Im sorry this couldn't go on for more chapters but I struggled with this one. I don't know why but I found it hard to write about what I thought happened in Paris plus it is such a huge part to Tony and Ziva's relationship, I dint want to mess it up. I hope you all like it and I would really appreciate your thoughts on it. The parts in bold are quotes from the movie "The Note Book" THERE ARE SPOILERS to the movie so If you don't want to know please don't read. Thanks so much for all your reviews.
Tony and Ziva sat back with their backs against the pillows, both were quite hot so did not get under the covers, they weren't used to sleeping without being semi naked. Tony wasn't coping well with wearing a t-shirt, it was too hot in that room and he did not want to open a window just in case Ziva was cold so he pulled his top over his head and threw it onto the floor beside the bed.
"Phew that's better"
Ziva kept her eyes on the screen. They had been watching the film for quite a while and Ziva was getting into it. Tony took a look at her quickly so that she couldn't catch him, he swore that she did not blink the whole time, she looked so peaceful as she watched the movie.
"So what do you think up to now then?"
"Shhhhhhhh Tony! I am trying to listen"
"Take it you like it then"
Ziva hit his chest without taking her eyes away from the TV, she suddenly realised that his chest was bare. She whipped her head around to take a look, she did not know why she needed to look but she did. Once she saw it she blushed, her eyes lingered a little too long. Tony smiled when he saw that her cheeks were turning red. She quickly moved her eyes back to the TV.
"Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing."
" So what?"
"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."
"What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt."
"Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?"
"It's not that simple."
A small tear left Ziva's eye. Somehow this argument she was watching on the TV screen made her heart sink, it described her and Tony's relationship in many ways. They were always insulting each other but that was just the way they are as Tony said outside the hotel. Something inside her was telling her that she wish Tony would have said the exact same speech too her, she wanted him.
"Are you crying?"
Ziva quickly wiped the tear away from her face.
"You are! You're crying!"
Ziva whipped her head to look at him with her death stare but something moved slowly down his face that made her heart drop. She leaned over and wiped the tear softly of his cheek with her thumb. Tony smiled as a shiver travelled down his spine as her skin touched his. All he wanted to do was to snatch her hand and pull her too him, he wanted to not just feel her skin on his face, he wanted to feel her breath and lips.
"You know you do not have to hide your feelings all the time Tony."
"What do you mean?"
"Well just because you cry at something so powerful does not mean that you are not a man, Tony. It just means you are a...human."
"Okay so if we are sharing, what was up before?"
Ziva did not think her little speech through. She cannot be a hypocrite now and not tell him but this was far from crying at a movie, this was big! Ziva just looked away back at the TV, they had seemed to move a little closer together by then and there skin on their arms was now touching. Even though it was just a little interaction, it gave them both comfit. Tony decided not to push Ziva to tell him what was up with her before and just started to watch the rest of the movie.
The credits started to roll up the screen, in the space of them talking and the end of the movie, a box of tissues had made its way in-between Tony and Ziva. Both of them had tears streaming down their faces, they were silent for a while.
"They died!" Ziva was in shock, she had never seen a movie as sad as this.
Tony did not answer he just sat there in shock also. Ziva turned to him and punched him in the arm very hard.
"Ow! Will you stop hitting me! What was that one for!"
"For letting me watch this! I do not think I have ever cried at a film before! In fact I do not think I have ever cried like this before!"
"I told you I haven't ever seen this before! God!"
They were both shouting at each other while they were crying, something got inside of them that could not stop them from crying, it was a powerful emotion that they had no control of at this moment in time.
"I spend too much time with you! You're turning me into a woman!"
They both stared at each other for a minute and suddenly burst into a fit of laughs. They had never experienced anything like this! It was so overwhelming to them, they were full of joy and sadness that it all just burst out of them in one big explosion. Tony and Ziva were laughing so hard that they were curled up on the bed holding there tummies in pain of laughing so much. They both started to come down from their high and ended up lying next to each other just staring into each other's eyes smiling to one another.
"Well that was...different."
"Tony? Do you ever wonder if you will ever meet the women you know you will be with till you die?"
"Well, I think that there is someone out there who will be "THE ONE" but I think it's not my time to find her yet. Once I sort myself out, my feelings, then the time will come for me to find her. I know for a fact she is out there though, I have known for a long time Ziva."
She smiled at his words, he was being so open with him. They never talk about things like this. She had tried once but he just pushed it away.
"How about you? Do you think there is a mr right out there?"
"Erm I would like to think there is. Just like you I need to figure out my feelings and my life before I open that can of tuna. I think I know that that time will come for me, the time to be happy and settle down."
"Ziva its worms not tuna."
"But that makes no sense does it? Since when has worms been in a can?"
Tony just smiled, he found it extremely cute when she got things wrong but she was surprisingly right, worms made no sense. Yet again they spent a bit of time just looking deep into each other's eyes. Ziva got up and walked over to where Tony's bag was, she reached in and got the Horror DVD out. Once she had put it into the DVD player she walked back over to the bed and got onto it. Tony was in shock when he felt her hand touch his and squeeze it.
"Thank you Tony."
"For talking to me, crying with me and laughing with me. I really needed that."
"Don't worry about it Zee. I am always here if you need to talk, you know that right?"
"Yes I know."
They turned to watch the movie. They did not get to finish it, they had both fallen asleep. Tony woke up when he heard the load music of the credits and reached for the remote to turn it off. Once it was off he realised that his chest was quite heavy and his arm was numb. He looked down to the sleeping women lying on his chest, his arm was stretched all the way around her waist. She was pulled closed into his side, Tony couldn't remember how she ended up this way but she looked so peaceful he did not want to move her. She suddenly moved her hand around his waist and pulled herself closer into his body and put her face into his neck. Tony could feel her breathing lightly against his sweet spot on his neck, this sent shivers down his spine. She looked so happy in her sleep it would have been wrong for him to move her he thought so he just left her and rested his head on hers as he drifted off into one of the best sleeps he has ever had, tangled in Ziva's arms.