Summary: Bella lives with her father Charlie, his new wife Sue and Sue's kids Leah and Seth. Leah does everything she can to make Bella's life hell. Her only escape is music. She joins Edward's band, Disbanded City , and her life takes a different spin.
I strummed aimlessly on my guitar while staring out the window. I could see my dad sitting out in the yard talking with Sue. They looked as if they were arguing.
Sue was my dad's, Charlie's, new wife. I'd moved here from Arizona a few months back to live with my dad. He forgot to mention that he was now married. Or that Sue had kids. Seth was alright. We got along pretty well and I didn't mind taking him places or letting him tag along with me.
Leah was another story. She hated me from the moment I walked in the door. I tried to be nice to her but it soon became clear that her number one goal was to make my life hell. Every time something happened Sue claimed I must have done something to provoke Leah and I became the enemy. It didn't help that Charlie didn't stand up for me unless I stormed off in tears. He just let Sue control him.
"Hey Bella?" I heard at my door. I looked up to see Seth standing there smiling softly at me.
"Hey Seth," I replied. "What's up?"
"My mom said dinner's gonna be ready soon. She asked if you could set the table." Seth smiled apologetically. He was usually on my side and comforted me whenever I got into trouble because of Leah.
"But it's not my turn tonight, its Leah's turn" I argued.
"Yeah that's what I told my mom. She doesn't care. How about I do them for you tonight?" he suggested.
"Nah, I'll only get into more trouble. Thanks anyway Seth." I sighed and rested my guitar on the bed.
Music was my escape. After an argument with Sue or Charlie or a confrontation with Leah, I would always have my music. My mom had brought me my guitar a few months before I'd left for Forks. She said that hearing me sing and play music bought her happiness.
After a very tense dinner I locked myself in my room and started on my homework. I was a senior at Forks High School. I only had one friend at the school and that was Alice Cullen. We weren't really friends. We were more acquaintances. Alice would sit by me at lunch sometimes and speak in the hallway whenever I passed her.
The next morning was uneventful. I got up at my usual time and ignored Sue and Leah like I did every morning. Then I drove Seth and me to school. Seth was 14, almost four years younger than me. He was a freshman at Forks High. He went off to find some of his friends when we arrived and I sat in my truck looking over my Calculus homework.
There was a light tap on my window and I jumped slightly. I looked up to see Alice smiling at me cheerily. She motioned for me to roll down the window and I did.
"Uh, hey Alice." I greeted her.
"Morning Bella, I was wondering if I could talk to you about something," she smiled at me and I wondered what it could be about.
"Um, sure," I replied confused.
"You told me one time about how you loved music and how you sing and play guitar. My brothers and my boyfriend started a band and they need a lead singer. I told them about you and they said I had to ask you about it." She told me all in one breath.
"Your brothers?" I asked "You mean Edward and Emmett?"
"Yeah, Emmett's on the drums, Edward is guitar and he sings and Jasper is guitar." She grinned at me and bounced a little.
"Oh I don't know Alice. I'll see." I told her.
"Oh come on Bella! I'm sure you're really good."
"I usually only sing by myself," I told her hoping she'd back off.
"Oh come on! This could be a really good chance for you!" she wasn't going to give up easily.
"Alice, I know you're just trying to look out for me but I'm still gonna say no." I told her a nicely as I could. She pouted slightly and nodded before walking away. I felt bad.
I endured all my classes silently just as I always did. I only spoke when I answered a question or when I was spoken to. When the bell rang for lunch I rushed hurriedly. I rushed in line and when I got my food I turned so I could head to the music room.
I didn't get 4 steps before I smacked into someone. The tray I was holding smashed to the ground and the person and I had pizza sauce on us.
"Jeez! Can't you watch where you're going. You're such a freaking klutz!" Edward Cullen yelled at me.
"I'm sorry." My face burned with embarrassment.
"Yeah you ought to be sorry! Jeez watch where you're going next time." He snapped.
I got pissed off. "Don't yell at me. You're the one who needs to watch where they're going! You could've avoided hitting me if you'd paid attention!" I yelled back at him. Then I grabbed my bag and stormed off, ignoring all the stares.
