Author's Note: I started typing it out after posting the recent update on here. I had two scenes for a section of the story, that I couldn't decided which one to go with. So I combined them together. The fight scene is going to be in two parts. As much as I love Brennan and Emma together. I wish Tyler survived. I loved Emma and Tyler's relationship and it was over too soon.
Before You Read: This is a flashback. It takes place five months after At Destiny's End. I had a hard time writing angst. I hope I did it well.
At The Beach. Emma sitting on a beach chair.
The sun felt good on my skin. I could hear the sound of the ocean and the sea gulls. I hadn't been to the beach in over a year. I should feel sad but I don't. I feel happy, which is weird because I haven't felt happy in a long time.
"Emma." The voice sounded familiar. I opened my eyes to see the bright sun shining down on me. I sit up from the beach chair and saw the man that I thought was dead and smiled. He looked the same as the last time I saw him. He had his sandy blond hair, green eyes, and that killer smile of his. I use my hand to block out the sun and found myself saying, "Hey husband."
He laughed and said, "Hi wife."
"How was your swim?" I asked as he took the seat next to me and started drying himself off.
"Amazing! You should have joined me."
"Next time." I said as I went in for a kiss. He broke off the kiss first and said, "What was that for?"
"I missed you" I confessed.
"I missed you too?" He asked confused. "We see each other all the time; I don't see how you can miss me." He joked.
"Well maybe it's not enough." I said as I went over to his chair and sat on his lap. I followed his hand as it moved closer to my face and felt him brush my hair out of my face and under my ear like he did at the party Skye was throwing. I also gave him the same response which was smiling, putting my head down and blushing.
"What?" He asked.
"You know, you still haven't told me who you really are." Hoping he would remember and play along.
"You know who I am. Same way I know you" he said catching on, smiling.
"You remembered." I stated happily
"Of course, how can I forget? It was our first date, even though it turned out like crap towards the middle."
"But it was really great towards the end, until you pushed me away."
"Sorry about that. I was just…" I cut him off and finished the sentence for him.
"Trying to protect me, I know."
"Everything worked out though. We are happy and together." He kissed me and I felt his eyes open. "We are also going to be late for dinner with the family if we don't get up and change." He said looking at his watch. I sighed and pulled back.
"We can miss it." I smiled getting up from the chair offering my hand to him and he took it.
"You know we can't. This is our first "family" dinner. Since you left Mutant X."
"'I know. They are really looking forward to seeing us and how I am adjusting to living like all the other mutants and blah, blah, blah."
"Not only that but they want to know how our honeymoon went, which I think it went pretty good."
"It did, a little fast but good."
"We have all the time in the world for each other." He said as he kissed my forehead.
I couldn't believe I had left mutant x. I never in a million years would ever do that even if I met someone but Tyler wasn't just someone. It felt so good to be with him again and be loved by him or just anyone really. I've hadn't really had this in a really long time. We went inside our beach house and something had caught my eye. I went to the living room and picked up the picture. It was our wedding photo. Everyone was there even Brennan, who looked sort of sad. I touched his face and was suddenly pulled into a different moment.
Brennan and I were kissing in the house I shared with Tyler. It felt really nice and he is such a good kisser. The kiss was broken off by Tyler pushing Brennan off of me. He started yelling at Brennan and I was trying to tell him to stop, but nothing was coming out of my mouth. Tyler was then facing me asking me how I could do this to us and if our marriage meant anything to me. I kept telling him how sorry I was, that I didn't mean for it to happen. Before I could stop myself, I told him that our marriage was a mistake because I loved Brennan. Tyler looked at me with hurt and confusion in his eyes. He then collapsed in front of me. I saw blood coming out of his mouth, nose, and ears. I bent down to help stop the bleeding, but he kept jerking around from the pain and I was yelling at Brennan to help me. Brennan just stood there with a blank stare. Tyler stopped moving and I couldn't find a pulse. I closed my eyes and started crying.
When I opened my eyes, the tears were gone. Tyler and I were at OMDI Corporation, looking at Skye, who was holding a gun towards the containers filled with the toxin that will eat all the oil up until there was none left in the world.
"Either of you make a move or I pull the trigger. So what do you see next, Tyler? The beginning of a new generation?" Skye asked not looking at them.
"No, Skye. I see thousands of innocent people dying. Please, don't do it." Tyler said as he held's his head waiting for the vision to come. "There's got to be another way." He said as he is pulled into a vision of me dying.
