Hey guys I'm so sorry that I am late it's just that I've been very busy I moved into another house and some other stuff plus with family getting together for thanksgiving it's just been very hectic around here im gonna try to get this up to date but remember I got two months left till I leave for boot camp just keep that in mind. Anyways I hope you guys like this next chapter.
Giving Into Temptation
I put the clothes on and all of the sudden I felt tired but extremely tired so I decided to go to Paul's room and laid down on the bed. As soon as I did I was out like a light. I never knew I could fall asleep this fast considering all the shit I've been through it's always been so hard for me to go to sleep so fast. I would always lose sleep or never get none at all but I've noticed that I have been sleeping pretty good these past couple of days. I wonder why?
I dreamed that I was at that waterfall again but in the daytime. It was still just as beautiful. I have never seen something so beautiful how the sun beaming down at that water making it glistened all around.
Then I was turned around by someone. It was Paul. He caressed my face looking into my eyes. I have never felt so at peace.
"I love you Skye." he said. "Marry me."
My heart froze in an instant. Did I just hear right? Before I could say anything he kissed me. It felt so real meaning the kiss the tenderness and the passion in all my life I have never experienced a kiss quite like this. And I know one thing I wanted more I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me.
"Skye." he said. My name flowed so naturally out of his mouth.
"Skye." he said again. For some reason I loved how he said my name I could never get enough of it.
"Skye." It sounded like an echo this time what's happening? Everything started shifting around and becoming blurry. What's going on? Everything was disappearing.
"Skye." Again like an echo as I looked all around looking for Paul.
"Skye." This time I opened my eyes and there was Paul mere inches from my face. It was a dream but then that's when I noticed that I had my arms wrapped around his neck like in the dream. Did he kiss me? But what I wanted to know was it dream Paul who asked me to marry him or real Paul?
"Do you always do stuff in your dreams or should I say while you sleep?" he asked as he smirked. Why the hell was he smirking? I plan on finding out.
"What do you mean?"
"Well I came in and I found you sleeping. I called out to you but you just wrapped your arms around me."
Damn that was embarrassing. That has never happened before. So why was I doing it now? Well one thing's for sure I got my answer to my other question it was dream Paul who asked me not real Paul. I knew it was too good to be true. Shit like that never happens to me.
"Sorry about that. First time that has ever happened to me before."
"It's ok. Anyway I brought your bag." he said sitting back up as I did the same.
"Was anyone there?"
"They were still there but Bella was in the shower so I told Jacob to keep quiet."
"So you wanna get ready now?"
"Ok then. I'll just get some clothes for me and I'll leave you to it."
He grabbed his clothes real quick and left the room closing the door. I looked through my bag seeing what I can wear. I took out a black short jean skirt the length was like mid thigh, a dark purple shirt that hugged my curves very well and showed my stomach, my knee high boots and my black midriff jean jacket. I got dressed and left my hair down I never wore any make up on I never needed to I looked better without it besides I always thought that you were hiding your true self behind it.
Once I was done I came out and saw Paul waiting for me in the living room. He was so fine like Bradley Cooper in Hangover before they got wasted. God black looked so good on him. Control yourself Skye get a grip on reality already what the hell is the matter with you? He turned to face me and he looked like he was seeing the light for the first time.
"Wow Skye. You look beautiful. Never seen you in a skirt before but your totally rocking it." he said looking up and down.
"Shall we go?" I nodded.
When I passed by him he smelled so good. Very good. Damn it I was losing focus here it was hard to concentrate on anything with him around. We got in the car and drove off. We had an early dinner and then we went to the movies. I told him let's go watch a horror movie that I love horror movies. He thought that was awesome that he never met a girl who loves horror movies before. We saw 'Insidious'. It was awesome I loved it great movie.
We came out and stood in front of the theater.
"Sam and Emily are getting married next weekend. Wanna be my date to the wedding?"
