Author's Note: My dear lovely readers, how I've missed you all! No, I have not abandoned this story! Truth be told, I had writer's block for my other story, which delayed updates, and then I dislocated my right arm and I had to wear a sling! It was NOT fun! I'm still going through physical therapy and it's still a bit rough to type, so I'm not sure how often I'll be able to update. But I figured it's been too long, so here's a new chapter!

Disclaimer: I do not own Parks and Recreation in any way; I'm just a simple fan.

Chapter Thirty Nine: Speculations

Chris smiled broadly at the sight of Ben and Leslie sharing their first dance as man and wife. He had never seen his best friend so happy; the normally austere and gruff man was practically bursting with joy. Leslie was simply glowing, her eyes solely fixed on Ben, and for a brief second Chris imagined that she was looking at HIM like that.

The thought shook him and Chris turned away in disgust. What was wrong with him? His gaze drifted through the throng of dancing bodies and loneliness washed through him. Being single at a wedding was not an enjoyable experience and Chris was eager to escape the crowds. He slipped out of the reception hall and wandered until he found a quiet, secluded room.

"Hey you," a voice said from behind him. Chris turned around to see Donna studying him from the doorway. She must have followed him and he could tell that she was trying to figure out why he was upset.

"Why hello," he greeted. He tried to smile but he knew that his features were strained and the corners of his mouth were tight with displeasure.

"So you left the party in a hurry," Donna said casually. Chris nodded but didn't say anything else. They sat in silence for a while before she eventually asked, "Boy, you are acing weird. What's wrong?"

"I'm…" The confession was on the tip of his tongue, but he pushed it down again.


"I'm happy for them," Chris stated firmly. "I wish them a lifetime of bliss. But I'm also jealous and I hate that I am." Guilt gnawed at him but he couldn't help it. Every time he saw Ben's grin, a flash of anger and sadness shot through hm. His best friend was moving on with his life while Chris was being left behind…it hurt.

"Why doesn't anyone look at me the way Leslie looks at Ben?" Chris had been in countless relationships with wonderful women and he had been in love, but he wanted more. He wanted to know how it felt to be someone's world, to be lost and found at the same time, to just know.

"Trust me, you'll find someone," Donna assured him.

"You think so?"

"I mean, you are one fine, sexy, hot as hell man," she said confidently, her eyes raking over his body. "Seriously, anytime, anywhere, I am good to go." Donna closed her eyes and inhaled sharply, then shook herself out of her reverie. "Plus, aside from your movie star good looks, you're also a smart, nice guy. Any girl would be lucky to have you."

The words were a soothing balm and Chris smiled in appreciation.

"But no one will want you while you're a whiny, emotional mess," she continued. "So come with me, get your drink on, and have fun." She held out her hand expectantly and Chris gaped at her for a moment before interlacing his fingers with hers.

Maybe one day.

This is similar to what happens in 5x06 "Ben's Parents", but I really wanted to do something with Chris observing Ben and Leslie's relationship. Haha I don't really know why. Plus, is it just me, or are Chris and Donna an awesome pair? I like their interactions. Thanks for reading! Please review!

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