Don't own these characters, they are from October Roads (Love the show) and the song is from Glee. Its called Pretending, and can be found on ITUNES

Janet walked into Sulley's bar, knowing tonight was Karaoke night, a night she did not look forward to. However, she was trying to be strong and not think about the one thing that was on her mind.

Eddie.

She knew that while she was the one that messed up the relationship, she couldn't help but think that he messed up too. He should have told her about Rory but he did not. They did not speak to each other, except a "hello" or "how are you". He had not been to Sully's in awhile, and if he had been she had not seen him. But at this point she told herself that she need to be strong and not worry about him anymore.

She started working and before long it was about 8 o'clock. She was running around not noticing that Eddie had walked in. He walked over to his friends and started drinking his beer they had gotten him. Owen tried to talk to him but he was looking at her. She looked differently he thought. She was tired, and she has lost weight. She just looked sad, and he wanted to make her happy but part of his heart was still broken from what she had done. He knew that one day they would have to sit down and talk about everything but he was scared. He did not want to get hurt even more but he knew deep down that they would have to talk about it.

"Eddie"

"What O?"

"You ok? Seems I losted you" Owen looked at Eddie and before Eddie said anything Owen started

"I know this hard, but what you and Janet have is something special, you can't pretend to tell me that you don't feel anything for her. Talk to her, Eddie you can't just sit here looking at her all the time" Owen said getting up and going over to the bar.

"Hey Janet" Owen said sitting at the bar

"Hey Owen, what can I get you?

" To talk to Eddie, that is what I want" Owen said as he looked at Janet

"I…." Janet started but stopped when she saw Eddie, he was watching her and Owen. He did not look happy in fact he looked mad. She was not sure what he was thinking and really did not want to cause him or anyone else trouble.

"Eddie told me, Janet look we all make mistakes. And hell Janet, when Alison was with Ikey it killed me, but somehow I got through it and Alison and I are getting stronger than before."

"Owen, I would give anything to talk to him but I don't think I can do it. I don't think there is much hope"

"Janet, don't give up hope not yet anyways. There is always a chance."

Owen left her to think about what he had said. Maybe there is a chance she thought. She did not She was ready to go home, and take a nice hot bath but the bath would have to wait. While she was tending the bar, a couple start singing, she did not know what the song was but started to listen to the words of the song.

Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay
But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Deep down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
We will always be pretending

She stopped what she was doing and just stared at the bottle she was holding. She wanted to stop pretending that everything was ok. She was ready to face Eddie and deal with whatever he had to say. She wanted to move on but she wanted to move on with Eddie. Knowing that, made her sad and a tear rolled down her cheek as the song continued playing. Sully tapped her shoulder, and whispered "You need a few minutes?" Janet simply nodded her head. She walked back out the door to the loading docks and sat down thinking about everything.

How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
If we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Deep down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending

Will we (oh oh) always (oh oh) be keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like nowhere's safe to go
And it's such a shame
Cuz if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know

Eddie saw Janet and stared at her. She was looking down at the bottle she had in her hands and she seemed upset. He listened to the song, and release that he needed to talk to Janet. He was tired of pretending that he hated her, and was ready to make things better. He saw what looked to be a tear coming down her cheek and then Sully whisper in her ear. And then she walked back to the docks. He looked at Owen and got up to follow Janet.

When he found her, his heart broke, she was sitting down with her head in her hands crying. He hated when she cried but he did not know what to do. He sat down beside her and whisper

"I hate it when you cry"

Janet looked at him not knowing what to say but got the courage to speak from her heart.

"I am tired of pretending that I don't care about you. I am tired of hating myself for being stupid. I hate myself for pushing you away and trying to get even with you. I hate that Rory showed up and you kick me to the curb. I hate that I was not the most important thing to you. Most of all I hate that I love you"

Eddie looked at her, in shock; he knew he had heard her. She loved him. She was in love with him and he did not know what to do. He was scared and did not what to hurt either of them but before he thought about it he said

"I love you too."

They sat in silence not knowing what else to say. She wanted him to take her home and make love to her but she knew that would not happen. Janet looked at Eddied and asked

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why do you love me?"

"You know when I am laying in my bed thinking about how much you hurt me, I get so mad then I see something you did for me. Like when you came over and helped me clean out my closet, or I walked into my bathroom and see your shampoo or your soap. Then I start thinking about all of our good times together. When you walked into Best Friend Windows and told me we would be watching On The Waterfront. Or when I roll over in bed wishing I could hold you. I miss your smell, you touch, your kisses, and most of all you, and our friendship. I have never date a woman where I could sit and tell her my secrets or talk about something stupid. You're her, but then I start to think about what happen with Rooster and I get so mad"

"I miss you, coming into the bar and sitting with me. I miss riding in your truck and being with you. But most of all I just miss my Eddie"

Eddie looked at Janet confused by what she meant.

"You know my Eddie, the one who punched a guy for calling me names or say shit about me. The Eddie who drives more than an hour to get the best veal scaloppini in the state. The man who sat through the play Bye Bye Birdie knowing he would hate it but went any way. The man who kissed me in the bar the night before homecoming."

"So what happens now?"

"We start over, one day at a time, we both love each other. But we need to talk about everything that bothers us in the relationship. Why I was so stupid with Rory and why you went to Roster. Do you want to do that?"

Janet nodded her head, she was scared of getting hurt and hurting him but she knew he was worth the risk. Eddie put his arms around her, and whispered in her ear

"Don't forget that I love you"

Janet looked up with tears in her eyes as he leaned down and kissed her. I was a short sweet kiss that made Janet feel safe and loved.

They both pulled always smiling for the first time in months.

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Deep down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh) always (oh oh) be pretending