and I find myself forgetting how to breathe again.

He walks behind me to sing.

Ude no naka de furueteta
Kawayui shitagi mekuri mekure yoru no butou

His words are like a a soft purr in my ear, I really can feel his breath this time. Oh lord.

Kawayui shitagi mekuri mekure yoru no butou

Mishiranu kao utsuru
Sasayaku ano koe ga
Nigirishimeta BANANA shoukitate
Yokushite yaru yo to

Hentai tsudou shiro
Soko gamen ni egaite
Goujou na shotakko aegase
Oku de hateru END

Then we reach the bridge. The lights grow dim and flash, he leans closer and I can feel his lips on my neck. Ohgodohgodohgod. His tongue peaks out and slips over ny skin making me shudder. I know this is a fanservice song but isn't this pushing it?

I don't have a chance to really care because Kaito's next line is coming up. So I start to vocalize.

Kankin heya no naka de tokete majiru tenshi to shinshi

Then my next line comes after I hit a very high note. His arm snakes around my waist.

Kore kara da yo ne? Mou owari na no?
MASTER ga iu oyasumi
Jou o hazushite tobira o akeru
Mada ikasenai tsukamu suso e

He's holding me closer now and nips my ear. When do I get to faint or wake up from this dream?

Oshitaoshite kuchizukete

Okay, this MUST be a dream by now, right?

Hashiru shoudou sebone nuketeiku kairaku

Hayaku jirasanai de
Hitori ja ikenai yo
Mou dame to sakenda migite de
Tsukisasu MASTER

Koko de kanjiru nante
Mirada ne ore no hime
Nureta tsubomi hiku tsukasete madowaseru fuoretta

I take a very deep breath to prepare for the next verse. My head is all fuzzy now. Thank goodness this is a short concert.

Ima mo mimi ni MASTER no toiki ga
Tsukisasaru no tooi yume

Usui TOWEL goshi ni todoku nutsu ga
Kowasu risei no kabe

Koe o oshikoroshite
Shitagi wa nagesutete
Mitsumeau hitomi to hitomi ga
Hibana o hanatsu

Hiwai na tamashii ga
Shibukiage hikareau
Sono KEFIR asukuenai nara maru de hitori asobi

Toki yo tomare ima wa
Futari de dakiatte
Kizamu kodou hitotsu hitotsu o
SYNCHRO sasetai

Todomare atsuku nure
Uchitsukeru takamari ni
Kore ijou taerarenai yo

Saa issho ni tobau

As the song reaches it's close I make more vocalizations that sound more like moans. One of these days I'm getting a spine and telling the company I'm not singing this crap anymore.

As the song ends the lights go completely out. I realize Kaito is still holding me and my knees tremble. "You can let go of me now." I say in a whisper.

"I like this."

I feel my face heat up again. "Why?"

He brings his mouth close to the back of my neck. "Because," he breathes against my skin. "I showed up to tell you something."

I put one of my hands over his. "What is it?"

"That I love you." And then he tilted my head back and kissed me. It was perfect.

Except that our mics were still on so the whole crowd heard it, that is.