I tried to make myself wake up but I couldn't. I knew how this was going to end. I didn't want to relive it again. "Tyler, what did you see?"
"I love you" Tyler said looking at me with sadness in his eyes. I want to tell him not do it but he shoves me out of the way before the words could come out. Tyler pushes the red button on the wall; pushes Skye to the ground as the doors start closing, trapping them inside with the containers. Skye gets up and points the gun at him. Tyler thinking he is going to shoot braces for the impact of the bullet but instead Skye shoots the containers filled with the toxin, releasing the gas. Skye coughs and instantly dies.
I got up and ran to the glass with tears in my eyes, "Tyler!" I yell. As the room is being engulfed with the toxin. "No." I cried. Tyler goes to the glass and puts his hand on the glass and reassures me that it's okay and that he loves me. "I love you too." I watch as his hand falls away from the glass and the room gets overtaken by the toxin. As I start to back away from the glass, I could hear a faint voice calling my name. I could feel someone shaking me, trying to wake me up but my eyes won't open. After what seemed like forever, I got them to open, to see a worried Brennan looking at me.
"Hey, are you okay? I heard you screaming" He said as he handed me a glass of water.
"Thanks. Um, Yeah. I think so." I said as I talk a drink of water and put it on my night shelf. I realized that Tyler was dead. My dream didn't happen, except for Tyler's death at the Corporation plant. I wish it was real; well the good part of the dream, but Brennan had to mess things up like always.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"No. Not really." I said hoping he would drop the questions. I couldn't take interrogation tonight.
"You've been having the dreams a lot." He stated.
"I'm fine. It's nothing to worry about." Why can't he just drop it?
"You are not fine and it was not nothing. You were screaming and I couldn't wake you up. It was like you didn't want to wake up at all. I was about one minute away from calling Adam."
"That bad? I asked not realizing how serious it was.
"Yeah, Emma. I think you should tell Adam. He could help you get a good night sleep for once. If not Adam, then talk to me. I'm your best friend…" I looked at him with a, 'are you serious?' look because we have not been best friends for a while now. "Look, I know we haven't been close since Tyl-"
"Look, Brennan. It's nothing, okay. Just drop it." I said getting up from the bed.
"No, I won't. This has been going on for three weeks now and they are getting worse and more intense. I lied to Adam when he asked what was going on with you because you told me that it was nothing and that you were fine. I believed you the first time you said that, but not anymore."
"It's not like you haven't lied to him before. Did you suddenly get a conscience?" I snapped. I could see Brennan getting angry but he was calming himself down before speaking.
"I am trying to help you Emma. Stop being so damn defensive and stubborn. You've been distance ever since Tyler died. It's been five months now. Shouldn't you been over it by now?" He did not just say-
"Sorry, I didn't mean-"He tried touching my arm, but I moved away from him. I needed to put as much distance between us before I do something stupid.
"You say you "get it" but you don't. No one does! I loved him. He loved me. We were supposed to spend the rest of our lives together!" I yelled trying to get him to understand.
"You didn't even know him! You said at the pier that his thoughts were your thoughts, right? What if it was just your powers that connected you two together? It wasn't real."
"That makes no-"I was about to argue but he cut me off.
"We're a family. Then all of a sudden this guy comes along and you know each other for like what three, four days and you were willing to leave the only family who love you and gave you a place to belong."
"You are out of line" I gritted out. What the hell is Brennan's problem?
"Am I? Answer me this, If Tyler didn't die would you have gone underground with him or would you give him up?" He said getting up from the bed and getting in my space.
"Were those my only two choices?" I said backing away from him as slow as possible so he wouldn't notice.
"I'm pretty sure. I don't think Adam would have approved of him joining Mutant X. I mean, Jesse had or has, I don't even know anymore a girlfriend. Did Adam offer her to join, so that they can be together? No. She went underground."
"Why are you doing this? Why are you trying to hurt me?" I don't like this Brennan. He is intentionally trying to hurt me.
"I'm not. I'm trying-"
"I'm not done. " I looked Brennan straight in his eyes and said, "You're right. I would have left with Tyler." He looks at me like I knew that. "There is or was more to this life than Mutant X. Genomex is gone. Hell, Ashlocke is dead. What else is there for us to do, Brennan? Go on missions for some mysterious person, Adam gets a call from her and we go like good soldiers. No questions ask. I mean, if I remember correctly you had a problem with that. What do we really know about this mysterious person? What if this is all for this person's personal agenda? I had a guy who was in love with me. Who wanted the same thing I did, but of course, he had to die. The universe has it out for me. 'Hey, Look, Emma is happy, let's screw it up for her!' I said drying the tears that had unknowingly fallen. "All I want is a normal life."
