I realize this has taken a REALLY long time to update, but to be honest, I forgot I never finished it. I don't know if this will be the last chapter, but I don't think it will be. I appreciate all of you who have supported me and would love reviews! Thanks, you guys! I love you! Nicole, xoxo
"Hey, Will!" I called as I walked in the door to see him looking through the yearbook.
"Hey" Will called back smiling. "So what went on? Is everything okay?" he asked, staring at the two of us, putting the book down.
"It was just Noah's sister. She is the sweetest little girl you'll ever meet. She was sick and his mom worked, so he had some trouble taking care of her, that's all. She's feeling better now, though." I smiled. Noah laughed at my love for Katie.
We sat down in my room and just talked to each other. It didn't matter what about, just the fact that we were communicating and spending time together was all that we needed.
"Where do you think you wanna end up?" I asked, playing with his fingers as we cuddled together on my bed, both sitting against the wall.
"You mean like...a job?" he seemed nervous.
"Well, yeah. A job, a career." I clarified.
"I-I don't really know." he said as I curled myself into him and intertwined our fingers. I could see the look of defeat on his face. That killed me.
"It's okay." I said sincerely, kissing his jawline. A small smile appeared on his face, but it didn't last. "Don't feel bad, please." I whispered, again kissing his jawline.
He turned to smile at me and kissed my lips for a minute.
"I just don't want you to think any less of me. That I ain't good enough" That killed me, too. I felt the same way. I even confessed that reality to Mr. Schue.
"Never, Noah. I promise. Even with all that went on between us, I never stopped loving you, regardless of what you did, and I promise that I never will. I love you." I was absolutely serious and he understood, kissing my head.
"Thank you. It's all I ever really wanted. Someone to actually give a damn. I love you too, Nicole." I smiled, and hugged tightly to his chest.
"I never want to let go of you." I sniffled into him. He stopped for a moment, realizing the seriousness and honesty in my voice.
"You don't have to. Ever. I promise." I squeezed him tighter, and he squeezed back, too. He kissed my head repeatedly and stroked my hair. My eyes soon grew tired, but I wouldn't tell him that. I fought the slumber to stay up with him. After a few moments, I took his hand and pressed each of his fingertips to my lips, very softly. I tried to do everything to keep myself awake against his chest, but it was no use. I assumed he felt me tense because he rubbed my back soothingly and kissed my head another time.
"I love you" I whispered.
"I love you, too" I could feel his smile instantly and knew he wouldn't be angry if I slept. I closed my eyes and let sleep overcome me.
I woke up in Noah's arms, right where I dozed off. It was a miracle. Will was in the doorway, just watching. He seemed embarrased when I turned to see him, but I stopped him before he could walk away. I got up, careful not to wake Noah, and hugged Will quickly.
"Good morning!" I said cheerfully, but quietly.
"Sorry, I was just - " I just laughed as he tried to develop a reason.
"Will, calm down! It's okay! I'm just happy you didn't pull me off of him and throw him on the floor!" I laughed quietly, watching him grow less tense.
He laughed uneasily, then seeing my expression and watching Noah shuffle in his sleep for the sudden absence, he eased up.
"It's early, still. Go back to him." Will smiled.
"Are you sure? You don't mind? I don't mind staying up." I felt guilty leaving him up alone knowing I was going to have to leave home sooner or later.
"No, no. Go back to sleep. If you want, I can wake you up later or I'll let you sleep. Just go to sleep. He's throwing a fit over there!" Will laughed as Noah reached groggily for me and tossed uneasily. I kissed Will's cheek and gave him a quick hug before retreating back to the bed. I crawled carefully into Noah's arms and once again he was content and squeezed me against him. I was happy. I could feel Will's gaze still upon us, but I let it go and nuzzled my face into Noah's neck.
"I love you" I whispered into Noah's neck. I knew he couldn't possibly hear me, but I still needed to say it.
After what was probably 3 hours or so of laying in his arms, I felt him stir and he awakened. After a minute of trying to orient himself with his surroundings, he stared at me shocked.
