It's been a month since I left India. I miss Mr. Kadam; I miss them all. But I miss one the most. His combat blues eyes and his smiles and laugh. It wasn't something you help but miss. Ren was everything to me. I loved him! Though it doesn't matter anymore. I left and asked him to stay behind and move on. I told him my fears of him finding someone else better than me to be with and that I didn't want to be there when it happened. What he didn't know was that I was a mutant. I never told him or any of them. Professor Charles Xavier is my last remaining family member. He is my grandpa but I just call him papa. As he is my last family member I'm his only grandchild.
I couldn't tell I was afraid and I wasn't allowed. Papa told me I couldn't tell anyone. I was afraid of losing them too. With the life I had I couldn't really open my heart to anyone, but people like me. They maybe the same as me now but they could to reverse it and they wanted to. I couldn't reverse my gifts. They wont be like me much longer. They wanted to be normal… they wanted to be human. A normal life was something I couldn't give them. Well I couldn't give if he was still with me.
My powers well I have many I guess. I control the elements. My Papa thinks I'm the spiritual element because spirit controls all the elements. I'm also a telepath like Papa. Papa think I'm an empath because I could read people emotions easily. Mr. Kadam thought of me as his own daughter. Kishan thought of me as a best friend and little sis too at times.
When I saw everything they got me for the first time, or should I say he got me, I was well surprised and guilty. The house was beautiful, the car was amazing, the cell was cool, and the college they paid for me to go to was nice, and when I saw the credit card I was… well I didn't like it. When I called Mr. Kadam and said I wanted to pay them back he said that it was a gift from all of them and that he didn't want me to pay them back.
Its going to be thanksgiving in two more days. Time flies fast! The day after thanksgiving I'll be going home to the X- mansion. Back to Papa! And my family there! Mr. Kadam made me promise to call him and he also said he had surprise for me. On thanks giving ill be with Mike and Sarah. They gave me a life outside the mansion when my parents died. They loved me no matter what. They knew what I was and what I could do and they love me anyways.
Well I guess there's no need to remind myself of all this. It was going to be alright in the end I suppose. I was sad that Ren never called me. Mr. Kadam called every Friday and even Kishan called me once! I stopped hoping long ago that he would call me. Well really there was nothing I could do about it unless I called him. Yeah that's not going to happen!
Two more days until thanksgiving! Well there's really nothing to do. I got all my homework This was another thing they don't know about me. I guess they don't really know me at all. I smirked that also meant there really was no reason for me to be like this. Well now the old Kelsey is coming back! And in all her innocently bad ass personality.
I sat on the beach of my piano and started with little exercises and started playing the song "impossible" (by Shontelle). Than I started singing.
I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did, I did-
I heard car doors open and close but it didn't bother me. I kept singing and playing. Putting all my emotions in it.
And you were strong and I was not My illusion, my mistake I was careless, I forgot I did And now when all is done There is nothing to say You have gone and so effortlessly You have won You can go ahead tell them Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof tops Write it on the sky line All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible
It was hard not to cry but I kept it together. I sang louder and louder until I was at a good volume. I sang with all my heart and it was loud and proud.
Falling out of love is hard Falling for betrayal is worst Broken trust and broken hearts I know, I know-
Thinking all you need is there Building faith on love and words Empty promises will wear I know, I know- And now when all is gone There is nothing to say And if you're done with embarrassing me On your own you can go ahead tell them
I felt the elements make them selves known around me. The wind picked up, the water rumbled in the pipes around the house, the heater picked up, the plants in the house grew more, and I could feel the sprits of the elements and everyone here dancing around me. I heard the people from the car come inside I paid no mind to it. I don't know why but some how I knew I knew them and they wouldn't hurt me. So I kept singing and closed my eyes feeling at peace.
Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof tops Write it on the sky line All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible! Ooh impossible (yeah yeah) I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof tops Write it on the sky line All we had is gone now
As I sang the last verse I remember everything from my parents to what happen in India to now. As I sang I let myself feel everything I didn't want to feel than. To abandonment, to betrayal, to loneliness, to vulnerable, to love, and back to my bad ass girl everyone knows so well. Only very few see me so vulnerable. And that would be my team and my Papa's team. They were and are my only family! I wasn't going to hide from them.
Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible Impossible, impossible I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love I did...
When I was done with the song I fought to calm down the elements. Its hard calming them down when I'm out of practice. I heard clapping from behind me. Before I could turn around to see who the intruders were, something happen to me that hasn't happened in so long.
little one, its me. Your old Papa bear
At that I giggled and knew just who was in my house. I turned around to see a bowled man in a wheel chair. I ran into his waiting arms and hugged him as tightly as I could. I missed my Papa so much!
"Hello, my little one!" he chuckled ,"How are you? That was good, dear! Very emotional as well. Good job!"
I blushed," Thanks ,Papa. I'm good. What are you doing here so late at night?"
"Well I have business to take care of." he said as I pulled back to look at him
"But you'll be back at the mansion before I get there. Right?" I asked
"Of course! Don't worry, Kelsey. I'll be there before you."
"I still don't get why you're here."
"Can't I stop by and say hello to my favorite granddaughter?"
