So... here it is.
There will be a sequel. But... please don't hate me.
I care deeply for you all and I'm so happy that you all have stuck with me on this incredible journey. Thank you so much. Please, once you read this, tell me your thoughts. I'd love to hear them.
I disclaim all that isn't mine.
"For glory gives herself only to those who have always dreamed of her."
- Charles de Gaulle
The second Andy and Kyoya got to London, Andy had a few hours before the team's first practice. The two go into a cab and went to the hospital. Andy was told the room number and she sped into the elevator, Kyoya walking behind her. Andy went through the opening elevator doors the second she could fit and ran down the halls. She blots into the room, looking and seeing her mother sitting up in her bed, holding Hunny's bunny. Andy didn't see all the other's in the room. She didn't see the twins or their mom. She didn't see Tamaki or Haruhi, or Honey and Mori who finally got there. She didn't even see Fuyumi, who was there to surprise her and her brother. Her eyes locked onto her mom, who, the second Andy went into the room, stopped talking in the middle of her sentence.
"Momma," Andy says, feeling the tears come to her eyes.
Melissa holds out her arms, tears already falling down her cheeks. "Come here!"
Andy stepped forward, capturing her mother in a hug. "I missed you so much," she says, "I wish you were there every day. Every day I missed you. I love you so much!"
"I love you too," she replies, hugging her daughter tightly. She smiles up at her, letting her go and moving so Andy could sit on the bed with her. "I'm so proud of you!"
Andy smiles, and it was only then that she started to realize who was in the room. Kyoya was already in there. Andy was too focused on her mom to hear him enter. She stood and went around, hugging them all. No one in that room could understand how grateful and how happy Andy was that they were there... that they were there for her, of all people. She smiled, talking and laughing as she heard her mom tell her the stories of Hikaru and Kaoru running up and down the halls like they were track stars screaming 'goal'. Andy smiled, it felt so good to be back with this group, her family.
After a few hours, Andy announced she had to leave and go to practice. As she left the room and started to walk towards the elevator, the realization hit her hard. In four days days, sh'ed be playing for a gold medal... and no matter what, win or lose, she was leaving London with a medal. There was a sense of pride, in not only herself, but the team, that was settled in her heart.
2012 felt like it was her year. It was her year to become a new person... and it felt good.
Then, her and her teammates got to go into the Olympic village for the first time. It was odd. There were so many athletes who stopped Andy and told her that the goal was amazing and they can't wait to see her. People from swimming to Gymnastics... all of it. Andy even got to meet Misty May-Treanor and Kerri Walsh Jennings, two athletes she really looked up to. She even got their autograph! It was exciting! and she didn't have to pay for anything. If she wanted a bottle of water, she could take it. There was even a 's where she could get free anything (and she made sure to remember that in the morning when she woke up, she went by and come a caramel coffee). It was amazing, and she felt like all the people staying there understood the commitment it took to get here, how much you have to give up... it was an experience of a life time.
For the next three days, she juggled seeing her mom, and things she had to do to get ready. The team's strategy changed, since Shannon Boxx was now fit, so they had to shift it around. She had to remember the things she noticed when watching matches of the Japanese women's team. They're technical, they pass a lot, even if it's a little opening for it, they make it happen... but they don't attack with the fierceness the U.S. has. They were calm and patient when they play, which Andy and her teammates are not. Her and Abby especially. They attack hard and fast. Abby can overpower anyone while Andy can beat any of their defenders in a foot race. The only once she couldn't ever beat were two from her team, Heather O'Reilly and the 35 year old captain,Christie Rampone. The two of them combined, Andy and Abby, made for a lethal team, one that Japan didn't have. If that wasn't good enough, their midfielders, like Carli and Megan, can score too.
It was going to be a meeting of the perfect opposites.
On the last day before the game, Andy had a long talk with her Mom, who told her no matter what she'd be proud. Her mother smiled, "I'm just happy to know that you're an amazing person... you're such a fearless and strong woman. I see so much of your father in you," she says, smiling. "He is proud. I just know that no matter what happens after death, his soul will be with you tomorrow."
