4. You Can't Find Solace and It Can't Find You
KeruKeru: Yes, yes, I know. It's a really long chapter title, but that's not important at the moment. XD What is important is that Takato and I have actually been updating regularly! Apparently, procrastination plus procrastination comes to being on time… maybe I should try that with school work next year… Anyway, please enjoy this next chapter of When I Fall Asleep.
Disclaimer: Takato the Dreamer and KeruKeru, in no way own Digimon or anything pertaining to it, other then some video games and plushies they purchased as children… or in Takato's case, as a grown man. ;D
Warning: Yaoi, boy/boy love and violence. Don't like, don't read.
Tai huffed loudly, hands covering his eyes as he attempted to sleep on what to do about his old friend Daisuke. He'd returned to his dorm on campus after dropping TK off at his home, the kiss on his cheek still lingering slightly as every thought of Daisuke brought up the young blonde's face as well.
Trying to get through to Daisuke wouldn't be as simple as talking their problems out, the younger brunette was too figuratively short for a calm conversation, especially when the subject made him angry. Physicality was never Tai's choice unless he had no other option and there was definitely another option, the soccer star just wasn't in the mood to find it.
A rapping came at the door, alerting Tai to a visitor he hadn't been expecting, though he'd half expected his roommate Hinaka to have forgotten his keys and locked himself out again. Jumping up and unlocking the door, the brunette was pleasantly surprised to find out his visitor was a slightly tanned, red haired boy the stood at nearly half a foot shorter then Tai at about 5 feet 8 ½ inches give or take.
To say Tai was shocked that his ex-boyfriend, now still friend, was standing in front of him would have been a bit of an understatement. "Izzy…? What are you doing here?" The soccer player spoke, quickly forgetting his manners and not inviting the red head in by mistake.
The computer genius just smiled at his friend. "Sora called me and told me what happened, I thought you could use someone to talk to." He explained simply.
"Oh…" Tai exclaimed, thinking over how quickly word had traveled around already and then realized he'd forgotten his manners. "C'mon on in, Izzy." He ushered the soon-to-be twenty-one year old inside and closed the door, moving some of Hinaka's clothes off his bed for Izzy to take a seat and then taking a sit on his own bed. "Sorry about the mess, Hina's not much of a… cleaner." He chuckled.
The red head nodded, sitting a bit uncomfortably as his slight OCD began kicking in at the mess around him, but he held strong. "So, what happened with Daisuke this time?"
Tai wove the tail from start to finish, beginning at his meeting with Matt, to finding out about the man's death, then moving to the funeral and meeting Takeru. He then added on the parts about meeting up with Sora at the bar, walking to Takeru's house, taking the boy out on a technical date and then about the restaurant and Daisuke beating TK up for having seen them together which had somehow given away TK's sexuality.
Izzy sat, absorbing all of the information that had just been relayed to him by one of his best friends and sighed. "So Dai beat up TK because he's gay?" Something about the way he'd asked the question led Tai to believe the red head expected something else.
"Yeah…? Did you not get that from the story?" Tai shook his head.
Izzy rolled his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose. "Well, let's just say there was another reason; what do you think it could be?"
The soccer star shrugged, placing a hand on his chin as he wracked his brain for anything that would lead Daisuke to beat up a stranger for any other reason. "I don't know… what do you think it would be? Just to make sure we're on the same page." A bite to his lip told Tai that Izzy was holding something back, he had known the man much more intimately then any of his other friends. "Izzy, I know when you're keeping something from me."
The computer whizz let out a heavy sigh, knowing he'd have to tell Tai at some point or another anyway. "You remember that week that I wore long sleeve shirts even though it was like ninety degrees outside?"
"Yeah… it was right about the time you and I were about to break up and every time someone asked you'd say you're smaller so you lose body heat faster… Though, we all pretty much knew you were hiding something; at least, I knew." Tai smiled with a soft pink blush on his cheeks.
The slightly younger man couldn't help the blush that covered his own cheeks. "Well… you were right… I didn't want anybody to worry about me was all…"
"Izz… you didn't… cut yourself… did you?" Tai asked worriedly, never thinking of one of his best friends as someone who'd do that.
"No! No, no. I didn't hurt myself. I just… got hurt…"
Tai switched beds, joining his ex-boyfriend on the other bed. "Who did it?"
