Pain, Betrayal and Happiness

Summary: Harry has been abused, and not just verbally, at home, for being a wizard. What will happen when the only people that believe him are Hermione, Neville, Fred, George, Lee, Luna, Remus, Sirius, Severus and his enemy, Draco Malfoy? How will the rest of his friend react when he starts hanging out with Draco? Draco finds Harry attractive and wants to go out with him but then he finds out what's been going on with Harry in the muggle world and decides to help him out.

Pairing: Draco/Harry, Severus/Sirius, Remus/Lucius, Neville/Fred, George/Lee and Hermione/Luna

Warning: This story contains abuse, rape, self harm, yaoi and yuri, so if you don't like then don't read.

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter and if I did there would be lemons, and a lot more fighting scenes.

Chapter one

It was the beginning of another school year at Hogwarts School of witchcraft and wizardry. This is now my fifth year of having to put a fake smile on my face so I don't worry my 'friends.' if they were my friends they would have realized by now that there was something bothering me.

After I came back home from my first year at Hogwarts I was thrown back out the window by Vernon. Dudley came out and grabbed the collar of my shirt and threw me back through window. Broken glass pierced through my skin, embedding themselves into my sides, arms and legs.


With that said he ripped my pants off my body, and I heard a zipper get pulled down. I tried to get away from Vernon I really did, but he got Dudley to grab me and hold me down. I felt something at my entrance and then it was shoved violently inside me. I screamed as pain surged up my spine. I heard Vernon groaning above me, I tried to block out the noises that were coming from him, while also trying to ignore the stabbing pain traveling up my spine. After he did that a few more times I blacked out from the pain.

All I wanted to do was get away from that place so I could be free of Vernon and everything that has to do with him. That the reason I can't stop going to Hogwarts because if I do he will punish me all year round and I don't want that to happen.

I am now on the train heading towards Hogwarts for my fifth year, but what people don't know is that the treatment that I get at home has made me cut myself from the emotional and physical pain of it. I have now got 30 cuts running up each of my arms as well as 50 cut running down each of my legs, I know what I'm doing is not going to help me in a long shot but it helps me forget about what 'Uncle Vernon' is doing even if only for a minute but it does help, I'm really surprised that no one in my dorm room has seen them, maybe they have and just don't care.

I heard someone clear their throat and looked up to see Hermione looking at me in concern while Ron and Ginny look at me in confusion and some other emotion that I couldn't place.

"What." I said in a cold voice, not even realizing I did it until after I said it.

Hermione's eyes widened and her mouth dropped open in shock while Ginny looked at me with a fake hurt expression on her face mix with a little bit of satisfaction and Ron looked at me with a frown on his face with no real emotion except hatred and satisfaction. Hermione seemed to be the only one who was really shock by how cold my voice sounded.

"Harry wha-" Hermione was cut of by Ron

"What's wrong, mate."

"I'm not your mate." I sneered coldly.

This time Ron and Ginny were more shocked then Hermione was, because Hermione knew it was coming Ron and Ginny didn't.


I scoffed. "Do you even know the meaning of the word friend Ronald, because just standing by me, obviously just trying to get yourself the fame you think you deserve is not being being at friend it's being at jealous prat, and you Ginny, just want my money which your obviously not going to get now because I've seen in your facial expressions and your body language how you feel about me all you are after is the money that I have well guess what cow that's not going to happen."

The expression on their faces were priceless but I hadn't finished yet. I had a lot of pent up emotions that were just waiting to burst free and they now came rushing out, like a tidal wave through a city.

"I tried to be your friend but I knew deep down that you just wanted to be friends with the famous Harry Potter and not the real me, I think that the only one in this room how really cares about me is Hermione." I took a deep breath to calm myself so I wouldn't tell them everything that happened to me at Vernon's and what I'm doing to myself now, when I heard the door to our cabin opened and Neville, Fred, George and Lee walked in.