Andy wipes away some tears, "I'm such a blubbering mess lately."
"I'm sure everyone understands, Adeline," She says, "Now, go on. I'll see you after the game. Win or, heaven forbid, lose, I will always love you. I always have, and I always will, no matter what happens to me."
Andy nods, looking over at Kyoya, who was sitting in the chair, "Dinner?"
He nods. Andy left the room, and turned down the hall.
Kyoya looks over, "Is it...?"
Melissa shakes her head, "Don't worry. Go and enjoy yourself with her. Forget about all that I've put you through." She smiles sadly, a few more tears fall. "I'm so sorry for doing this to you... I just didn't know what to do."
"I helped you because I wanted to," He says, "My mother told me that you should never Apollinaire for letting someone help you, that everyone needs it once in a while. While I don't make it obvious, I do help others... there's no need to apologize."
Melissa smiles, looking at him, "I agree with that. Your mother sounds like a smart woman... maybe I'll meet her someday."
Kyoya didn't say anything to that... he didn't need to ask, he knew what she meant.
"I was apologizing for what will happen to you after I'm..." She stops, "Just please know... I don't mean for whatever to happen after I go... I didn't want it to happen." She reaches over and pats his hand, a big grin on her face, "And I think of you as family... and I know it doesn't mean much, but... well, to Adeline, what her father thought of anything she did or whoever she was with meant the world to her, and I know that Jonathan would feel the same about you too."
Kyoya smile a bit to himself. He knows exactly how much Andy's father means to her. He couldn't even count the times she's sat there with a barely passing exam or even a World Cup medal and ask 'do you think he's proud of me?' or 'I'm pretty sure Dad wouldn't have liked me doing that.' Kyoya looks up, "How do you know?"
Melissa smiles, "Because you make her happy, and her happiness above everything, is what he wanted."
Kyoya honestly didn't have the heart to tell her his thoughts. That Andy wasn't going to like him after all this. He modded, told her goodnight, and set off to try and catch up to Andy, who was already in the lobby of the hospital.
Andy was outside Kyoya's hotel room, pacing back and forth. She would go to knock, then stop herself, and then try again. Finally, she knocked, waiting for the door to open.
He opened the door, looking at her in her pregame training gear. She looked up and went to say something, but stopped.
Andy took a quick step forward, pulling him to her and kissed him. She didn't know what she was going to do that when she was outside the room, but she just needed him for a minute. It was the long, slow kind that just shares how innermost thoughts and feelings to the other was loving and gentle, and that's what Andy needed. She rests her head on his chest, "I just wanted to tell you I love you. That you're the best and I can't imagine my life without you, because even if I were to try, it scares me too much to even think of you not being there."
He hugs her, "I love you too."
She smiles, and turns. "I've got to go... I'll see you after the game."
He nods, "I'll be at the hospital with your mom."
She smiles, "Thank you."
Turning, she walks away. She left the pressure ease off her. It's not gone, but it was just enough to motivate her rather than smother her.
Andy has dreamt of this day her whole life. She's always wanted it... even as a child. An hour later, she was standing in the tunnel. The roar of the crowd was damn near defining as she stands. She held her pennant one hand and the child who stood next to her in the other. Before they walked out, the team was told that Wembely had 83,000 tickets sold... it was the most people to ever watch an Olympic women's soccer game. Andy let the nerves settle as she could feel the energy from her teammates.
Then it was time to hit the field. 'The Star Spangled Banner' sounded sweet, and Andy sung along as a camera went past, getting a close up of all the starting line ups. Then hand shakes and exchanging of pennants. A few moments later, Andy and Abby were standing. They had the ball first. Abby looked over at Andy and smiled, "You know, Kiddo, I wouldn't want to have anyone else up here beside me."