"Daisuke…" Izzy whispered the name in shame. "It was a few weeks after you and I had started dating, right after we'd told everyone we were together… I was putting my laptop into my backpack when I heard someone behind me. I turned around and standing there was Daisuke, it looked like he'd been crying because his eyes were red and his face looked kinda wet. I didn't know what to say to tried to say 'hi' but right after I opened my mouth, he jabbed his fist into my stomach. I collapsed in pain, looking up at him, I tried to ask why he did that, but he kicked me instead. I kinda fell over on the floor as he kept kicking me." Tai laid a comforting hand on his friend's shoulder. "He bruised me up pretty badly, ergo the sweatshirts. But, something about that day really stuck with me…"
Tai could feel the rage seething inside him; not only had Daisuke hurt the boy he was quickly starting to fall for, but he'd also hurt the boy he'd loved. The only thing keeping the soccer player from punching the wall was the red head sitting next to him, keeping him sane with his soft voice.
"He yelled at me, once during the whole thing. Right as a teacher found us and pulled him off me, he yelled: 'Why did you take Tai from me?' Nobody knew about that but my parents, his and that teacher. We didn't go to court because I convinced my parents that he was just a confused kid who no longer knew who had lost his idol, so they agreed that if Daisuke and I never saw each other alone again, my parents would take his to court. That's about the time he stopped hanging out with us and started acting out against homosexuality."
As the information flowed from Izzy's lips into and out of Tai's ears, the brunette had stuck to the same thing his computer genius friend had been stuck on for so many years. "He said you took me away from you?" Izzy nodded, figuring Tai would be on that part of the story.
"And now that this has happened to TK, I'm beginning to wonder if it's not just gays, but guys you're dating that he's targeting." The red head had been suspecting it since the incident, but he hadn't been sure until Sora had told him of TK. "I mean, I don't know who you've dated since me, since you never let your friends meet your boyfriends, but based on the two incidents, I'd say he wants you and if he can't have you… nobody can."
A chill ran up Tai's spine at the haunting words his usually non-depressing friend spoke. "But, if he wanted me that badly, wouldn't he have said something to me about it?"
Izzy shook his head. "Not necessarily. It's more like, he wants to be able to know he could have you, rather then you being unavailable."
"So… he doesn't want me, but he doesn't want anybody else to have me?"
"Fucking psychology…" Tai huffed, standing up and getting ready to go out the door.
"And where exactly are you going?"
"If I tell you, it'd be considered pre-meditated." The brunette told him before disappearing out the door.
Izzy jumped up right away, dashing out the door after his friend and catching up to him. He tried and failed at holding Tai back. "You're not going to solve anything by hurting him. You'd just be doing to him what he did to TK and me." He always was the voice of reason, even as kids Izzy was the one who stayed calm, cool and collected.
Tai stopped immediately, lowering his head in shame at the thought of nearly beating up his old friend and the boy who used to look up to him. "I'm just… gonna talk to him… he deserves that at least, right?"
Izzy smiled warmly, nodding in pride at his friend not acting rash. "Just don't do anything stupid, alright?"
Tai chuckled. "I won't. Now you get back to Joe, he's probably missing you~" The older man teased, causing a deep blush to cover the red head's cheeks.
"We just started going out… we haven't even had sex yet." The shorter man admitted, blushing deeper.
"Izzy, you've been together for almost a year now and you haven't slept together?" Tai chuckled at the weak shake of the head he received. "Well, tell Joe he needs to step up his game soon before someone else nabs you."
"I'll keep that in mind." Izzy chuckled at the thought of his boyfriend. "I'll see ya later, Tai." He began walking down the hallway of the dorms when Tai called back.
"See ya! Don't rush Joe into anything, alright?" Tai laughed hard when Izzy threw a thumbs-up into the air and turned a corner.
As Tai left, the only thing on his mind was what to say to the boy who seemed to be obsessed with him. It was like his dilemma earlier, what could you possibly do about someone like Daisuke? He still wasn't sure talking was the way to deal with him, but hurting him wouldn't be either. Plus, he'd already promised Izzy and TK that he wouldn't hurt his double. What was a twenty-one year old to do when he had no idea how to solve his problems?
KeruKeru: This chapter was pretty short and the last paragraphs were bit out of place in this chapter, but it was just friends trying to cheer each other up after a very somber conversation. :3 What will happen to TK? How will Tai handle his stalker? When will Takato update? WE JUST DON'T KNOW!