A.N. I was in a mood this morning, this is what came of it. Spoilers for 2 x 21 All hell breaks loose, thanks as always for reading.

Disclaimer: Not mine

Why am I crying? There are tears wet on my face, pooling in my eyes again...and they are so useless. They aren't like Fawkes tears, they don't bring anything back to life. A Harry Potter reference, Sam would have been so proud...I really need to find Sam...

What's tickling my nose? Brown long, wet strands of hair, brushing up against my face. Man I really needed to convince Sam to get a haircut, stuff is getting super shaggy and it gets in his eyes in a hunt. I wonder where Sam is...

Why is there blood on my hands? Some of it is dried and turning a brown looking color, some of it is bright red. What is is doing there? Whose is it? It's going to be a pain in the ass to get it out from under my fingernails now that's it's dried...I wish Sam was here...

Who is grabbing my arm? Shaking it and saying something, something important, I don't know I can't really hear it. Bobby? What Bobby? Move what? Go where? I don't understand, can't he tell Sam all this...

When did we get in the car? My hands feel weird not gripping the steering wheel. I must be tired, yeah that's it, or hurt, that is the only way I ever let him drive my baby... Why do your eyes look so upset? What am I holding in my arms? Sam when did you get so old?

Why is he still sleeping? He's always liked his rest, but this is pushing it even for him. And sleeping in his clothes, he's never been that lazy unless he is hurt. Is he hurt? Why is he so pale? Why isn't he moving? When did this happen?

Sam wake up! This isn't funny, dammit wake up! Who the hell said you could go and die on me? What sense does that make Sam? You know I'll never make it on my own. Why are you so cold? Why don't you answer me? Who is trying to hold me from behind? Telling me lies like 'It's okay son'. If you're not here Sam, why am I still alive?

A.W. Depressing, yes. Be on the lookout for fluff from me later today.