Andy smiled, trying to not let her emotions over runs. "Gosh Abby, no need to get all sappy!"
Then the whistle was blown, and Andy passed it to Abby, who passed it back to Carli in the midfield. Andy ran forward as their team starts on an attack. Andy took a shot, and the keeper went out and snatched it out the air. It was a long and hard back and forth U.S. was on the attack for most of it, but the fist second they made a mistake, the Japanese team had the ball and were trying for a goal of their own.
Thirty minutes in, Andy had the ball and let one rip from just outside the box. It soared into the net, and Andy was immediately swarmed by her teammates. Joy was written all over her sweat covered face as a room full of people about a few blocks away was cheering and screaming at the top of their lungs. Melissa Val just cried, watching her daughter in aw as they show a replay.
A few people complained, but the doctors didn't do anything. They understood how much it meant to the patient in the room. So they just let it slide for the day.
The thing about playing the Japanese, is that it was a clean game. No one was stomping on someone's head or sucker punching anyone else in the face. There were fouls, but that's just the nature of the game. In fact, the only 'injury' Andy got was from colliding with Abby as they both went for a ball that the keeper dropped. Abby's foot ended up in Andy's stomach, and after a second to take a breather, Andy was up. It was half time as they stood in their locker room, listening to Pia.
"We have had the ball for the most part, so if we keep up with that, and just tighten out passing, we'll be set," she says.
'Another goal would be great too', Andy thought to herself.
They stepped out onto the field, and, after a few moments, Carli Lloyd answered Andy's thoughts and headed a ball into the back of the net. After they celebrated the goal, it was only a mater of minutes before Japan finally go one of their own. As the final minutes started to whined down, there was a moment where Andy was scared they'd get another. Becky ran towards the player, forcing the Japanese striker to take a shot, Hope dove to the side, saving the ball from going in. The corner kick was easily defended, and, as the ball got to midfield, the whistle blew, signaling game over.
Andy honestly didn't know what to do with herself. She was so happy... no words could describe it. She saw as all of her friends jumped into each other's arms. Andy saw Abby get a flag from the crowd, put it around herself and run. As Andy went to her, she saw her go to her knees. When Andy got there, she saw Abby just sobbing tears of joy. Andy put a hand on her back, her own eyes tearing up, "Now you can be sappy!"
Abby laughs at that, as she jumped up and hugged Andy. "WE DID IT!"
Andy smiles, yelling too.
The room back at the hospital was louder that it ever was. Everyone was smiling, so happy. None happier than Melissa Val, as she watched her daughter with tired eyes. A smile was on her face as she wiped tears off her face.
Then the team were rushed into the locker room to prepare for the medal ceremony. Champagne was sprayed all over and a couple players had a beer, but Andy stayed away from that. They all showered, and most dyed their hair as they all put on these track suits. The jacket Andy loved. It had the team USA symbol on the left side of her chest, and the Nike check on the right, while on the left arm was an American flag. The back, the words 'The United States of America' were stitched in. The team even had matching black Nike shoes, everything given to them.
Finally, it was time. Canada won the bronze, and were called out first. Their names called out, and people clapped for them. Then the Japanese, and the same. As they waited, they lined up by number. Abby and Andy decided they didn't want to go by the numbers they had to take for the Olympics, so they were back to here they belong, at the back of the pack. Then they had all their normal members, Abby was number 20, and Andy 21. They liked being behind everyone else.
Finally, they were announced, and the crowed exploded, their voices louder than thunder. Once they were on the top podium, their named called individually. Andy waited patiently for 17 other names to be called before hers. When the voice called her name, everyone cheered, like they did for everyone else, but it was special, when it's you they're cheering for. She waves in front of her, and turns, waving behind her. There was something very humbling knowing that all of these people here bought tickets to see them. It didn't matter that it was a woman's team, they put on a damn good show this whole tournament, and beat all odds. They are the first woman's team to win the World Cup and then the goal directly after it. They cheered because they appreciated their hard work, because they love watching people who defy the odds.