That was definitely something I wasn't expecting at all. He wanted me to go with him to Sam and Emily's wedding. Why? I never liked weddings always made me feel like that will never be me. You know how they always say always the bridesmaid but never the bride. Well it kinda it feels like that. Shit I never even attended one before and I don't know if I wanna go knowing it was Sam's wedding and all. Not exactly on his favorite list right now nor in mine. Dude pissed me off as it was bad enough I wanted to beat the living shit out of him.
"I don't know Paul. Going to weddings is not exactly my thing."
"Come on Skye it'll be fun I promise. Please for me?"
"I'll think about it. Don't hold your breath."
He smiled. Then a voice came that I thought I would never hear ever again in my life. Hell let alone be in the same state.
"Skye is that you?"
I turned around and came face to face with the one person I never wanted to see again. Viktor. The first guy I went out with the one who said I wasn't pretty anymore. In that moment I wanted nothing more than to fuck his ass up for making me feel like shit. But I knew I had to control my myself my anger. He was alone. I wondered what he was doing here.
He wore some jeans, a green shirt and a sweat jacket. He was short Paul was taller than him. Viktor had dirty blonde hair and green eyes. I had an idea and this idea was definitely gonna make me feel better.
"Well if it isn't Viktor. What are you doing here?"
"Just visiting family you know. Wow I c ant get over how beautiful you look."
"Now you think I'm beautiful? Took you long enough didn't it? Couple of years actually."
"I'm so sorry Skye I should've never said that to you or cheated on you."
"Well it's too late now. I'm not the same girl you once knew. I've changed. more than you know."
"I always thought about you but I didn't know how to get in touch with you. To tell you I love you and that I want you back."
My god how pathetic was he? Is he serious? Was he really begging me to get back with him? After all the shit he put me through does he really think I could just forgive and forget? He must be seriously delusional if he thought I was gonna get back together with him.
"Viktor stop please stop stop. You're embarrassing yourself it's pathetic stop." I said rolling my eyes.
""I'm serious Skye. I love you please I mean it."
"Oh please Viktor. Only reason you want me back is because you lost what you had before so now you're crawling back. It's sad really. Things didn't work out for you now you wanna go back to the past. sorry but you can't have your cake and eat it too. You don't love me you never did cause if you did you wouldn't have done what you did before."
That's when he noticed Paul.
"Who's he?" Paul spoke up next putting his hand around my waist pulling me closer to him.
"I'm her boyfriend not that it's any of your business."
Definitely did not see that coming. Hell even I did not know what we were we hadn't talked about it or put a label on it or anything.
"So that's it then? You're over me?"
I put my finger to my cheek acting like I was thinking.
"What does he have that I don't have?"
"Well for one he's a hell of a lot better built than you are and a better man than you'll ever be." I can't believe I just said that what has gotten over me recently? It's like something took over me. Then he spoke up again.
"And I at least appreciate her and tell her everyday how beautiful she is unlike you. She deserves it. She knows I will do anything for her with no questions asked."
"Oh really? Why is that?"
The next statement I was definitely not prepared for. The next statement was something I hadn't heard in years something I thought I would never hear in my life ever again. Paul looked at me with such devotion in his eyes and passion and honesty.
"Because I love her."
If it wasn't because he was holding me I probably would've fallen to the ground fainted. He said it so naturally without hesitation. Did I really hear that? Did I hear it correctly? Or was I dreaming? I never thought I hear those words again. But then again he could be saying that to get rid of Viktor…but then again something in my gut told me he really meant it that he wasn't putting on a show.
Why was it that a part of me wanted to say it back? But I didn't want to say it back I guess I was still afraid. Afraid to get hurt again afraid that if I do say it he will leave like the rest of them. Leaving me again with a broken heart. It made me wanna cry. But when he said that it made my heart skip a beat and it was beating deeply almost making it impossible to breathe. To be honest I didn't know what to say or how to say anything or react to anything like that.
He leaned in and gave me the most breath taking kiss he has ever given me and pulling me closer to him as if he couldn't get enough. When we pulled back I knew I had to something fast.