"What? What's wrong?" I asked alarmed.
"Nothing - it's just...I'm not kicked out on the streets or beaten bloody in a corner and you're still in my arms!" he started out dramatically, then the mood lightened. I huffed and turned away, annoyed he scared me so badly.
"Hey" he smiled, kissing my cheek. "I'm sorry." he giggled. Finally I gave up.
"Good morning, Noah" I laughed. "You're forgiven." he kissed my neck and I smiled. Suddenly, I remembered Will and unwrapped myself from Noah's strong grip although he was unwilling to let me go. He tugged at my arm, reluctant to let me leave without explanation, but I shook him off and signaled him to be quiet.
Will was walking towards the kitchen, and I tip-toed behind him before bounding onto his back. I held tightly to his neck and wrapped my legs around him.
He gasped for a minute, then collected what was happening and held my legs and started to walk.
"You're lucky you're not Noah or you'd be on the floor within half a second." I laughed. I scoped the room and found Noah leaning against a wall, smiling like a madman.
"Aww, I think he wants a piggy-back ride, too!"
"We can't always get what we want. He's not getting one. I swear, between the two of you, you're trying to kill me." he joked as he began to set me down on my feet again.
"I love you, Will!" I said innocently as I hugged him.
"Yeah, yeah. I hear you." he rolled his eyes.
"I love you, too, Pops." Noah laughed walking over for a hug, too.
"Sure thing, you guys." Will smiled. "What do you want to eat?" he questioned.
I thought for a moment and Noah stared at me, not even trying to hide the smirk on his face.
"Omelet?" I checked with Noah and Will.
"How about you Noah?" Will asked sweetly. We got him into a very good mood.
"I'll have what she's having. I've never really had a family breakfast and I could care less what I eat. Thanks, dude." Will looked at him so maturely until the "dude". You had to give him credit, though.
"Alright. I'll call you when it's ready." he smiled, heading to the kitchen. Noah instantly took me in his arms. I knew Will would be watching as he cooked, afraid to lose us. It was obvious he was scared. I was scared too. I didn't want to have to say goodbye to the person who had taken care of me willingly, regardless that he was my teacher. He put up with a lot from me - I mean a lot - and it felt so wrong leaving him behind. My eyes started to water, and I dismissed the thoughts. I'd cross that tear-covered bridge when I came to it.
"You okay?" Noah asked against my neck. I simply nodded, afraid my voice would show my true feelings.
"Okay, you guys!" Will called happily after a few quiet moments. Noah let go and headed to the table, obviously hungry. I just laughed, trailing behind. By the time I got to the table, Noah had half his food in his mouth and was trying to force it down with a glass of water, hoping to shove more in. Will stared in awe. I ate at a quicker pace than usual, but not as fast as him. Will sat down with a cup of coffee and watched as Noah placed his dish in the dishwasher.
"Thanks, Will." he sat down casually as we stared at him.
"He must've hated that, Will." I laughed as I continued eating.
"I bet" Will laughed as well, shaking his head in amazement.
Noah played with his phone as I finished eating, and Will was again inadvertently staring at us. I smiled to myself, but also died a little inside. After putting my dish in the dishwasher, I sat at the table and watched the two of them.
"Thanks, Will." I said after a long silence. "That was really good"
"You're definitely welcome. Really, it was nothing. You kids are happy with anything." he laughed quietly. My heart dropped dramatically.
After another long silence, Noah spoke.
"Do you mind if I head home to check on my sister? I know my mom would've called me if something was wrong, but I still wanna see her." It was hard to believe he felt he needed permission to go.
"Absolutely. Take all of the time you need." I smiled.
"You wanna come with? I know how much you love Katie." he grinned brightly.
"That's okay, Noah. I think I'll enjoy the quality time with Will. But thank you." I bit my lip at first, but realized that was what I truly needed. Will stared at me in complete shock as if I had just sacrificed something entirely huge just for him.