Then, it was the time they wanted, and have waited for since they moment they got off their World Cup winning high. Andy couldn't tell you the woman's name who handed them their medals, but when it was placed on her neck, it was heavy. The purple ribbon had 'London 2012' on the sides... it was so pretty. Andy shook her hand, smiling. As they were giving out their small bouquet of flowers, Andy picked up her medal. She looked at it... it was huge! The glittering Greek Goddess of victory, Nike, stepping out of the depiction of the Parthenon was on one side. The detail was breath takingly stunning. The other side has the 2012 design, with a ribbon behind it, then there were all these crisscrossing lines and a square. It was pretty, too. Everything about it was pretty.
Then, Andy was handed some flowers. She shook the man's hand too, and smiled. There were pink, yellow and orange roses died off with another purple ribbon that said 'London 2012'. Then, she smiled as they all turned to watch the flags rise up, and the anthem begin again. Tears started down Andy's face once more as she sang along with her teammates, her comrades, her companions and friends. The national anthem never sounder more beautiful that it did in that moment to her.
After a few pictures were taken, they all started to get pulled off, asked questions and interviews. Andy was about to do one, when she felt her phone buzz in her pocket. She looked at it, it said that she had one text message and three missed calls. She flipped it open, and read. It was only one line of text, but it was the most painful thing she ever saw. Her emotions did a 180 as she looked over. Hope was standing next to her, and saw her face changed. Andy handed her the phone as she let the words sink in.
"Go," Hope said, looking her in the eyes. "I'll explain it, just go."
She didn't need to be told again. Leaving her phone and flowers with Hope, she turned. Andy sped off, into the tunnel and going around in what seemed like a maze. Her heart pounding harder than it ever had as she run. Her muscles ache, but she kept going. She leaves through an emergency exit. She didn't want to believe it, she didn't want it to be true, but she had to get there and see for herself. She dodges past people, into traffic and nearly got hit. As the man stopped to scream cuss words at her, she kept going. Her heart wanting to give out on her as she finally gets to the hospital.
Once up to the floor, she saw all of her friends faces outside the door. They looked sad, and some were even crying. Andy's heart drops into her stomach as she opens the door, and shuts it behind her. She saw Hope on the television, her voice echoing.
"Where is Andy Val," The reporter asked, his tone slightly disgusted at the fact she left.
Hope frowns, "She left... her mother is passing away as we speak, and she went to go and see her."
"Oh," He says.
"Yeah." She says, "'oh' as in, you wish you didn't use that tone, huh?"
The T.V. turns off, and Andy looks at her mom.
She was pale, and her eyes were struggling to look at her daughter. Andy walked over, sat by her and took her hand in her own. "Momma..."
Her mother smiled sadly, "I don't have much time... let me talk."
Andy nods, holding her hand gently.
"A few months after we got here, I was diagnosed with stage four liver cancer," she says. Her eyes were looking directly into Andy's. "There was nothing they could do... I have tumors all over. It was a lost cause. I chose to live my life quality first. I didn't know what to do... I was alone and I didn't want to tell you because I wanted you to go after your dream. I know you disagree with me on that... but I would die a guilty death knowing I kept you from this."
"Why didn't you fight it," Andy asks, her voice cracking as she tries to keep tears from falling. Deep inside, she could feel her heart crack slowly. It was like torture.
Melissa ignores this,"But I still needed help." She looks to her lap, tears coming to her eyes, "So I told Kyoya. I called him in a frantic mess, not knowing what to do. He helped me. He got it so that I'd have what I needed to do whatever I chose. I told him not to tell you, to keep it from you, and the only reason he did was because he loves you, Adeline, please don't forget that. He just did what I asked him to do, so if after this, you want to be mad at someone, be mad at me." Tears fall from her eyes as she shakes her head, "I had to watch everyday as the guilt grew inside him... he won't admit it to me, but it was breaking him, not being able to tell you. Please remember that..."
