A/N: WARNING: The darkest thing I've written. Character death. Suicide. Abuse. The like.


Do you know what it feels like?

Do you know what it feels like to walk in a room, your room, and see the woman you love in your bed with another man?

Do you know what it feels like to walk into your room, and see the woman you love in your bed with a knight of Camelot, a man you thought was your friend, a man you thought you could trust?

Does she even love me anymore?

No, probably not.

Do you know how much that stings?

Do you know how it feels to be so mad, you hear blood pumping in your head?

Do you know how it feels to do something you think is logical?

Do you know how it feels to kill an unarmed man?

Quite good, actually.

Do you know how it feels to only know you've killed them after you hear the woman you love's screaming?

And then I do something I didn't expect.

Do you know how it feels to beat the woman you love?

To hear her screams, her crying?

Do you know how it feels to see your servant come in, having heard the screaming?

To see him look at you like you're a monster?

Do you know how it feels to realize that life just isn't worth it anymore?

Do you know how it feels to end your own life?


A/N: Well, now I'm depressed. Please review?