"But you are not normal. None of us are."
"I know that but is that too much to ask?" I asked sitting back on the chair that I had left moments ago. Then I started feeling something from Brennan that I never thought I would feel coming from him, anger towards me. "What is this really about, Bren?
"What do you mean?" He asks with his fist clenched.
"Don't play dumb. Why are you angry with me?"
"You don't want me to answer that. You won't like it." He said walking around the room.
"Try me." I challenged.
"You asked for it. Don't say I didn't warn you." He stopped pacing and sat on my bed. I immediately regretted my decision. I knew whatever he was going to say was going to change the course of our friendship.
It was three thirty in the morning. I didn't need to look at a clock to know that. I could hear Emma screaming. For the past three weeks, she has been having these nightmares. I know why she is having these dreams or at least I think I have an idea of why. It's been five months now since Tyler's death. I hated the guy; he was an ECO-terrorist and she fell in love with him. I don't believe Adam when he came up with scientific jumbo about why Emma and I have this connection. I just think he doesn't know. He just doesn't want to admit it. This was the 19th day, 20th dream that she has had. The first time it sound like someone was killing her. We all ran to her room but she assured us that it was nothing. Everyone believed her and stopped checking on her after three days of restless nights. The first week I would check on her and she would say that she was fine. The second week I ignored her even though I didn't want to. I was tired of getting rejected. This week, I have been talking myself into confronting her about the nightmares. Enough was enough already. She was not the only one affected by these nightmares. If she didn't agree to talk to Adam, I was going to do it for her.
I'm trying so hard to help Emma but I just keep saying the wrong things and end up hurting her more. I just have all this pent up emotions. Jealousy, Guilt, sadness, love but on top of all that…anger. I have all this anger towards her and she doesn't deserve it, but I can't help but feel it.
"Why are angry at me?" Emma asked, with a hint of sadness in her eyes covered by annoyance.
"You don't want me to answer that. You won't like it." Emma drop it, if we open this door everything is going to change and part of me is hoping for the better but I know it won't be. I know that the moment I tell her all my feelings, our friendship is going to change.
"Try me" She challenged. I usually love her stubbornness but not today. I sat down on the bed, trying to calm myself, but sitting down made it harder to do that. "You asked for it. Don't say I didn't warn you" I couldn't take the sitting down thing anymore; I got up and started with the first thing that popped in my head. "Do you know why I joined Mutant X?"
"Um, you wanted to change the world? Be a superhero, like batman, but without the cape and the bat mobile?" Emma said trying to lighten the situation.
I chucked, only Emma can make me forget about my anger for a split second. I looked at her and hesitantly said, "No. It was you. I joined because of you." I could see her face turn to confusion and I knew what she was going to say.
"Why? We only talked for like 15 minutes or so and it was mostly about our powers."
"Why?" I sat back down again and said, "I have been asking myself that for as long as I can remember. Honestly, I don't know. I just know I needed you as much as you needed me. That's all that mattered to me. I knew the moment you asked for my help, that my life was going to change for the better. When you ran from me, I kept telling myself that I was never going to see you again and that you were fine, but I couldn't get you out of my head. The day at the bar where we met the second time, that was, I don't know, the third time that I was there. I was waiting for you. Something inside me told me that you will be there and that I had to be there."
"You barely knew me" She whispered as she crossed her legs on the chair.
"I wonder what had happened to you, why you asked for my help of all the people in that club. I kept telling myself that it didn't matter what happened to you because you were a stranger to me. But that didn't help. I needed to know that you were okay. I didn't know how to contact you. Hell, I didn't even know your name, but like I said, something inside me knew that you would be back there and I was right. "I looked at her after this latest confession and she looked so vulnerable sitting on the chair. She looked like she was trying hard not to run for the hills. "You don't know how relieved I was to see you. You looked so beautiful."
"Brennan…" She whispered, trying to make me stop.
"I'm not done." I said softly.
"Do you remember what happened after our conversation?"
"Yeah, of course I do. You got captured by Genomex." She said grabbing the water from the night stand.
"Yeah and I was glad."
"Glad?" she questioned after taking a drink of water.
"Better me than you. I could deal with it. You couldn't. It was my job to protect you."