"Momma... please," Andy says, her tears starting to hit the blanket.
"I love you. Trying to fight wouldn't have guaranteed me anything but a week or so more. I didn't want to be sick the entire time, please tell me you understand... I didn't want to be miserable." She cries, "I didn't want you to have to take care of me instead of doing what you love."
Andy was silent as her mom smiles at her, "Adeline... I know not being able to say goodbye to your father hurt you so bad... so I wanted you here."
"It's not goodbye," Andy says, "It's never goodbye!"
Her mom smiles, "I love you, so much... I'm so proud of you."
"I love you too," Andy says, holding her hand with both of hers. "Mom, please, don't leave me... I... I just got you back, please don't go," she begs.
"I'm sorry," she says. "I love you," her voice was small, and low. Andy held her hand as she watched the life leave her eyes. A deep, hallow feeling filled Andy. Tears ran freely as she held her mothers hand, "Come back... please come back... no..."
She sat there for ten minutes, just staring at her mom. Her brain trying to process what she just went through. As her heart shattered into a million pieces, she stood, and her defenses started going up. Andy grit her death as her hands balled into fists. It was like she had tunnel vision... or none at all. Like she couldn't control herself as she yanked open the door and left the room. She ignored all the sad looks and ones of pity as her eyes found the one she was looking for.
"Lies and secrets, Tessa, they are like a cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind."
― Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince
"You knew," her voice says. It was a shaky whisper.
Kyoya closed his eyes, preparing himself for this... or trying to. "Yes," He says, looking down at the ground. He couldn't bare to look her in the eyes.
Andy glared. Her voice was no longer a whisper, it was now loud and angry, "And you didn't tell me?! Every time I asked, all you ever fucking told me was that she was going to be ok!"
"I know," He says, looking at her finally.
Everyone was looking at them, not knowing what to do.
"Don't you fucking think I deserved to know," Andy asks, screaming at the top of her lungs. "To know my mother was dying a slow and painful death? How could you do this to me? How could you not tell me?!"
"Adeline," He starts.
"No," She says, "Don't you even dare try to justify what you did!"
"She wanted you to compete... to do this," He says, his tone even, but anyone who knew him could tell he was trying so very hard to keep himself together.
"For what," Andy asks, holding up the medal, "For this?! It compares NOTHING to her! I'd rather have her! I would have given up everything for her!"
"Which is exactly what she didn't want you to do," He says, looking up at her, and finally, into her eyes.
"You both had no damn right to make that decision for me," She says, "To hide this from me... to lie to me!" Her fists were shaking in anger.
"Kyoya didn't want to lie to you," Tamaki says, gently.
Andy glared at him, "But that doesn't excuse the fact that he fucking did! This isn't something small like where he was, we're talking about my mother's fucking life, and he," Andy stops, for a brief moment, sadness overcame her anger as she looked into Kyoya's eyes. Her voice was soft and fragile, "You lied to me..."
"I'm sorry," He says, closing his eyes, "I've never felt more sorry in my life... I've never felt more guilty..."
Andy's anger was back, "Sorry?! For what, the fact that you lied or the fact that it was about my mother's death?!"
"About all of it," He says.
A doctor comes over, "Excuse me..."
Andy turns, looking at her.
"We... we need to know where she's being buried," she says.
Andy took the papers, and quickly filled them out. She had to try hard to make sure her handwriting was legible. Her anger grew and grew as the silence over came the room. Andy fills it out, handing it to the woman. She then just starts to walk away. Her thoughts were consuming her as she punched the elevator button. The doors were about to shut when a hand stops them from closing, and Kyoya steps into the elevator.
"You're the last person I want to fucking see right now," she says, not even trying to keep the poison out of her voice.
"I know," He says, "I don't want you to do something reckless..."