I headed straight for the music room where I nodded to the music professor and grabbed a guitar. I went into one of the little practice rooms and sat down with a sigh.
I started strumming on my guitar and sang softly to myself.
Now I'm told that this is life
Pain is just a simple compromise
So we can we get what we want out of it
Someone care to classify
Broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find, someone to rely on
I trailed off and then heard the door to the room open. I looked up to see Edward Cullen smirking at me.
"What the hell do you want?" I demanded.
"Well I actually came to apologize. But then I heard you singing and I got curious." He replied whilst raising an eyebrow.
"Apologize? Wow I didn't know douche bags knew how to apologize." I replied coolly.
"Touché, touché. Well I'm not a douche so I know how to apologize." He retorted. "I didn't mean to yell at you like that. It's just been a hard day. So I'm sorry."
"Apology accepted. Now get out." I said.
"No, I wanna hear what you were singing." He crossed his arms like he had no intent on moving.
"Well you are soon to discover how stubborn I can be." I replied and then sat and started at the wall across from me.
"You're really not gonna play anything until I move?" he asked after almost ten minutes.
"Yes, and you've now wasted my lunch break so I'm leaving." I got up and gathered my stuff and the guitar. I left Edward there staring after me in disbelief.
The rest of the day dragged on slowly. When it was finally over and I had escaped from my last class and Edward's constant plea to hear me sing, (he was in more of my classes than I realized) I rushed to my truck to get home.
I stopped to the grocery store on the way home to pick up some things Sue had asked me to get. Why she couldn't ask Leah was beyond me. But I didn't want to fight with either one of them tonight so I went and picked up the things she needed plus I few things for me.
I was relieved when I got home. I could see my dad wasn't home yet and Leah had beaten me from school. She was a senior, a year above me. I put Sue's groceries in the kitchen and rushed up to my room and my guitar.
I gasped when I looked in my room. My room had been torn apart. My clothes were strewn across the room and my books had been tossed off the bookshelf and everywhere else. I looked at my desk and papers had been pushed everywhere. Then I saw my guitar out of its case and lying on my bed. When I examined it for damage my vision turned red.
I stormed out of my room and across the hall to Leah's room. I banged her door open and she looked up startled and then narrowed her eyes when she saw me.
"What the fuck do you want?" she demanded
"I want to know why the fuck you'd trash my room and then cut my guitar strings! I haven't done shit to you Leah and all you do is treat me like crap!" I yelled.
"What is all this yelling about?" I heard Sue come up the stairs.
"Your daughter decided to go and trash my room and the cut my fucking guitar strings." I yelled. I heard my dad come in the driveway and into the house.
"Well what did you do to her?" Sue asked accusingly.
"I haven't done anything to her. She fucking treats me like shit and then claims I did something to her." I told Sue.
"Bull shit." Leah muttered under her breath.
"Then what HAVE I don't to you Leah? Me and my dad were perfectly fine before you and your mom and brother joined this family! It seems that Seth is the only one who believes I haven't done anything wrong! Leah I TRIED to make you feel welcome but all you've done is blown it back up in my face and decided to make me as miserable as fucking possible. Well I'm DONE with your shit!" I yelled at her. I could feel my face getting redder and redder.
"What's going on?" my dad demanded.
"She cut my guitar strings and trashed my room." I spat.
"What? Why would you do something like that Leah? Guitar strings are expensive." He scolded.
Leah simply rolled her eyes.
"Well Charlie don't you think you should ask Bella what bought on this attack?" Sue said immediately jumping to Leah's defense.
"I didn't do anything to her Sue!" I yelled.
"Are you sure Bella?" my dad asked.
"I'm done here. If you wanna believe the web of bullshit she's pulled over you then fine! I'm leaving. I refuse to be in the same house as this bitch." I said glaring at Leah.
She grabbed me by the arm. "Don't ever call me a bitch." She growled.
I shook her arm off hard and shoved it away from me. "Grab me again and you'll get hurt." I growled back. I turned and slammed the door to my room.
I started straitening up my room and then I heard a knock on my door.
"Go away." I yelled.
"It's only me Bella," I heard Seth say from the other side of the door. I sighed and went to let him in.