"Protect me, Brennan…"
I cut her off and said, "Then You got captured, at the time I didn't know it was a rescue mission but I was angry at you."
"I was trying to help you because it was my fault you were in Genomex's radar in the first place. Did you know that I'm the one who found you?" She asked uncrossing her legs. "You were in pain, I felt it."
"Yeah, Adam told me. He told me that I owed you." I smiled at her and she smiled back because we knew that I have paid my debt to her more than once and vice versa. I knew that it was time to get back to the previous question. I was trying to drag this story longer than it needed to be. "To answer your question as to why I am angry, there is more to that."
"Okay, what is it?"
"I'm sad at the fact that you were in love with this guy and he died, but I'm hurt at the fact that you would have given up everything for him. I'm Jealous that you had a connection to Tyler and you acted on that connection, but not with me. I feel guilty because I am in love with you and Tyler died. I feel like you don't care about the way I feel, but most all I am angry at you because this is your fault!" I said my voice getting a little higher and could feel the anger coming back up again. I had this all locked up away deep inside and It was time to get it out in the open.
"My fault? How is this my fault?" She questioned, getting up from the chair.
"You did this to me! You out of everybody at that stupid club you asked me for help, why? What was so special about me that you had to dump all this crap on me?"
"I don't know, I just felt-"Of course she didn't know. She never knows anything having to deal with her powers.
"I'm angry that you have this hold on me that I have tried so hard to get out of my system. I gave up everything for you Emma and you never gave up anything for me! I had a great life before I met you. I mean, Yeah, I was a thief, but I went out on dates. I had a social life that didn't involve almost getting killed by other mutants. Then you came in my life and did some mojo on me-"
"Whoa! I didn't do anything to you! I am not to blame for the lack of your love life. If I recall correctly, didn't you and Shal almost kiss the night Ashlocke was released from his pod?"
"How the hell do you know that? No one- wait, is that why you called us over for something? You made it up. You didn't want me to kiss Shalimar. See you mess with people's lives!" I yelled getting angrier by the minute. I cannot believe she would stoop this low.
"Are you kidding me? Adam told me to call you. The reason I know about the kiss is because SHALIMAR TOLD ME. You really think that I would use my powers on you, so that, I don't know have you in my life or what the hell you think. If you think that, then you don't know me at all. You want a relationship with Shalimar, go ahead. You want a social life, get one. I'm not stopping you!" She said pacing back and forth. I could tell she wanted to hit me or use her powers on my to knock me on my ass, but she was forcing herself not to. I felt like I was out of my body, I couldn't stop myself from talking.
"Really? Bullshit. You love me too"
"That is ridiculous!" She scoffed.
"No! It isn't." I said getting up, making her stop pacing. "It's the reason for your nightmares. You are feeling guilty at the fact that you are in love with me. You want to start a relationship with me, but you don't think you should because of Tyler. Tell me I'm wrong, Emma." I challenged her. Earlier today I eavesdropped on Adam and Shalimar's conversation about dreams being a manifest for people's subconscious. The subconscious was trying to make a person see something.
"What makes you think that?"
"You talk in your sleep." I sort of told her a while lie. It was true I have heard her call my name a few times as well as Tyler, but she is not ready to hear the real reason. At one point I heard her say she loved me. I smiled when I heard that. It made my heart happy.
"I am not in love with you. I love Ty-"
"He is dead, Emma" I said softly as I sat back on the bed. "He is not coming back. I'm sorry you lost him. You deserve to be happy, to have a life. Tyler would want you to."
"How the hell would you know that?! You never met Tyler. Hell, you never even liked him! So, don't you dare tell me what he would have wanted for me."
"I know him, well enough. If Tyler was as decent of a guy as you said he was then he would want you to move on, to be happy. If it is not with me, fine. I could deal with that, if you didn't have feelings for me, but you do. You want me, but you are too ashamed to admit it."
"Look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me and that you don't want me. Tell me and I will drop it. You will never hear from me again." I feel like I am not in control of what I am saying. I am just so desperate for her to see that we can be happy together. God, I feel like an ass.
"You're going to leave, if I turn you down?" She said worried and sat down on the chair again.
"Maybe. I don't know. I guess you will have to find out."
"I am not going to be blackmailed into saying what you want to hear."
"It's not blackmail, it's an ultimatum."
"Same concept. I don't want you to leave." She said with her eyes getting watery.
"Then be honest with me and yourself and tell me you love me." I said putting my hands in her hands.
"Brennan, I can't tell you what I don't feel. I'm sor-" I pulled away from her and shook my head.
