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Author's Note: Based on the two lines that Tony and then Gibbs say in the episode Missing. Tony – My father always said I was going to end up in the gutter. Gibbs – Forget about it McGee he's still alive.
He always thought that Gibbs was different. He knew under the gruff exterior that he actually cared for him. He never thought that he was anything like his own father was to him, but that sentence that he had said to McGee cut him. It was like a bleeding wound that was open and it wouldn't stop. He stood there for a minute and then when McGee stood up and left he sat there for a minute. Gibbs had dismissed them and he walked to his car and got inside. He didn't have the energy to start the car and head home. He sat there in silence and stared out into the night. He didn't know what to think about it.
His father was angry with him for something that he thought that his son had done. He never found out and he didn't ask either. He would probably would have gotten it worse if he did. His father was drunk once again. Sometimes he could get away when his father drank, but sometimes he didn't. He looked up at his father who had just beaten him up and heard his father's angry words. "You're going to end up in the gutter one of these days." It was then and there that he had disowned and disinherited him. He wished that he would have known what he had done because that way he could of fixed it. He never could get that sentence out of his thoughts. It was times like that, that he felt insecure. That and his father would sometimes say he's worthless.
Gibbs made his way towards his own car. He had been worried when Tony had called him and told him that he had messed up. He looked around and saw that Tony's car was still there and so was Tony. It looked like he was looking out the windshield looking at nothing. He walked up to the car and knocked on the window. Tony didn't even turn towards him. He grabbed the handle and opened the door.
"Tony." Gibbs said. Still no response. "DiNozzo." He said again this time with a flinch and Tony looked at him with haunted eyes.
"Come on Tony, I'm taking you to my place. You got your overnight bag right?" He always told his agents to be prepared which is why Tony kept a toothbrush and shirt at the office. You could never know when you needed extra clothes.
"No, I'm fine." He said as he grabbed the keys.
"No, Tony you are not fine."
"Why do you care?"
"Tony, you know that I never say it, but I do care for you."
"Why? You only care about McGee and him getting my job."
"Why would you say something like that?" Asked Gibbs.
"You told him to forget it because I wasn't dead. You would rather have him as a Senior Agent."
"No, I want you as my Senior Agent."
"I never thought that you would be like my father, Gibbs. I always thought you cared for me."
"I do, Tony."
"No, you don't. While I was down there I thought of what my father said to me. You're going to end up in the gutter. He always said I was worthless and then he said that. It hurt and I never thought you would hurt me like he did."
"I'm so sorry, Tony. I didn't mean it."
"Then why say it?"
"I don't know. It just slipped out and I don't even know why I said it. I am sorry Tony. I never meant to hurt you."
"I thought apologizing was a sign of weakness."
"Not between friends, Tony."
"Now come on, Tony." Gibbs said as he walked towards his own car expecting Tony to follow him, which he did. Tony grabbed his overnight bag that he had kept in the trunk and made his way to Gibbs car. That night he slept through the night without any nightmares.
"You're a good Agent Tony and a good Senior Agent. Never forget that." Gibbs said before he exited the car to go into headquarters.
"Thanks, boss." Tony said as he smiled.