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We never broke physical contact as I led her inside and to the lounge, our fingers intertwined. Once in the lounge we sat on the couch together. I looked at her like I was seeing her for the first time.
"So, are you going to tell me?" She asked.
"Jessica had her part to play in what happened to me, to us. She played right into Tanya and James' hands without realizing what she was getting into. Of course, Jessica set up a little slide show at the dance and took great delight in lighting the fuse and watching it blow up. She made my life hell, and now because of what she see's when she looks at me, she wants me to be her latest plaything. Well, I don't want to be that. Like I said earlier, it's not her I want, it's you." I took a deep breath, knowing that I was faced with telling her about Tanya and I. The one dirty little secret I was so desperate to forget.
"What's wrong? There's something I know it." She asked her eyes searching my face, I could feel the panic beginning to rise deep inside. Bella's eyes went wide with shock, she got to her feet and glared at me."You've fucked her haven't you? Oh my god, I can't believe I fell for all this bullshit about how much you still love me, when you… you!" She began to pace, her hands grasping at her hair.
"Bella, no! Please believe me I haven't slept with her, I promise." I was on my feet standing before her, praying what I said was enough for her to believe me.
"But have you wanted to." She whispered. It was more like a statement than a question.
"I never wanted her not like that, not in the way she thinks I do. It's hard to explain."
"Try." Her voice had a hard edge to it.
I took a deep breath, "It would have been so easy with her, but it wouldn't have been right. I'm not going to lie to you, I could so easily have slept with her, to make her want me even more, but I didn't. That's the truth Bella."
She sat down on the couch, her face in her hands. " I feel sick."
I crouched down in front of her. "Bella, I haven't done anything like that with her. I promise you. I might have led her on, made her believe I wanted it, but I couldn't do it."
She looked me in the face once again, her voice shaky. "You promise me? If you are lying to me, then we are over for good. Understand?"
I nodded. "The most we did was kiss, she did try to take it further and yes, I was tempted, lost in the moment but I didn't follow it through." I hoped this wouldn't make her change her mind.
Her eyes searched mine, looking for anything that would tell her I was lying. When she seemed to be satisfied, she spoke once again.
"Okay. Thank you for being so honest with me. Now let's make her pay." There was a slight smile on her lips before she leaned forward and kissed me. There was nothing gentle about it, the kiss was full of passion and need. I had missed this, missed her and I wasn't going to lose her again.
We pulled apart, both breathless and wanting more, but knowing it was too soon for anything else.
"Bella, you know that I will have to continue seeing Jessica, pretend to be interested in her don't you?"
She simply nodded, so I continued. "But it's you that I want, you that I always want." I kissed her, enjoying the feel once again.
"I know. But there is no-one saying I have to be happy about it. How I'll resist the urge to pull her fake hair out of her head is beyond me, seeing her put those skanky paws on you." I could hear the jealousy as it tinged her words, and it caused me to stifle a laugh. Bella punched my chest lightly. "What's so funny?"
"It's strange, thinking someone likes me enough to get jealous." I laughed, as I still remembered the time when no-one looked at me twice.
"Well, just don't forget who saw you first." Bella teased before her expression turned serious. "There is something else we need to talk about."
"Okay, what is it?" I asked.
She let out a deep sigh. "The night of the dance, when you went to the beach… I…You…"
I placed my hand on hers a small gesture to let her know that it was okay. "You mean when I almost killed myself? Yeah, not one of my better moments I must admit." I allowed myself a breath before I continued. "I have no idea what I was thinking, or doing that night. I just wanted to make it all stop. I felt like I had lost everything and there was no way out. I don't think I meant to go that far, it just kinda happened."
She had tears in her eyes, but I had to say it. "You were there for me, you found me and stayed with me at the hospital." I whispered.
Bella nodded. "I didn't know where else to go, I knew you were hurt by what I did, but there was no way I could leave. I wasn't sure you would want me there and Rose's reaction when she saw me, I just had to get away."
I reached over and wiped away the tears that were falling down her cheeks. "I know, I could feel you there, with me. It sounds strange I know, but just knowing you were there was enough." She smiled at me and it gave me a huge boost. "I'm sorry if I said things that hurt you, I lashed out when I shouldn't have done."
Bella leaned forward and placed her index finger on my lips, silencing me. "Ssh, it's okay." Before she removed it and replaced it with her lips. The kiss itself was chaste while holding the promise of more, but now wasn't the time or place for anything more and instinctively, we both knew it.
We spent the next hour running through the details of what I had planned for Jessica, we both agreed she would never see it coming until it was too late. Just as she destroyed our lives at the winter formal, we would have our revenge. Prom could not come quickly enough.
Bella was just leaving and we were sharing a goodbye kiss in the doorway when I heard the sound of a car pulling into the drive. Glancing out, I saw my parents car pulling in, followed by Emmett.
"Shit! My folks are home. They will see you, and I really don't know how to explain you being here." I began to panic.
Bella smiled. "No better time than now to practice our hatred for each other." She pushed me away from her, marching outside and began to raise her voice as the sound of car doors slamming signalled our time was about to run out.
"I really don't care anymore Edward, you hear me? I only came here to tell you to get your bitch to back off."
I was staring at her with a shocked expression on my face, her back was to my parents. She wiggled her eyebrows at me, a smile lighting up her face as a silent challenge for me to make this real.
"Bella, I don't control Jessica, what she does is her own business and none of mine." I replied.
"Well, you need to put her on a leash, cause I am warning you, she needs to stay away from me." If I hadn't known better, I would've believed the anger behind her words.
"Yeah? Well, if you want to talk about training pets, have a word with Jacob, cause your new boyfriend did this." I motioned to my bruised face. "All because of you, our friendship is over. You have driven that wedge firmly between us. But then again, maybe he likes my cast offs."