"Why? What do I have now," she asks, "I'm a fucking orphan! I have no one left! I don't even know if I can count on you anymore!" She says as angry tears come down her face. The doors open and she runs out the doors, with him in close pursuit "I can't deal with the fact you lied to me... for months! I just can't do it right now, I don't to! I just want everything to go back to the way it was," She says. "I love you so much, Kyoya, it scares me! and then you lie to me about something like this?!"
"I never wanted to," He says, trying to keep his temper. He's not really angry... not at her. "Everyday I had to look at you, it hurt knowing I was doing this to you. It was wrong, I won't deny that! She didn't want you to feel sorry for her, she didn't want you to baby her and protect her!"
Andy glares, "I don't-"
"Yes, you do," He yells, "It's what you've always done! She wanted you to be happy, and she didn't want you to look at her with pity every time if you knew, which is exactly what you fucking did the moment you saw her in Japan, and the moment you saw her as you opened the door!"
"I'd rather be pitied at that fucking lied to," Andy yells. "I don't even know if I can trust you anymore!" Andy stops, her anger growing more and more as it bubbles out of control. "How do I even know if any of it was real at all? Was all of it a lie?! Was I just being used the entire time?"
Kyoya looks at her. His anger hid from her what he was really feeling. Those word hurt, his heart shattering, just like hers did earlier. "How could you even ask that?! I would never lie about that Adeline!"
"How am I suppose to fucking know if you did or didn't," she says, "I can't even tell anymore!"
Kyoya says something that, for the rest of his life, he wish he never did it. When he get's upset, he was just like Andy. He get's angry, and he goes out to hurt someone.
"Can't tell, or never believed in the first place?!"
Andy stops. She looks up, seeing him go from anger to regret. Blinking, tears fall from her eyes, and she looked at him, "What... what did you say?"
"Adeline, I didn't mean it," He says, he says, his voice desperate. He waned to take those words back, but he knew he couldn't. The look on her face... i anyone else made her look like that, he'd murder them, but the fact that he did it to her... he couldn't live with that.
She shakes her head, "How... why..." Her voice cracks, her lip quivering as she tries so hard not to cry even more.
"I'm sorry," He says, not knowing what else to say.
"There's nothing in this world I love more that you... nothing I believe in more than us... and you changed that for me." she says. "How could you question that?"
"I don't, Adeline, please-"
"No," she says, "No... I can't handle this right now... I can't do this. I won't." She backs away, her and pain clear in her eyes. Her mother's death, and know this? She didn't want any of this. "Don't follow me."
"Adeline," He says, taking a step towards her.
"I said don't," She says, "Please... if you still do care... leave me alone. I can't deal with all this right now. I need to be alone... I need to start preparing to go home. If you love me, just please understand I can't do this right now."
It was the hardest moment in Kyoya's life as she stood there and watched her walk away. Tears ran down his faces as she walked away. He wanted to chase after her, but the last few sentences she said rang in his head and he couldn't make his feet move to go get her. He watched as she walked and joined a crowed. He stood there until the moment he couldn't see her anymore and wondered if this could be fixed... if they could be fixed. He truly didn't know, and that scared him, because there is nothing in the world he wanted more than her, and to know she's happy. He thought back to what she said to him earlier that day.
'I just wanted to tell you I love you. That you're the best and I can't imagine my life without you, because even if I were to try, it scares me too much to even think of you not being there.'
He realized in that moments that he, too, couldn't imagine not meeting her. He couldn't imagine his future without her, and now, it seemed like a strong possibility that he may just have to live without her... and that thought hurt him deep down.
Andy walked, being ignored by everyone as she slid down the wall of a building, and just breaks down and cries. She attempts to put together her shattered heart, only to keep failing over and over again.
Please share your thoughts. And thank you all, and I'm sorry for the tears your cried if there were any. I adore all of you and I'm glad you all were here to hear the first part of the story of Andy. Thank you so much. Please tell me how you feel about this. Don't censor your feeling, let it all out, because I'm a blubbering mess, crying so hard. Thank you again. I know I say it a thousand times, but still, once more won't hurt.