If you love me like you told me be careful with my heart. You can take it. Just don't break it, 'cause baby my world would fall apart. –unknown
She thought I was Emmett. I'd known that before I'd even let my lips hit hers. I didn't know why I hadn't stopped myself. I didn't feel like I needed to. It wasn't like I was doing anything we hadn't done already. She was furious. I could see that. She wanted to punch me. We both knew that. We also both knew that she wouldn't.
"I came to talk to you…" I took a deep breath.
I hadn't been able to look at her. She'd chosen Emmett. She'd chosen the one who'd cheated on her. She'd chosen the one who hadn't appreciated her and everything that she was. Most of all, she hadn't chosen me. I didn't think there was even another option. I thought it was an automatic thing. I thought we didn't need words to explain what we had. I was wrong… and I had no way to correct that.
I let my eyes drift upward and saw her looking at me.
"What Jake?" her voice came out low, a whisper.
"I… Princess… Why'd you choose Emmett?"
"Who was the one always there for me?"
"Are you serious?" I couldn't help it, I laughed.
"Yeah, Jake, I am."
She'd never taken that tone of voice with me before. She'd never felt the need. We'd never fought. I wanted to scream in her face. I wanted to make her understand that she was wrong. She'd never been more wrong.
"Rosalie, it was me. I was the one always there for you. I can't believe you're pulling this bullshit move on me. If you don't want anything to do with me you could have just told me that. Don't lie to my face when we both know the truth. I was always there for you. I listened to everything. Our fucking friendship started because I listened to your problems, you know, the problem about Emmett sticking his dick in everyone except you?"
Her head snapped up like I'd slapped her and her eyes looked like they had water in them.
"I was always there, Princess," I repeated, "always. I was there for you when he wasn't. I loved you when he didn't and not for your last name either or because people expected me to. No, I loved you for who you were. I loved you because you're amazing and poetic and beautiful and funny and you listen and when you swim, god, when you swim it's just you do it with a passion. You do it like you know it's what you want. I fell in love with you because I actually KNOW you, the real you. And you fell in love with me too. I don't know why, but you did."
"Don't tell me I'm crazy, Rose."
"I want you in my life-"
"But as a best friend…"
"Rose, best friends don't kiss the way we kissed."
"It was a moment of weakness! It didn't mean anything to either of us," she crossed her arms over her chest.
"Then why have you been avoiding me like I have the Bubonic Plague or some shit?"
"Does it matter?"
"Yes! It does!"
"Jake, let it go. It doesn't matter. What happened before the competition doesn't matter!"
I didn't know if she was saying that for my benefit or for hers. I was getting desperate. I needed proof, just a way to be sure we were done before we started. I just needed to make sure.
I crossed the little space between us, tilted her head up and watched her eyes close instantly.
"Don't do that to me, Rose."
"What?" she was breathing faster.
I could feel her heartbeat through her chest.
"Look at me. Open your eyes."
They fluttered open and landed on mine. I refused to let her gaze leave. She had to feel something, anything. I didn't know where to go from here.
"I remember," she repeated.
That was all it took. My lips hit hers. It wasn't perfect; neither of us knew it was going to happen. It was weird, but it wasn't awkward. It was amazing. I led her hands up and around my neck. I loved the way her heart was beating against me. We were so close I could feel it. I let my tongue push its way in to her mouth. She didn't stop me. The fight for dominance wasn't there. Our tongues didn't battle. She let me lead. I could feel my heartbeat speed up. I wondered if she could feel it.
We broke apart and I looked down at her. Her chest was moving like she'd just hit eight laps in the pool. I pushed her hair back. God, she was amazing. I tilted her head up again. She didn't stop me. She closed her eyes and I let my lips hit hers again, just one quickly, twice, three times. I let my hand fall from her face and the other one from her waist.
"Our kisses mean nothing, right?" I shook my head and took a step back.
She was in shock. I could see that.
There was nothing left to say. We both knew that.
I closed the gap between us again and this time I didn't press our lips together. I just held her close enough to feel her heartbeat again.