"You are lying."
"No. I don't feel the way you want me to" She said looking in my eyes but I could tell she was lying. She is not a good liar when she is upset. "I don't love you."
"I can't believe this." I said feeling defeated. I cannot figure out how to get through to her. I don't even know what is going to happen next. Should I leave Mutant X? I wasn't serious before, but now I am not so sure.
"I am so sorry. Please don't leave Mutant X. I need-"
"You need me, but you don't want or love me either." I said sadly. "How is that fair to me? You have a nice way of confusing a guy, Emma."
"Brennan, I wish-"
"Don't. You do."
"If it makes you feel better to believe that-"
I can't take this anymore. I have been trying for so long to keep everything together for her. She needed me to support her but this is just too much for me to handle. I grabbed her glass from the nightstand and threw it at the door. It felt good to do that. She flinched. Great. I scared her.
"I'm sorry." She said crying silently.
"You said that already. Goodbye Emma." I said turning away from her. I didn't feel anything anymore. I was numb to everything. I need a drink or a workout. Actually both could help.
"Brennan, please don't leave. I'll go. You're needed here."
"I'm not going anywhere." I said without turning around. I didn't want her to see me. I could feel myself getting teary eyed.
"But you said-"
I cleared my throat and said, "I meant goodbye to our friendship and connection. Maybe I could talk to Adam about trying to get rid or limit this connection. It could be good for both of us."
"If that is what you want" She said whispered sadly. I could feel that she didn't want that to happen, but something needs to be done about this. I can't live like this anymore.
"It is." I slammed the door behind me. I couldn't breathe in that room anymore. I was then faced with a very angry feral.
"What the hell is all this noise?" She asked irritated. If there is one thing I know is to never wake up Shalimar, unless it was an emergency.
"Nothing, Shal. Go back to sleep." I said Irritated.
"I was until someone started yelling and throwing things." She said getting angry, but then her voiced soften when she asked, "Are you okay?" I guess she could see that I was not myself.
"I don't have time for this." I went to my room, slammed the door and put my head on it, slamming my head slowly. Thinking what an idiot I am.
"Shal, what is going on?" I heard Jesse ask.
"I don't know. Something bad though, I could hear Emma crying."
"Probably Tyler." Jesse said. It always goes back to him. I can't believe I am jealous of a dead guy. I grabbed a drink from my secret stash and downed a three shots of Jack Daniels. I had enough of that. I grabbed my jump rope from my closet and started doing jumping jacks. I think I was on my 20th one, when I heard knocking on my door and I knew who it was. "What do you want Shalimar?" I asked annoyed as I opened the door. I wanted to be left alone. Was that too much to ask?
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I just had a bad night." I said calmly. I could feel the effects of the alcohol now.
"Emma?" She asked as she made her way in and sat on my bed. I closed the door and stood in front of her.
"Yeah. I was just asking Emma if she knew how to get rid of this stupid connection between us. It is getting annoying."
"It never bothered you before, what has changed?"
"Tyler" I said bitterly grabbing the bottle from the nightstand and taking a drink. I motioned to Shal if she wanted a drink but shook her head.
"What did Emma say?"
"She has no clue." I said sitting down next to her.
"What about Adam?"
"Tomorrow." I said taking another drink.
"You mean today. It is four thirty in the morning." She said grabbing the bottle from my hand and putting it on the nightstand. She caressed my cheek and I could feel her breath getting closer to my face. I then felt something soft brush my lips. She was going to kiss me, but I couldn't let that happen as much as I wanted to forget the past hour. I pulled away and she looked at me confused.
"Sorry. I just thought I could help you forget about your problems for a while."
"I know. I'm fine really, Shal. Thanks for the talk."
"Anytime. " She said and sighed. "I wasn't going to bring this up but the dreams Emma is having...I hear her scream sometimes at night. I'm really worried, this isn't like her."
"Yeah I know. I hear her too. There is more to those dream then you know."
"What do you mean?"
"It is her subconscious manifesting her guilt about something." Her guilt is the fact that she loves me, but she is too caught up with Tyler.
"Something…?" Shal looked at me like she wanted to me to tell her, but I silently told her, no. "Okay, are you sure that is what they are?"
"The connection." She stated and I could have sworn I heard a little jealously in her voice. "How does that work between you guys anyways? I never really understood that."