"You need any help?" he asked looking around the already half cleaned room.
"Nah I'm good for now." I mumbled. Then he spotted the bag I had on my bed along with my school bag.
"Going somewhere?" he sat down on my bed and watched me put my books back on the shelves.
"Yeah, I don't know where. Probably a motel or something." I replied.
"You know they're gonna divorce right?" I turned to look at Seth. For a 14 year old he looked extremely serious.
"Really?" I raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah I heard your dad tell me mom he wants a divorce if you, her and Leah can't get along. He's tired of having to take sides." Seth laid back and stretched.
"Wow, I don't want my dad to go through that but I don't think I can stay here much longer. I don't want to fight with your sister, she just looks for ways to push my buttons and today she went way too far." I sat next to Seth on my bed and looked at my hands.
"I know I told her. I also told her how cool you are when people get to know you." He grinned at me.
"Thanks Seth." I smiled back at him.
"Anytime Bella, anytime." He got up and started to walk out. "You still leaving?" he asked, turning around.
"Yeah, I don't want to be here tonight and I might lose my cool if I stay." I shrugged and picked up my bags and guitar.
"Alright well stay safe Bells." Seth smiled again and then walked out.
"Always," I called after him. Seth was by far my most favorite person in the house most times. He was easy to get along with and refused to take sides in any argument he was dragged in unless it was serious.
After I finished gathering everything I needed I zipped up my extra bag and grabbed it along with my school bag and guitar. Then I headed downstairs trying not to call attention to myself. My dad caught me when I was about to walk out the door.
"Where are you going Bella?" he said.
"I don't know dad. First I'm gonna head to the music place and get new strings and probably play for a while. Then I don't know. I'll crash at a friend's house." I shifted my weight and sighed.
"Bella you don't have to go. Please." My dad pleaded with me.
"Daddy, I don't want to go. But I can't stay here tonight. I'll come back in a few days." I told him.
"Ok, call me when you know whose house you're staying at." He told me.
"I will daddy. I love you." I hugged him tightly. "I'll be back." I reassured him.
"I love you too kid. Come back soon." I nodded and headed out the door.
I headed over to the House of Music. The owner and I were real good friends. He'd heard almost about almost every argument I'd had with Sue or Leah and he always told me about the latest music and bands he found.
"Hey Paul." I greeted him as I entered the store. I'd left my bags in the car and was carrying my guitar and a couple of picks. I went up to the counter and leaned against it heavily.
"Hey Bella, another fight?" he smiled knowingly.
"Yeah, I need a whole new set of strings."
"What happened this time?" he asked as he handed me the strings.
"She cut my guitar strings." I replied as I handed him the money.
"No way!" he gasped
"Way, then there was a huge argument and I packed a few things and left the house." I told him
"I'd slap a bitch!" he exclaimed. I laughed and took my guitar strings and my guitar to the back practice room.
Once my guitar had been carefully mended I strummed to myself as I looked around the room. I'd spent many evenings in this room after an argument. It was kinda like my own little sanctuary where I could lose myself in my music.
I strummed some more and then started singing.
Is anyone home,
Just pick up the phone
You'll be sorry to hear
That I'm doing fine now
"Singing again, are we?" I heard a voice say. I jumped up and whirled around to see Edward Cullen leaning in the doorway smirking at me.
"Are you like a stalker or something?" I demanded.
"Now Bella, don't flatter yourself." He teased. "I was here picking up some stuff for my band and I saw you come back here. I was merely curious."
"What kind of stuff?" I asked narrowing my eyes.
He held up a plastic bag, "drum sticks, spare strings, and a few picks." He smirked again.
"Oh," was my smart reply.
"So will I ever get to hear you sing?" he asked.
"Edward, I really don't want to."
"Come on please? How about you sing the song you were singing at lunch today?" he pleaded.
I sighed. I wasn't in the mood to fight with anyone else and if I protested, Edward was sure to argue with me.
"Fine," I replied wearily.
I sat back down in my chair and Edward sat in front of me on the floor. I sighed and slowly started playing.
