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I walk into the house and hear Matthew and Emily - our kids, crying. I walk farther into the house and see Emily sitting on the stairs crying, "Emily, what's wrong?"
She didn't answer, she just clung to my neck. I walked into the living room and found Matthew crying. "Matt, what's wrong?"
"Mom." He answered.
I instantly knew what Bella had done again. I asked him where she was and he told me. I took the two of them to their rooms and made sure I closed their doors.
I walked into our bedroom and saw Bella sitting on the bed watching TV, with a cup of wine in her hand. It was so typical of her to get drunk off wine. This was a reoccurring problem for years, since before we were even married.
As much as I hate it, Bella is an alcoholic. There is no doubt that I love her, but I just can't take seeing her like this.
"Bella, what the hell. I thought you quit drinking." I said angrily.
"Edward, I-I tried, b-but I got stressed and I couldn't help it." She said. For a drunken person she could hold herself well, she could hold a serious conversation and remember it the next morning.
"How could you leave the kids unsupervised down stairs?" I yelled.
She was quiet for a couple minuets letting what she had done sink in and once she realized she started to sob. Typical Bella.
End of flashback
That was a year and a half ago. After that Bella still drank but not in the presence of our children, only when they are away where she knows they're safe. After that day, 3 months later we found out she's pregnant with our 3rd child.
I was standing at the doorway of our room watching Bella breast feed our 4 month old daughter; Abby. We have 3 kids now. Matthew who is 5, Emily who is 3 and Abby who is 4 months.
No matter what, my kids were my greatest accomplishment in this marriage. Yes, I love my wife very much. But my kids are everything to me; I would do anything to keep them happy and safe. That's that.
Bella always stops drinking when she's pregnant and when breast feeding, but as soon as she's done with that she goes right back to drinking.
Abby isn't off breast feeding yet, but I know when she does drunk Bella will be back. I love her but I can't let my kids around that anymore. Matthew has already asked what's wrong with her.
As Bella was breastfeeding, she was lovingly looking at our daughter. There's no doubt Bella loves our children. When sober, she was an amazing mother. I wish it were that way all the time though.
I walked in the room and sat next to them, she looked up and smiled at me.
"Bella, can I talk to you?" I asked softly.
She nodded and her smile disappeared. She must sense that something is wrong.
"I want a divorce." I said getting straight to the point.
"W-what? Why?" Bella asked, her eyes getting watery.
It killed me to have to do this, I don't want to leave her I love her so much but I can't think of myself right now, I have to do what's best for my kids.
"I can't let my kids grow up around you anymore. Matthew has already questioned your behavior." By the time I was done talking she had tears flowing down her cheeks.
"But I love you. I love them so much." Bella said through her tears.
"I know Bella. I love you too, so much. But I have to do what's best for our kids." I told her.
"Edward, please." Bella begged.
"Bella, no. I can't do this anymore. I have put 6 years of my life into this marriage. I have watched you battle this for 8 years. Every month you say you will quit and you never do." I rant to her. "Bella, I thought I could help you. I thought I could be the reason you stop. Then when you got pregnant, every time you got pregnant I hoped the kids would be your motivation to stop. But no, you just couldn't find motivation in us. Bella, I just can't do this anymore!" I finished with a yell.
By this time Abby was feed and now she's just sleeping in Bella's arms. Bella hugged her close and sobbed.
"Why not a separation? I mean that way I can still see you and them." She said.
"No Bella, divorce is best. This hurts me just as much as you, but it's for the best."
"Will you at least let me have partial custody?" I shook my head. "Not even supervised visitation?" I shook my head again.
"Please Edward, don't do this." Bella begged. "Its not fair!"
"What's not fair are my kids having a drunken mother! That's not fair." I tell her angrily. "I'm sorry, Bella. I wouldn't if it was just me, but I have kids to think about." I said.
I stood up and left the room, leaving her crying.
3 weeks later
Bella and I have hardly spoken after I told her I want a divorce. When we do talk though, its something about the kids or her begging for me not to do this.
I know it hurting her; it's hurting me too. I love her so much. I don't want to leave her, it's killing me that I am but I have to think about my kids. This is what's best for them.
I had already filed and signed the divorce papers, now all Bella had to do is sign it. I made the process as fast as possible. Considering our circumstance with Bella, the lawyer was able to move things along quickly. Now she signs and we will be done. It sounds a lot easier than it is.
I was sitting on the kitchen table with the papers in front of me. I was waiting for Bella to get home so we can finalize this.
