Hey guys. Sorry long time no post. I've been really busy.. so if you wanna hear the sob story stay and read, if not, send hate or whatever.

I've had issues with my body for as long as I can remember. I know I know. You all know I model and do pageants so you probably think she must have all the confidence in the world. Yeah… well no. I've been self harming since 5th grade and then when I transferred into public school in 7th grade, I became anorexic. Not that bad at first but it got worse after I was bullyed and harassed. At my lowest I was 98lbs. Then at the beginning of 8th grade (my grade now) I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder. Yeah I know. That's a lot for a girl with confidence. Truth is, I have absolutely none. I hate what I see in the mirror every day. But when I get into "pageant mode" I don't feel like myself. Fake tan, fake nails, fake hair, fake me. I get to feel like someone else and that someone else has all the confidence in the world.

Things are getting better for me now, slowly but surely. Not sure when I'll be posting again but whatever.

Well anyway that's my story in a nutshell. Feel free to send hate or whatever.

If anyone ever needs to talk my twitter is twitter . com/ScarredNtBroken and I always answer.

K, thanks for reading