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I stared at Alice, completely and utterly shocked. Vampires couldn't make tears, so I shouldn't be crying! Yet there I sat, in front of Tanya's home, with blood-red tears streaming down my face.
She stood before me, just as wide-eyed, just as astounded as I was. I could tell by the look on her face that she had never seen anything like this before.
"What's happening, Alice?" I whispered, my voice barely audible. She shook her head—a simple gesture that conveyed so much.
She didn't know what this meant or what could be causing it. She was just as clueless as I was.
"Maybe Carlisle will know," she murmured after what seemed like an eternity. Then she took out her cell phone and dialed. After the third ring, I heard Carlisle's voice. It sounded just as gentle and familiar as when I was a human, yet also different. I could hear so much detail; his voice had so much more depth than before.
"Hello, Alice. What can I do for you?"
"Hi, Carlisle. You need to come to Denali at once. I'll explain when you arrive."
Carlisle's tone changed immediately. "Is everyone all right?"
"Yes, everybody's fine. But I need you here. I can't explain, but you need to come here as soon as possible."
"Okay. I'll be there in a few hours. I am assuming I'm the only one you need?"
"Yes; I don't think the others would be helpful right now." I could hear the apology in her voice which meant the rest of her family could her us. I thought of how they must be reacting to this phone call, picturing Esme's worried features at once. I wanted to apologize, but knew I couldn't say anything right then. They'd know I was in Alaska, they'd know I was no longer human, and they'd tell Edward. He'd come running to Denali, and I knew, deep down in the pieces of my broken heart, that I couldn't face him yet.
It was too soon; before I could deal with my past, I needed to figure out my present, and maybe even plan a part of my now endless future. If it wasn't for her gift, I probably wouldn't even be sitting here with Alice. Also, she wouldn't be on the phone with her father—for all intents and purposes— getting him here so we can figure out the mystery of my blood tears. I silently stood up and walked away from both Alice and the house. I was deathly afraid that Edward would find out I was there… that he'd find out I was a vampire, and that he'd be disgusted by it. That he'd break my heart again and I'd be left here facing an eternity of loneliness with a burning hole in my chest as my only companion.
I knew in that moment I couldn't live through his rejection again. And so I didn't stop walking when Alice called out my name. I didn't stop when I heard her coming after me. Not even when she caught up to me did I slow down. She had to tackle me to the ground before I even so much as acknowledged her presence.
"Damn it, Bella! Why didn't you stop when I called you?" she asked, exasperated. I shrugged and avoided looking in her eyes. "For fuck's sake, Bella. Look at me and tell me what's wrong! If that crying thing freaks you out, then you don't need to worry about it. Carlisle's plane will land in a few hours, and I'm sure he'll be able to figure it out."
I still wasn't looking at her, but suddenly I could feel the comprehension dawning on her. "This isn't about Carlisle, or about the bloody tears, is it?"
Knowing it was futile to resist Alice when she had that certainty in her voice, I shook my head.
"This is about Edward, isn't it?"
When she said his name, I felt my eyes well up with tears again. "This fucking sucks! Why do I have to be the only goddamned vampire on the face of this earth who can cry?"
Alice chuckled. "I know what you mean; being unique sucks sometimes."
I was half tempted to raise an eyebrow at her but I knew what she was talking about. There couldn't have been many other vampires in history with a similar gift to hers.
"Do you think this is my gift? The ability to cry? Because if it is, that would just plain suck. I want to be able to do something cool like you or Jasper." Or Edward, I mentally added.
Alice smirked at me. "You'll never be as cool as me, Swan, so don't even try."
We looked at each other for about five seconds before we both burst out laughing. While we sat on the ground laughing, the hole in my chest started to mend a little. It would probably never heal completely, but having my best friend back helped ease the pain.
When we sobered up a bit, Alice reassured me, "I doubt the tears are your gift. They're probably a part of it but not your entire gift. But that, of course, is only a guess; we won't know for sure until Carlisle arrives."
I raised my eyebrow at her. I was used to Alice knowing more than most people. Plus she certainly wasn't one of those people that just sat around. "Can't you already see what Carlisle will say when he arrives?"
She shrugged. "I can see him arriving and meeting you for the first time, but no specifics about the tears. Which bugs me, to be completely honest. I'm not used to not knowing things."
"Awww, poor psychic," I teased her. She stuck her tongue out at me and we laughed some more. Only after we had calmed down again did I notice the burning at the back of my throat.
Apparently crying made me thirsty. "Alice, would you like to go hunting with me? That crying jag earlier left me burning with thirst."
Alice nodded, stood up in one fluid movement and started heading back to the house. Slightly confused, I followed her inside.
"Bella and I are going hunting. Does anyone want to join us?" she asked Kate and Tanya, the only two vampires left in the room. But I knew her voice was loud enough to carry through the house so that the others also had the option of joining us. I secretly hoped they wouldn't because I wanted to spend more time with my friend.
Tanya and Kate shook their heads, and from various parts of the large house, we heard a chorus of no's. Alice and I headed back out the front door. We took off in a jog that quickly took us away from the house and into the woods. After about five minutes, Alice stopped so abruptly I almost crashed into her but I stopped just in time.
"What's wrong, Alice?" I asked her, but then I saw that she was in the middle of a vision, her eyes distant and glazed over. I was unsure of what to do so I waited until Alice's eyes began to clear. "What did you see Alice?" I questioned her once she seemed fully aware of her surroundings again.
Alice stared at a spot over my shoulder and said one word. One name that meant total happiness and yet filled me with dread.