Bella's face sparked with what looked to genuine anger, and behind her I saw my mom standing with a shocked look on her face. Then, Bella's right hand was raised, poised to make contact with my already damaged face. Suddenly she was gone, and I was looking at my father's angry face.
"Edward Anthony Cullen! Go and wait in my office. Now!" He barked. I nodded, knowing he would not take any defiance from me.
Emmett was glaring at me, he had Bella in his arms and it sounded like she was crying. I turned on my heel, pleased in a strange way, knowing that our exchange was believable enough given their reactions so far.
I heard my mom apologizing to Bella, as I walked away, only when I was sure no one was paying me any attention, did I allow myself a small smile.
Sitting in my father's office, I waited for him to come in and tell me how disappointed he was with me, to lecture me on being respectful. Instead, I was shocked when he walked in and told me to go to my room. When I got there, I grabbed my cellphone and looked at the messages that were waiting for me.
Did they believe you? Hope I made it convincing enough. B x
Tell me you're, not in trouble are you?
Love you. B x
The last message brought a smile to my face, seeing the words in front of me was more than enough for me.
I dialled her number, needing to know what happened after I went inside. She picked up on the first ring.
"You waiting for me to call?" I teased.
"Knew you couldn't resist. So, what happened? Did you folks go mad?" She asked.
"Not yet, I'm in my room. What happened to you after I left?"
"Oh, you know. Emmett was ready to come in there after you, I think they bought it. I just feel bad lying to them, they were all so nice to me."
I opened my mouth to reply, but my bedroom door was flung open and bounced off the wall, leaving Emmett standing in the doorway an angry look on his face.
I whispered into the phone. "Look, I gotta go. Speak to you later." With that, I ended the call, never once taking my eyes of Emmett.
"Oh, sorry Edward. I hope I wasn't interrupting anything too important, but I'm sure Jessica can find a shiny object to amuse her until you call her back. " The sarcasm dripped from his voice.
It was on the tip of my tongue to tell him it wasn't Jessica, but I didn't.
"What do you want Em?" I sighed.
He simply shrugged his shoulders at me. "Oh, I don't know, part of me wonders why Bella was here earlier, I'm not sure that I bought that whole charade when we pulled up."
My blood ran cold. "What do you mean charade? She nearly hit me or did you forget that."
Emmett pursed his lips and nodded. "Oh yeah, but she didn't." A silence fell between us as he watched me, looking for a reaction I guessed. "Bella seemed quite upset I must admit, but I am not sure what she was even doing here. I mean, you two aren't together, it's over. You're seeing Jessica and then out of the blue, Bella turns up on the doorstep, shouting and screaming at you."
"She was pissed about Jessica, told me to keep her away from her." I attempted to cover, but the look on Emmett's face told me he didn't believe what I was telling him. "Did you want something else, or are you just gonna stand in the doorway all night?"
He laughed while shaking his head at me, then he stepped aside to reveal my mom standing there.
She fixed me with a stare. "Is that the truth? What you just told Emmett?"
I hated lying to her, but knew there was no other way so to avoid answering I nodded. She let out a sigh and came over to sit down on my bed. "I know you think I was harsh earlier, and maybe I was, but I won't change my mind about Jessica. I don't like her, and I don't approve of you two dating. But, if she makes you happy after everything that's happened then I will be civil to her at the very least." She let out a deep sigh. "Your happiness is all that's important. Just know that both your father and I love you very much."
I smiled at her, causing her to smile back at me before she leaned in, ruffling my hair and placing a kiss on my head.
"Bella seemed upset earlier, I'm only sorry things didn't work out between the two of you and you felt you had to keep so many secrets. At least now everything is out in the open. Dinner will be ready soon." With that, she left me alone.
Guilt flooded through me, yet again I was keeping secrets and lying to those closest to me once again, Picking up my cell phone from where I had dropped it, I opened it up and scrolled through, my finger hovering over Bella's number. I just couldn't bring myself to dial it, not just yet. I made my way downstairs to help with whatever I could towards dinner, it seemed like the least that I could do. Only when I got to the bottom of the stairs, I heard my parents talking in hushed tones in the kitchen, so I did what any teenager would do. I eavesdropped.
"I know Carlisle, but what can I do? She isn't good for him, but if I push it too hard it will only send him further into her arms."
"Of course you're right, but we also can't encourage the relationship. He needs time to be a teenager, hang out with his friends." My father sounded as if he was trying to placate my mom, but it was no use.
"You think I could risk losing him? It would break me if anything happened to him, you know that."
"I know, I was there, remember? I stayed at your side every single day at the hospital, it was me that held you when you cried yourself to sleep at night. If anything were to happen to him, it would break me too. We have to be strong for our son, we need to show him love, show him we are here from him. I worry we might not have been doing that lately. He has to know that he is the most important thing to us."
"He should know this already." She countered.
"But I don't think he does. This whole situation, it's been a mess. I might be a doctor, but I have no idea how to be around him, how to fix my own son and that scares me. I feel lost Esme, and I don't know what to do for the best."
The emotion made his voice crack. It was strange to hear him speak so openly and honestly, but I guessed there were no secrets between my parents, only a deep bond secured by the years of love they shared. One day I hoped to experience this.
As I lurked outside the kitchen, I leaned against the wall, screwing my eyes closed as I took in everything I'd heard. My parents words hit home. Mom was willing to put her personal feelings for Jessica aside and make an effort for my sake. I was important to them, I mattered. Today had been such a turning point for me, all this coupled with the fact that Bella loved me. It was like a dream, one I didn't want to wake from for fear of it not being real. Slowly I opened my eyes and found nothing had changed. Maybe now Karma was smiling on me.
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