"Are you sure?" Will asked cautiously. I stared into his eyes for a longing moment, disregarding Noah's gaze that fell upon me. Will's eyes were so joyed at this decision, but it was obvious he tried to hide it in front of Noah, and of course if I changed my mind.
"Y-yes, definitely. Thanks, again, Noah. Tell her I was thinking of her, though." I finally said, remembering I was asked a question.
"Yeah, s-sure." Noah smiled and walked over to peck my lips and cheek, then I stood up to hug him.
"Noah...thank you." I whispered softly - barely audible. I knew he was smiling before I pulled back. "I love you. Drive safe." I said squeezing his hand. As I took my seat, he made his way to Will.
"Sir, -" Noah started like a gentleman, but was cut off by Will's embrace.
"You're a good kid, Noah." I heard him say. He said something else that made Noah glance at me, but I couldn't make it out. Will eventually let him go, and Noah headed out the door.
I stared at Will for a long, long moment, just as he stared at me. It wasn't long before my eyes watered with each passing second. I swallowed hard and tried to collect my thoughts, but it was all too much for me to gather.
"Will..." I started, but by the time the name escaped from my lips, the tears started. I stood up and he did the same. I simply collapsed into his grip as we both let the tears flow. I gripped his back tightly as he did mine.
"I-I..I just-" he couldn't complete a sentence as he struggled for more breath to cry. It only made me want to cry more.
"I don't - I can't leave, Will." I breathed into his shoulder. I shuddered at the fact that I had just told him one of the most truthful statements regarding my feelings. He stopped for a moment - paused in shock. He held my racketing body and led me to the couch where I again sobbed endlessly into him.
"Shh, shh" was all he could whisper to me in fear his voice would break. He still continued to cry, but did all he could to comfort me. My gut dropped imagining Noah walking in on such a sight, but I knew I had time and I wasn't going to waste it. I took deep breaths and did what I could to compose myself.
"Will...Will, thank you. J-Just thank you for everything. I wouldn't be here today without you. I love you so much." I said honestly, staring deep into his tear-filled eyes.
"I did what was right and I haven't regretted it since. You've made life crazy, but interesting. I wouldn't change a thing. I love you, too, really. You're truly like a daughter to me. Thank you." I hugged him tightly and wiped at my eyes. I felt my leg vibrate, but I refused to let go of Will. I knew at that moment we were both so content and felt the same about everything that I wasn't going to ruin it. I was better than that. I knew it was probably Noah anyway.
"As much as I hate to say this you've got to...well you're gonna have to, uh, - leave." he swallowed hard and I could already see the anxiety. His face was both pain and fear-stricken for a brief moment before he regrouped to hide his true feelings.
"I know, I-I know. Just...I'm not ready. Not yet, anyway. I still need time to part. I hope the glee kids don't leave yet, either. I still need them here. I've never been good with goodbyes, but I'm going to do my best. I need to do this right for once." Will knew very well how I felt about leaving, but something else seemed to touch him.
"That song, that song you sang...'Get It Right'. That was entirely eye-opening for me and now I see those same feelings reappearing. You're not going to ruin your goodbyes or whatever it is you believe won't go right. You don't give yourself enough credit. No one's perfect." I glanced down at how powerful his words were. I couldn't admit how right he was. I simply nodded, still staring down, and his hand touched my shoulder. Just as I looked up to stare into his saddened eyes, I heard a slight knock and then the creak of the door.
I reluctantly turned to see Noah who seemed very cautious.
"Hey, how's Katie?" I asked sweetly, but obviously guarded. I could feel Will's eyes still on me and I knew they wouldn't leave until he was directly addressed.
"She's great. She missed you, though." he smiled, laughing at the memory of his previous encounter with his sister.
"Aww, I'm glad" I smiled weakly.
After a silence, Noah took a seat next to me on the couch and watched as Will's eyes studied my movements. He leaned back and seemed to think intently.
There I was - caught between two men I loved more than anything - and entrapped by time that refused to slow down so goodbyes didn't come as fast.
I wasn't ready. But would I ever really be ready for this type of thing?