"I don't know. I can feel if she is in danger or hurt and vice versa. When Lorna had me, Emma didn't tell anyone this, but she knew that I was dying when you and Adam found me. It scared her…." I needed to tell someone this secret, I wanted to tell Emma, but it would push her further away from me, not that she hasn't already. "Emma doesn't know this… but sometimes… I get pulled into her dreams…I know what they are doing to her."
"What are they doing to her?"
"Making her weak. She is using too much of her powers. They can only take so much, before they start taking its toll on her. Her mind is fragile." She has too much on her plate and I just added a whole crap load. What the hell was I thinking?!
"Must be tough, being pulled into that."
"Sometimes. I mean the connection is great at times, but most of the time it is pretty annoying. I need to get rid of it."
"Adam should know something."
"Yeah, I hope so." Shalimar started walking towards the door and I stopped her. "Don't tell Emma about-". I know she won't say anything about the dream, but the almost kiss was another question.
"It never happened." She smiled at me and I smiled back. "Get some sleep, you look like crap." She said as she closed the door behind her. The moment I hit my bed, I feel asleep. I was more tired than I thought I was.
I could hear Brennan yell at Shalimar and then slam his door, like he slammed mine. I broke down then. I couldn't stop the tears from falling. It felt like hours before I could calm down a bit. During my breakdown I heard Jesse and Shalimar mention me as well as Brennan. I then tuned them out after a while. I grabbed a lighter and decided I need to cleanse my room of all this bad energy and it usually helps me calm down. As I was lighting the candles and incenses, I heard a faint knock on the door. I knew who it was. He cared too much about me.
"Jesse, I'm fine. Sorry I woke you up." I said opening the door.
"It is scary how you do that." He smiled and I smiled back. "Are you sure?"
"Yeah. Thanks for checking up on me."
"Okay. Get some sleep." He kissed my cheek and walked away. I quietly closed my door and walked back to lighting. Why can't Brennan be like Jesse? He doesn't push and probe me. As I lit the last Incense, I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. The past hour came rushing back to me. I have never seen Brennan so angry and hurt before because of me. I hope he doesn't do anything stupid. He acts out, when he is upset and I'm usually the one who can calm him down, but not this time. He has to do this on his own. I opened my eyes and could not get myself to be calm. I need a drink. A strong drink. There is no place open at this time of day. I wish there was alcohol here, but it's forbidden. Except for beer and wine, but that is not what I needed right now. Adam's rule: 'No Strong Alcohol on the premise.' Brennan keeps the strong alcohol hidden in his room and usually I would go to him but-The Lab! I could mix- no-tasted like crap the last time. Brennan and I tried to make some when were really bored one day with everyone gone. I'm pissed and upset but not stupid.
Why did I have to provoke him? He was right I didn't like his answer. This is all too much.
"Do you know why I joined Mutant X?"
"It was you. I joined because of you."
He joined because of me? In the back of my mind, I knew I was the reason, but I didn't want to admit it because not everything was about me. I didn't want to feel like I was being self-absorbed.
"I couldn't get you out of my head."
"I needed to know that you were okay."
From the moment we met, something inside of me knew that he would always protect me. He would make sure I was safe. I never had that in my life before. Brennan changed that. I could not get him out of my head either. When Adam rescued me, I wanted to find Brennan and tell him about Adam, so we can join together.
"I'm sad…I'm Jealous…I feel guilty…. I am angry"
I don't know why I never picked up on his emotions. I always could before. I have been too caught up with Tyler to notice his feelings. I didn't feel it or maybe I didn't want to feel what Brennan was feeling. I felt it then though, anger clouded up all the other emotions.
"I am in love with you"
What does he know about love? He has a lot of relationships, all he knows is lust. This is probably lust, he is just lonely. He needs to be with someone, who is not me. But the thought of that made me sick.
"This is your fault!"
I didn't do anything to him. He is so-infuriating. He is just blaming me for his lack of a sex life. He should go out and fine some hot women and sleep with her. He will then know that he is not in love with me. He would get it out of his head about the fact that I am lying to myself about loving him. My dreams have nothing to do with him. His theory is wrong. I mean sure, Brennan is in the dreams, but it's cause he never liked Tyler and he wanted to ruin my relationship with him because he wanted me all to himself. If anything he is the one projecting his feelings to me with. That stupid connection of ours needs to go away. When Adam wakes up that is the first thing I am going to do, even if it hurts like hell. I went to my bathroom, opened the medicine cabinet and grabbed the sleep pills that I got from Adam a while back. I took two pills and as I lay back down, I could feel the pills taking affect.