Complicated Feelings

Takes place immediately following season 6 premier episode of Crossing Jordan, titled, "Retribution". Jordan was just cleared in her ex-lover's murder. She wrestles with her feelings of relief and heartache.

Woody left the morgue and began to walk do the sidewalk that lead to where is car was parked alongside the street. That's when he saw her. Jordan was sitting on the ground, up against the morgue building, her legs in the criss crossed position. She was just staring up at the clear sky. Woody stood and looked at her for a moment before quietly taking a seat next to her. Finally, after a few moments, he spoke.

"Why are you still here?" he asked.

"I don't know…I just couldn't be inside there anymore and I just didn't feel like going home yet." She said, still looking up at the sky.

"You okay?" Woody asked, knowing full-well that she wasn't.

"Not tonight. It's been a long few days, you know. I should be happy and relieved to have been cleared, but I just feel sad, you know. Things weren't perfect between me and Pollock and it was pretty clear we weren't meant to be together or anything, but I still cared about him."

"I know you did. I'm sorry Jordan. I had my own problems with him, but I never wanted it to end like this for him." He looked at her and she finally took her eyes off the sky to look back at him. She couldn't find any words so she just offered a slight smile.

"What about you?" Jordan said finally. "Shouldn't you be with Lu?"

Woody grimaced.

"That won't be happening anytime soon…I broke up with her and she's pretty pissed with me over everything that happened."

"So…it's my fault?" Jordan asked.

"No, it's not. As you said about you and Pollock, it just wasn't meant to be for me and Lu. It just took all that happened in the past few days to realize that." Woody said.

"Still," Jordan began, "I'm sorry Woody…for everything I put you through these past few days…for costing you your relationship with Lu, for asking you to not only help me but you risked your career and your freedom for me. I can't thank you enough."

"Jordan, I don't want you to feel sorry or start thanking me," Woody began, "This is what we do…this is what we have always done. You help me and I help you, anytime, anywhere. We stick our necks out for each other because that's what friends do. You would do anything for any of us…me, Dr. Macy, Bug, Nigel, Lily…and we would all do anything for you." He smiled at Jordan and she smiled back.

"I'm pretty lucky, you know that?" Jordan said, half posing it as a question.

"How so?" Woody said as he arched his eye brow.

"Many people out there don't even have one best friend. I've got five." She said. He took her hand in his.

"Same here." The two shared another smile before both looked up at the stars. They just sat quietly there, neither one saying a word, just sitting hand-in-hand for a long time.