I do not own the Kris Longknife Series.
Those Damn Longknifes. I've been around them to long. I've been around her to damn long.
I suppose this is partially my fault. I was warned by my superior when I first took the gig that it could be dangerous. I told him not to worry, that I'm trained and I'll take care of her. I never thought he would sit me down and try to have the talk with me.
"Jack, I'm not talking about bullets whizzing by you and assassination attempts. You wouldn't be where you are today if you couldn't handle those. But she is one of those Damn Longknifes, so make sure to always keep your eyes open. I mean dangerous in another sense. Many a man has been lured into the hearts of the women they protect"
"You're worried that I'm going to fall in love with her and do something stupid? Come on sir, you know me, I'm not going to get distracted like that."
"I do know you, and I've heard stories about her. But I've been doing this a lot longer than you. Stronger men than you have fallen for girls worse than her. I am warning you right now, I can't control your heart, I can't control hers. If you guys want each other then so be it, I can't stop you. I just want you to know that when you act on your feelings, your job changes. Yeah you'll still protect her, but you might be a bit more reckless at it."
"Sir, I'm not a hormonal teenager looking for the next girl to hook-up with. And with all due respect you are not my father, he already gave me the talk."
"I know you're not a hormonal teenager, but you will learn soon enough that what you know doesn't matter when a Damn Longknife is involved."
When I first got the job I read up on anything and everything I can get by hands on that involved the Longknifes. Everything since Ray Longknife led his first command during the Unity wars to Kris Longknife's rifle range scores. Reading about the Longknifes and being with a Longknife are two completely different things. Some people would say that Longknifes look at the situation and find who they have to kill to end it. They picture the Longknifes as these people who think killing as the primary option.
Getting to know Kris proves them all wrong. While Kris won't hesitate to pull the trigger on an enemy combatant, she always makes sure to give them a chance to surrender. She's just as likely to end up friends with the enemy as she is to kill them. She is realist with a healthy dose of optimist thrown in. You can't help but call her crazy while falling in behind her to follow her to wherever she leads.
Between her looks, personality, and brains you can't help but want to follow her. It explains why so many have followed her father, and grandparents. It explains why I keep following her wherever she goes.
I used to worry about how to get her out of every situation she gets in, how to stop the situations from happening. I still do. But now I worry about what will happen if I act on my feelings or if I don't act.
Damnit. I already went through puberty once I don't want to have to go through it again. I think I see the same feelings for me that I have for her, but I can never be too sure with her. There are too many things I can't account for in this situation.
I have always heard the phrase over and over again from almost everyone I've ever met. You don't understand the real meaning behind it until you spend some time with one of them.
Those Damn Longknifes.