1, 2, 3, 4I am going away for a while
I'll be back don't try and follow me
I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm tryin' to find my place
It might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes,And run from them
With no direction
We'll run from them
With no convictionI'm just one of those ghosts
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circlesNow I'm told that this is life
Pain is just a simple compromise
So we can we get what we want out of it
Someone care to classify
Broken hearts and twisted minds
So i can find, someone to rely on,And run to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not
We are justMisguided ghosts
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles.
I finished and a tear slid down my cheek. I wiped it away embarrassed. Edward sat in front of my open mouthed and silent.
"There. Are you happy now?" I asked. My voice cracked slightly.
"That was amazing! Bella you are so, so good! I've never heard a voice like that." He told me in awe.
"Thanks," I smiled slightly.
"Why are you crying?" he asked.
"Because, singing is something I love so much and sometimes when it feels like the entire world is against me, if I sing it makes everything better." I told him.
Edward surprised me by taking the guitar from me and pulling me into a tight hug. "It's alright Bella, it's gonna be alright. Nobody hates you." He tried to reassure me.
"Ha, then you haven't met my stepsister." I told him all about Leah and the fight I'd had previously.
"Well she sounds like a bitch." Edward said after.
"She is," I agreed.
"Will you join my band Bella? Please, just come to our practice tomorrow and if you don't like it you don't have to join but I think you'd be really good." He asked me.
"Sure Edward, what time tomorrow?" I gave in.
"Well the guys usually come over around 12 but I want to see what else you can do so can you come at about 9?"
"Wait," he held up a finger frowning, "did you say that you told your dad you won't be sleeping at home tonight?"
"Well, yeah." I admitted.
"Where do you plan on sleeping then?" he demanded.
"I dunno, maybe a motel, or maybe I'll just crash in my truck tonight." I shrugged.
"Absolutely not!" Edward almost yelled. "You can sleep at my place, my parents aren't home tonight and Alice would love to have you over for a girly sleep over."
I thought about the things a girly sleep over with Alice might contain and I almost shuddered. "No thanks," then I got an idea, "oh! I can sleep over my best friend's house." I beamed at the idea.
Jacob Black had always been my friend. We met when I was 3 and he was almost 2. Then we'd been inseparable until I was 8 and he was 7. The year I turned 9 was the year that my mom took me with her and left Forks.
"Are you sure?" Edward asked.
"Yeah, I'll call him now." I pulled out my cell phone and dialed Jacob's number.
"Hello?" he answered.
"Hey Jake!" I greeted.
"Bella! What can I do for you?"
"Well, I need a place to crash tonight. Do you mind if I come over your place?" I asked and waited for his answer.
"Sure Bells! My dad isn't home though. He went to visit my sister in Hawaii but I had to stay behind cause I had school."
"Thanks Jake! I'll be there in a bit."
"No problem Bella. Anything for my best friend."
"Well I'll see you later. Bye."
"Yeah bye," Jake said.
I hung up the phone and turned to Edward. "He said I could stay over his place." I informed him.
"He?" Edward questioned.
"Yeah, my best friend, Jacob, is a boy. I know what you're thinking and it's not like that. We're strictly just friends." I told him.
"Oh," he replied. I packed up my guitar and started to leave the room. Edward fell in step beside me.
"Well I'll see you tomorrow." I told him once I reached my truck.
"Yeah, I can't wait." He smiled at me and then put his hand out. "Give me you're phone."
"Why?" I raised an eyebrow at him.
"So I can put my number in it smart one." He said as though stating the obvious.
I handed him my phone and he put his number in it. "Call me tomorrow so I can give you directions to my house." He instructed.
I nodded, "alright." I started up my truck and was about to drive off when he said my name.
"Bella?" I stopped and turned to look at him. His face was suddenly close to mine and my heart thudded in my chest.
"Yeah?" I whispered.
"See you tomorrow." He replied and leaned back. I swallowed and nodded.
I was falling for Edward Cullen.
A/N: And that completes chapter 1. The song for this chapter was Misguided Ghost by Paramore (I'm a GIANT Paramore fan whoop, whoop!) the second song that Bella sings a part of is also by Paramore. The first person to tell me what song it is will get a sneak peek of the next chapter and my undying happiness!