I woke up the next morning and stared at myself in the mirror. Dark circles, my hair's a mess, my eyes are red...
Well isn't that just awesome. I looked at the picture taped to my mirror. It was from when Mikuo and I had gotten our pictures in a photo booth. I ripped it off the mirror and tore it in half. I felt more tears make their way down my cheeks and wiped at them furiously. I don't give a fuck about him anymore. He probably thought it was hilarious. I can't believe I fell for the whole 'I just want to be your friend' bull. God, I'm so stupid...
I put on make up, hiding the majority of my face issues. I sighed, "Well don't you look pretty today!" I said sarcastically, half mocking what Mikuo would say to me every morning. I mentally slapped myself.
'Stop thinking about him, you idiot.' I grabbed my bag and walked out my door to go to school.
Oh I just can't wait for today!
I need to stop being so sarcastic...
The minute I walked into school, I noticed the countless stares from my peers. Ugh. I heard things like, 'I hope she's okay,' 'Serves her right for stealing MY Mikuo' I rolled my eyes at that one. Stupid, dumb fangirls...
And then of course there was Mikuo, who had already moved on and was kissing Lily passionately against a locker.
Right in front of me.
Haha, I really do hate him. As soon as I walked by, he pulled away and started to say something to me. I cut him off, "Save it. I don't want to talk to you anymore." he closed his mouth and looked down.
Hmph. If he thinks he feels sad, he doesn't know the half of it...
Lily pulled her back to him and they continued their kiss.
...Miku don't care. Miku don't give a shit.
Oh God, I'm going crazy.
I walked into class and sat down in the back of the room. I usually sit in the front, but my seat's next to Mikuo, so hell no to that. I took my seat next to some quiet girl, I think her name's Rui. She looked at me with big gold eyes. I flinched at her intense gaze.
"U-um, hi..." I mumbled. She suddenly grinned at me. My eyes widened slightly in suprise.
"Hello! You're that one girl, Miku! You're the talk of the school. I personally think you should've slapped him, but whatever." Maybe she's not as quiet as I thought...
"Yep... That's me..." I muttered, sadness laced in my voice. She frowned.
"I'm sorry about the whole thing..." I shrugged at her.
"It's fine, don't worry."
Mikuo had strolled into class and walked into the back of the room where I was sitting.
"Miku... We really need to talk..." He said awkwardly. I examined his face. His eyes were dull, he had dark circles under his eyes too, as well as red eyes and messy hair... I hadn't noticed earlier... I wonder if he honestly felt bad or not.
"There's nothing to talk about." I said stubbornly. If he thinks I'm going to forgive him a day later, he's insane. I lost any respect I had for him... but as much as I hate to admit it, I still love him.
"Please..." he pleaded. His eyes were watering, he looked like he wanted to break down, right there in the middle of class. I hesitantly stood up. I looked to Rui briefly and she gave a thumbs up.
..We could be good friends.
Anyway, Mikuo led me out of class into the hallway. We had a substitute teacher today, and they didn't care.
Almost immediately after we were out of the class, Mikuo hugged me tightly and bawled into my shoulder like a baby. I heard him mumble things like, 'I'm so so sorry' and 'I really do love you. More than my life.' I had blushed at that.
"M-Mikuo..." I muttered, patting his back awkwardly, "Don't cry..." He pulled away from me and looked me dead in the eyes. He leaned forward and kissed me. I blushed and almost started to kiss back. I missed the familiar feel of his lips against mine...
But I pulled away. He looked at me with hurt filled eyes, as if I was the one who started this...
"Do you still love me?" he asked suddenly.
I didn't even have to think about this. Of course I still loved him.
"Then why won't you kiss me?"
...He's so dense...
"Because when I kiss you, I feel hurt, broken. I know that during the time we were dating, your lips were on some other girls'. You don't understand the pain I feel, Mikuo... God, why'd you have to be so stupid? Why would you accept a dare like that? Did you even remember back when we were kids? When we made a promise to get married one day... Gosh, I know that probably wouldn't have happened, but still..." at this point I was just ranting. Tears were spilling over the rims of my eyes. "I gave myself to you and everything. Dammit, I would've married you! But now I know that none of those feelings were real on your part. That's probably what hurts the most in this whole mess..."
Mikuo stared at me with wide eyes, "I don't know why I did the dare. I should've asked you out on my own. You're by far the most amazing girl I've ever been with. I love you. I might not've realized that at first, but I do. God dammit, I really do. You were my world. My everything. I can't even tell you how sorry I am that I hurt you. I hate myself because of it... G-God, I'm so s-sorry..." he sobbed. I frowned.
"M-Mikuo... Maybe we could... Maybe we could be friends." I suggested. There was no way in hell I would be in a relationship with him... yet. He looked at me with those dull eyes. I hate seeing that... His lower lip was quivering a bit, and I almost felt guilty.
"O-okay... Yeah, we can be... friends." he said the word with distaste and wrinkled his nose. I smiled sheepishly, not sure what to say. He held his arms out to me.
"Goodbye hug..?" he asked. I laughed sadly and wrapped my arms around him. He hugged back tightly, resting his chin on top of my head. He kissed my forehead when he pulled away.
"Well... We should probably get back to class before people start thinking we eloped to Canada..." I laughed to lighten the mood. He cracked a smile.
The rest of class went by pretty good. I sat by Mikuo, Rui, Rin, and Meiko at lunch. Besides the fact that Rin tried to claw his eyes out, that went smoothly.
Suddenly though, while we were all eating, Mikuo bursts out and says, "I quit football. lol."
and yes, he really said 'lol.'
"What? Why? You were our school's best player!" I raised my eyebrows at him.
"I just don't think reputations are all that important anymore." he shrugged at me.
"...You're insane." Rin spoke up, glaring at him.
"And proud." he grinned. Rin rolled her eyes at him.
Rui's eyebrows furrowed in confusion, "I wish I would've been here earlier in the year so I could understand all this drama better..." she muttered. I laughed.
"Trust me, you don't want to have any part in this drama." Mikuo nodded his head in agreement.
"Yeah..." he said awkwardly.
"Of course there wouldn't be any drama if certain people wouldn't accept stupid ass dares to break innocent girls' hearts." I said nonchalantly. I looked up from my food to see everyone staring at me with wide eyes. Mikuo looked hurt.
"Maybe certain people were just being idiots, and decided not to try to hurt said innocent girl in the end because he fell in love with her." he muttered.
"Or maybe they just wanted to get into certain girls pants." I glared at him.
"That's not true!" he argued. "Miku. I swear to God... I freaking love you; it's pissing me off that you don't see that." he huffed.
"Maybe I would believe you if you didn't fuck Lily while we dated and accept a dare to hurt me." I sneered. By this point we were both standing up and basically just yelling at each other. The majority of the lunchroom was watching us.
"God dammit. Why are you making this so difficult for me?"
"Because you don't deserve to have it easy!" he groaned.
"You're so hard headed. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't have done half the things I did with you. I'll prove that I love you, one way or another, so prepare yourself."
"No. Not gonna happen." I said stubbornly.
"Ugh. You are the most difficult person I've ever met." he glared at me.
"Deal with it."
"I will, because I love you." he grinned at me evily. I groaned. He leaned over the table and kissed me.
"Stop it!" I blushed.
"Nope." he stuck his tongue out at me and sat back down.
Well. This is going to be fun!
I actually have been writing this chapter for a long time. I don't like it though. -_- ugh.