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The next morning I woke up with a throbbing head. Lizard was still in bed with me and that in itself was enough to tell me it was way to early to be up. I slipped out of bed slowly and walked to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet wondering how I ended up here, but then I remembered that those were memories better left alone. After flushing the toilet and washing my hands, I decided to look into the mirror.
The gasp that passed my lips was muted to my ears; I only saw my lips move. I winced as I touch the deep purplish/black bruise that was on my left cheek. I poked at it a few more times not wanting to believe it was there. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath but when I opened them the bruise that decorated my entire cheek was still there and taunting me. The fact that I had bags and dark circles under my eyes didn't help my looks either. Not to mention that I was a deathly pale color.
My eyes stung with tears as I realized I looked just like I did when I was in the mines...spinning, everything was spinning….my legs feel so heavy…flashes of the monsters in the mines ran through my head. I could see the one that's skin was hard and disguised as a rock…. their leader throwing me onto a table in his room and holding me down…every painful thrust in and out. The blood….so much blood….and then I threw up and tears began to fall down my face. I shouldn't have remembered...the beatings the rape. I wanted to forget but here I was remembering.
I stood up and ran. I ran back to the room; back to Lizard who was still sleeping in his peaceful sick dreamland. I shook him my salty tears falling into his face and my wails becoming louder. I kept shaking even after those cold blue eyes looked snapped open. I shook him and begged "Make it go away. Hold me…hold me."
"Wha's wrong wit' ya?"
But I just continued crying. I could handle everyone here. The way they looked, the way they talked and acted, and what they did. Back in the mines though, it was a different story. They were monsters who made me puke on sight. They were animals who ravaged me until they had their fill for the day. They were disgusting horrific monsters who scared me to the bone.
"Calm down bitch! Wha's wrong wit' ya?" he repeated.
"Them. The monsters," was all I could reply.
"Ain't no monstas. Wha' ya talkin' bout," he inquired, but I only continued to cry and hold onto him and I begged him to make it go away again, while he growled out "Yar' fuckin' weird. Stop yar blubberin'; its pathetic an' gross."
I was surprised however whenever I felt his arms snake around my waist and pull me on top of him. He began to rub circles into my back and draw patterns of nothing, until my cries calmed down. But we stayed like that, even after I calmed. He just held me there and mumbled "Yar safe wit' me."
My eyes began to droop and I could feel his breathing evening out. And I listened to the steady heartbeat coming from deep in his chest. Sure he was a murderer and a cannibal, but right now in this place of broken dreams he was all I had. He was what I needed to survive here. When my life was falling apart and I'd always turn to someone I knew would be there, but he was all I had. I was afraid of him yes, but I was safer with him than anywhere else her. With that thought I fell asleep.
When I woke I was by myself of course, but the bed still held faint warmth on Lizard's side of the bed. I quickly got dressed an ran into the kitchen. Everyone was there already and happily eating human (gag). I walked over and sat between Lizard and Mercury. Mercury who was on my left poked my cheek and when I flinched her sad little deformed eyes began to water.
"It's okay Mercury. It just hurts a little but it's all good. I'm fine really."
"Did muh brotha do it?"
I looked into her round eyes and was about to say yes, but then I realized no matter how cruel he was and no matter how dysfunctional this family was, Lizard was still her brother. And no 6 year old little girl wanted to hear the worst about her brother no matter what else she's seen and heard. It was her sniffles that brought me out of my thoughts and I realized everyone was watching me waiting to see what I'd say.
With my mind made up I looked at her and gave a fake giggle followed by a smile and said, "Mercury, being around me you'll learn I'm a klutz. Lizard didn't do this. Last night I woke up and went to the bathroom but it was so dark and I couldn't see a thing. I tripped over the rug and my cheek hit the tub. I think. I'm not sure if it was the tub."
Her wide eyes continued to water but her sniffles died down, "Why did I hear crying last night then?"
"Well that because it hurt really bad and I ran into Lizard's room crying a lot. That's why. I didn't realized it had bruised until this morning," I said with the fake smile plastered onto my face.
With this information she seemed satisfied and her crying stopped. She continued to eat as did everyone else. I looked down at the plate Big Mama had already set onto the table waiting for me and was about to dig in when I felt a light squeeze on my right leg under the table. I looked over at Lizard who was gulping down his eggs, "ham", "sausage", and bread; all the while keeping his hand on my leg. He looked over finally and winked at me before continuing to eat. I looked back down at my plate suddenly very hungry again and ate like an animal that had been starving.
After eating I helped Big Mama clean the dishes, while the men went out, and ruby went with the children to the nursery. I was drying a plate when Big Mama decided to break the silence.
"I can talk ta Liza'd for ya," she said with a genuine smile. A smile I almost dropped the plate from.
"What do ya mean," I asked, not realizing I had said ya instead of you.
"Well wha' I'm sayin' is…" she cleared her throat and began to speak again, "I know where you are from you fall in love wit someone and marry them. They don't just have you give them babies. I can ask him to try to court you."
"Close your mouth flies with fly in. I'm saying I can maybe get him to try to woo you. He may become a bit gentler with you and maybe you can learn to tolerate him enough to have his kids. I wanna give you some kind of chance Violet. Sound good?
My mind was whirling with so many thoughts, but him being gentler more would be nice, and this might be kind of funny to watch him try to "woo" me. I smiled. "Alright, sounds like a plan."
Latter that day I left the nursery to take some time to myself. Ruby had told me if I wantedto there were some books in her room I could read. I found it amazing that she still had them even if she couldn't read, but if it made her happy, so what.
I leaned against the headboard of Lizard's bed and began to read a book called "The wild Child". I stayed this way for a good ten minutes until I heard the door open and looked up to see a grinning Lizard. His smile was slightly creepy due to the deformities and sent shivers down my spine.
"What," I asked simply.
"Come wit' me."
Knowing it was better than to argue with him I got out of my comfy position on the bed and walked over to him. He led me out of the house and through the back yard into the vast New Mexico desert. He stopped when we reached a spot that had a basket. He told me to sit which I did quite obediently and I watched with heightened interest as he opened up the basket.
Inside were 5 PB&J sandwiches, a small bag of chips, and two cans of Pepsi. I looked at him and he just winked.
"Imma woo ya darling" he said with a chuckle.
"Oh," I managed to get out while I felt my cheeks grow hot. I thanked God that the sun was setting so you couldn't tell well. The view from this spot was amazing though. The sky was lit up slightly with shades of yellow, orange, and red. If you looked close enough you could still see a hint of blue.
We ate in silence as we watched the sun set and the sky turn a pitch black with tiny stars twinkling under a quarter moon. It was beautiful out here, but seeing as it was a desert it was becoming too cold and began to shake from the feel of the cool air wrapping around my body.
Lizard must have noticed because he grabbed me and pulled me into his lap and wrapped his arms around me.
"I come 'ere to be alone. Clear muh head, ya know? I don' this since I was se'enteen. Ya like it 'ere?" he asked breaking me out of my little world.
I shifted a bit before I looked at him and replied, "Yeah, it's gorgeous."
He only grunted in response, but pulled me closer. I sat with my head in the crook of his neck listening to the sounds all around us. Slowly a heavy black blanket covered me and I was out for tonight. Still in his arms I fell asleep feeling safe and comfortable. I wasn't happy to be here, but for now I was alright.
How was that? Hope you guys liked it. I'm gonna continue this!