"Sorry Viktor but you lost your chance. You lost everything the day you decided to make me feel like shit and go after whores than make it with a good woman. That's 80/20 right there. 80% is all you need in a woman nothing more nothing less one who does everything for the other person but the 20% is a woman who would do everything wrong but you won't know that cause all you see is the trashy look she has and the only thing she knows what to do is run up your credit cards on shopping sprees. So good luck in the future cause I know luck is definitely on my side this time. So goodbye and I hope I never see you again."
And with that we turned around and left him hanging there.
"You don't know how long I wanted to say some shit like that to him. God it felt so good to get just get that off my chest."
"You did a great job standing up to him. I'm proud of you." He smiled at me. I love that smile of his.
He had yet to bring up the part where he said 'I love you' so I wasn't gonna bring it up either. Besides I wouldn't know how to bring it up. It's not like I can up and say 'so yeah did you really mean what you said when you said I love you or was it all bullshit?'. Yeah I don't think that would turn out so great.
"The night is still young what do you want to do now?"
I smirked. "Now we go and have a real party." I said. "Let's go buy some liquor and beer and get drunk."
"My kind of girl. Alright let's do it."
We went to the nearest store and bought 10 packs of beer and 6 bottles of Jack Daniels. And the didn't even card him considering since he looks more than 21. Then we went back to his house. We started drinking beer first putting some music on to have like a party feel to it. Then we had shots after shots after shots. Played video games even drunk I still beat his ass then some Call of Duty was that fun. Long after and by this time I was drinking from the bottle of Jack Daniels yes I was that drunk. Then a new song come on.
"I didn't know you had this album. I love this song."
It was Lil' Wayne 'Lollipop'. I put the bottle down on the table and grabbed Paul's hand.
"Dance with me."
My back was to his chest as he put his hands on my waist pulling me closer to him as I swayed my hips side to side grinding further into him. I heard him groan a couple of time of course my head grew knowing I had that power over him. I felt his breath on my skin it sent shivers down my spine. Then like my body took over I turned around took his face in my hands and kissed him. Things got hot and aggressive quick. Next thing I knew I was being pushed up against the wall Paul's hands feeling up and down my body. I couldn't get enough of him and I didn't know why.
What scared me the most was that I couldn't control it I couldn't control myself but I knew I had to snap out of it quick before I do something I might regret later or something. I pulled back.
"I'm so sorry I don't know what came over me."
We were both panting.
"It's ok. I understand it's too soon."
We let go of each other still out of breath still panting.
"Umm….I think I should go." I turned to leave when Paul grabbed my hand.
"Don't go. You don't have to leave. Stay here…with me. Just one more night. Cause come Monday I have school and I don't know how often I'll be able to see you and with patrol. But to be honest I don't know how long I'll be able to go without seeing you everyday. So please stay one more night with me. I promise nothing will happen. I just want to be with you."
I thought it was cute that he had school on Monday and that he was thinking about me. Wait a minute hold up rewind did I just say he's cute? My god what the hell is happening to me? How is it that I have spent forever making and being the person that I was before and now it took a matter of days to knock down the walls around my heart? I still didn't understand it. I was very confused though it would seem my heart spoke first than my mind. So I nodded.
"Ok I'll stay."
"Thank you. don't worry I'll take you home tomorrow." I nodded.
He grabbed my hand.
"Come on let's go to bed. Cause I have a feeling if we don't we're gonna have one massive hangover."
We started laughing. It was easy with him just like breathing I guess I kinda like this feeling. Like nothing in the world can ruin it and I wasn't about to let anyone ruin it for me or anything else for that matter cause I guess I'm starting to think that this is the real thing for me so I want to see what else happens now.
Sorry guys that I've been late on updating so busy you have no idea I'll try to do my best and keep updating for you guys cause you guys mean the world to me and it's you guys that make everything happen so I thank you your awesome. Oh and that part where Skye said that Viktor told her that she wasn't pretty anymore that actually happened to me so I thought I would put that in there make it more interesting. So anyways as always thank you guys. And sorry if this chapter was so short I was just trying to give you guys another chapter not to leave you hanging.
(Future Sailor Of The United States Navy)