"Papa, I'm your only granddaughter!" I giggled
Every one started laughing and I took the time to see every one that was here. Like I thought it was my Papa's personal team. There was Storm and Jean to my Papa's left and Logan and Scott to his right. They all looked the same as always but the one thing that has changed was that Storm go her hair cut short.
"Well you gonna sit there or you gonna give your wolf of an uncle a hug?" Logan said with a grin on his face arms out for me.
I smiled and got up off the ground. I skipped over to Logan, but than I turned to his left and hugged Scott instead.
"I choose neither. I think I'll hug Scott first." I said and heard Logan growl," I'm sorry, Lo. But don't growl at me."
"See she loves me more." Scott said to Logan and stuck his tongue at him
He huffed and crossed his arms over his chest. When he was going to take his first step away from me, I hugged him from behind around his waist tightly.
"I love you Uncle Lo!" I mumbled
He turned around in my arms and ruffled my hair. He hugged me back tightly.
"I love you too, Kiddo." he mumbled back and kissed the top of my head. Than laid his head on top of mine, " I missed you so much, Kid."
"I missed you all too." I cried
Than everyone came in for big group hug. I gave Jean and Storm a hug than we all went into the living room. Papa sat in his wheel chair Jean and Scott on the love seat, Storm sat next to Papa on the rocking chair, and Logan sat on the recliner. I smiled I really did miss them so much. I didn't want to sit alone so Logan patted his lap saying I could sit there. I giggled just like old times; I'd always sit on his lap. It wasn't a secret that Logan was like a dad to me and he treated me like his daughter, but I called him Uncle because he didn't want me thinking he was replacing my dad. I skipped over to him and sat on his lap rapping my arms around his neck as he put his arms around me. I rest my head against his shoulder and he rocked back and forth. We I looked around the room everyone was staring at us with love shinning in there eyes. I smiled and cuddles close Lo.
Everyone started talking about all the things I missed since I left the X-mansion. My team was doing good. Rogue learned how to turn on and off her power, but it hard for her and takes a lot of energy out of her at first. Its getting better each time she practices. She still wears her gloves just in case she doesn't turn it off in time. Bobby was learning new tricks for his ice. Bobby even has a girl now. He name is Alexis but likes being called Lexie. She is a mutant too, but she didn't know about the school for mutants. So Bobby took her there. Papa says her power is to turn into a fox. She goes to the school there now. Kurt is practicing to teleport farther and be able to see where he was going. Teleporting farther was working just not the seeing part. Kurt and Storm is a couple now too.
"I knew you two would get together!" I yelled clapping my hands together and jumping on Logan's lap a little.
"Yeah well…." was all Storm said and we all just laughed until something hit me
"what about Rogue? Isn't she with someone?" I asked a little sad
"Logan…." Papa said
"I think you should tell her." Jeans said smiling
"What she said" Storm said
"Tell her man!" Scott said
I looked at Logan confused ,"Lo, what are they talking about?"
He grinned ,"Well… Rogues with me… She's my girl friend."
I hugged him tightly smiling like an idiot. ," YAY! I knew you two would get together! I'm so happy for you."
He hugged me back and laughed," Thanks, Kid. And by the way Rogue and them are coming over tomorrow and I'm staying here with you. If that's alright with you.?"
"Its alright with me" I said
I gave them a quick tour of the house and since Papa couldn't go up stairs he looked through the minds of the others. Logan said my room matched my scent. I laughed it was meant to. My room was the last stop so I asked them if they wanted to watch a movie and they said yes. I told them to go choose and movie and if they want snacks to go ahead and gets some while I got ready for bed. I put on dark blue plaid shorts and tank top. I put my up in a messy pony tail and graded a few blankets. I also grad I puppy dog slippers that like gray lads. I went down stairs and put the blankets on the couch and my slipper next to the recliner. I sat on the rocking chair while Logan was getting dressed in his pj's in the bathroom and the other were getting snacks. Papa was sitting next to me.
"So Kelsey what did you do this summer?" Papa asked
"Well I kind worked at a circus and went to India." I whispered
"Something happen didn't it." he observed
By now everyone was here and sitting down. Logan stood next to me. I got up so he could sit down. He sat down pulling me down with him.
"Yeah…" I told them everything from what happen at the circus to all things that lead to going to India and what happen there. Papa was interested in what happen to them. How they became that way, that the only thing I left out. It was there story to share not mine. We understood that more than anyone. I told them about me and Ren and all my fears along with it. At first they were happy for me but when I told them I left him because he wanted to be normal. They understood why I left. I cried at the end and Logan said he was a fool for letting me go without a fight and held me close rocking back and forth. Everyone agreed with him. They said if he loved me the way I loved him he would have came here, called, or never let me go. I calmed down after a while and Papa kissed my head saying everything will work out in the end. Me and Logan switched seats with Storm so were more comfortable.
"So what movie are we watching?" I asked
"Push" Papa said
Everyone had a blanket wrapped around them Jeans and Scott shared as did me and Logan. Papa had his Blanket that I made him for when he came here for movie night. The movie started. It wasn't that bad. In the middle of the movie I started getting tired and I closed my eyes. Soon enough I fell asleep.