Disclaimer: I do not own Peacemaker Kurogane or any of its related characters or themes.

AN: Obviously, some OC-ness ahead... so, be warned! Oh, and a one-sided crush, SoujixTetsu. Slight AU (takes place 5 years after the last episode)


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I walked down the street of Kyoto, heading towards the Shinsengumi headquaters

I had charged headfirst into battle. I couldn't make myself wait for the Commander's orders. I emerged from the battle with only a few grazes and a cut on my shoulder. I was so disappointed… if I had lost the battle... I could've joined my brothers in the next world, and, that way, I wouldn't have to deal with this right now.

But I won. Like I always do. And now I'm stuck in this limbo. It's true... we do create our own personal hell.

I sat down in front of Mr. Hijikata, hands on my lap and my head down. I told him of my intention to leave the Shinsengumi soon. His eyes narrowed darkly as he asked why.

I smiled as I told him a lie. He didn't need to know the real reason. Especially not when the true reason was sitting just outside the door, listening in on our conversation. He was never good at following orders either... I'll miss his smile... his cheery greetings every morning...

I sighed as I signed my resignation letter. I didn't intend on a formal farewell in front of everyone. Especially not with Tetsu there...

It was hard enough as it were. I didn't want to leave him behind. I didn't want to say goodbye. I didn't want to be alone…

But this? This never-ending wait?

It's worse than loneliness.

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