I heard the garage door open and then I saw Bella holding Abby in her arms, with Matthew and Emily behind her. She was smiling at whatever story Matt was animatedly telling her. Once inside, the kids ran to their rooms and Bella put Abby in her bouncy seat. Then she came over to me.
"What's this?" She asked, pointing at the papers.
"Divorce papers, all I need you to do is sign." The minute I started to talk she started to cry.
"Edward, please don't do this. I can change." She begged.
"No Bella, you say that every time but you never do. Don't make this harder than it is, just sign." I said frustrated.
She picked up the pen with her shaking hand and signed. Once she was done I grabbed the papers and left.
2 weeks later
I walked into the house and saw Bella sitting on the couch with Abby in her arms, Emily and Matthew sitting in front of her. They were laughing about something Bella said. I wish Bella were like this with them all the time, instead of just sometimes.
After I greeted everyone Bella asked, "Edward, what's in the envelope?"
"The finalized divorce papers." I replied. "So I need you out of the house by next week." She had tears flowing down her cheeks at the mention of leaving.
"Mommy, why are crying?" Matt asked.
"Kids, mommy is leaving." I said calmly.
"Why?" Emily asked as she started to cry.
"It's just better that way." I told them.
They got up from their seats and ran to hug Bella, all of them crying.
1 Year later
It has been one year since I saw Bella. Since she moved out, we have not spoken. My sister is still her friend, but she will not tell me how Bella is doing. It's been hard over this last year. Not having a mother for my kids and a partner for myself. It gets very stressful without someone's help. Today the kids and I are going to the new bookstore down the road; it's a cute little place. Matt loves to read, just like his mom. Once we got there the kids went to the story rug, while my Abby bug stayed in her stroller with me. As I was walking around the store, I saw my angel coming down from the store's second floor.
"Bella?" I called. She turns and looks at me. She was smiling, but when she saw me her smile turned to a frown.
"Hello Edward, how are you? Did you bring the kids with you? I can't believe how big Abby is now." Then out of nowhere a tall man came out of the back and came up to Bella.
"Babe, do you want to do story time today or should I?" The man asked. Who was this guy? He can't call my Bella babe.
"Sure, read the Three Little Pigs and then Little Red Ridinghood." She tells to him. He went over to the story rug and starts the stories.
"Who was that, Bella?" I ask her.
"His name is Jacob. We met at rehab, kind of hit it off there." She points to the ring on her left hand. "We are engaged."
Oh my god, the love of my life found someone new? While I stayed home and raised our kids she was out with another man. She could have been home with us. She could have gotten sober, proven to be better, and come back to us.
"I cannot believe you would forget about your family so fast and move on to someone new. Does he even know you were married before and have three kids?" I yell at her. Everyone in the store turns and looks at us.
"Edward can we talk about this in my offices, please." I told her to lead the way. Once in her office she yells at me.
"What the hell is wrong with you, Edward? You cannot just come in to my store and yell at me for moving on. Last time I checked you wanted to divorce me, not the other way around. So what if it's only been a year? Jacob stuck with me during the hardest time of my life." She told me angrily. "Don't you dare say I forgot about my kids. I don't go a day without thinking about them. I learned a lot this year. I know I could have found a better way to deal with my stress sooner, but rehab helped me with that this year." Bella finished and then turned to take something off her desk.
She went to rehab. She put her life back together and she's getting married. Completely leaving us behind.
"Here." Bella hands me an envelope and she tells me to open it later.
I get the kids and head on home. Still not believing Bella is getting remarried. When I get the kids home, I put them in bed and go down stairs. I open the letter and there are a good fifteen pages on how Bella wishes she did things different. How she will never forget me and the kids, and that she wishes us the best. How she wished I were there more with Matt to help her out and decrease that stress at the time. She wrote about how she just wishes life turned out differently for us. That she will always love us. I wish this were a dream. I want my Bella back, a sober and happy Bella.
I hear someone calling my name. It started as a distance call, but got closer.
"Edward, baby, it's 7:15, you have to get up so you make it to open the office." I open my eyes and see my angel leaning over me, 7 months pregnant and a beautiful smile on her face.
It was a dream. My Bella was still here.
"Bella, how many kids do we have?" I ask her. She gives me a weird look before answering.
"Baby we have one on the way, the only one. Remember a little boy? We were going to pick out names today." Bella states. A big smile breaks out on my face and I let out a sigh of relief.
I lean in a kiss her, passionately. "I love you so much."
"I love you too, baby. Always and forever." She says with a smile.
It was just a dream. I knew my Bella would never be an alcoholic.
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