Hey, my gorgeous readers! ;D

I'm so sorry I've been so dead lately. I suck.

I already have this whole story written out but I need to type it up and go over it and edit and all that. And I'm still going to try my best to make it a good one.

I really hope you enjoy it! :D


Love is a powerful thing. A very powerful thing. It has the ability to control your life, to control how you act, to control your heart.

A lot of people say love hurts but that's not entirely true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Not telling someone hurts. Keeping it all inside hurts. People get these things confused with love. But in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel amazing again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.

As gay as it might sound, I am saying this for a reason.

My name is Kyle Broflovski. I'm sixteen years old and I live in South Park, Colorado. I happen to be in love…

At first, I thought it was just my heart and mind playing tricks on me, messing with my head. I've known I was gay since I was about twelve but I never thought I would fall for a certain person who I've hated all my life.

I'm not even sure if that's possible… Is it really possible to fall in love with someone you truly hate? I mean, I still hate him but… I love him.

Now that, for sure, doesn't make any sense but that's just how I feel.

This person, whose name I'm reluctant to say, that I've fallen for… is Eric Cartman.

At first, I thought it was just a mere crush and that I'd get over it soon. But I was wrong.

I found him always on my mind, everywhere I went, whether he was there or not. Even in school, during lunch and classes, he was on my mind. My grades started to degrade since I couldn't pay attention in class. I got in a load of shit at home about it, from my mom especially, and I'm now grounded for two months. Harsh punishment…

My parents don't know why my grades are dropping, of course. I haven't told anyone about my love for Cartman, not even Stan, my super best friend. In fact, I haven't even told anyone I'm gay…

Anyway, back to my other point, I know this isn't just some stupid crush on Cartman. I don't think, if you have a crush on someone, that they're constantly on your mind. But Cartman is.

Also, whenever I'm near him, or even at the sound of his voice or the mention of his name, my heart beats super fast. Even when I'm angry at him, his presence continues to make my heart race.

I still find it hard to believe my feelings for him. He hates me to no end and seems to enjoy angering me and hurting me. I bet his goal is to see me finally break down and cry, letting my heart tear in two in the process. He wants me to suffer, which is why he constantly rips on me for various reasons, the main one being my Jewish religion, and angers me to the very point I feel my head about ready to explode, which he'd enjoy very much.

He also really loves tricking me. He makes me think he's a friend when really he's thinking up some new evil plans and schemes to hurt, humiliate or anger me.

So anyway, to put it simply, he's a racist, intolerant, self-centered, manipulative sociopath. I would also mention he's fat but he's slimmed down quite a bit since we were kids. He's not thin but he isn't fat. He's broad but muscular and he isn't as chubby.

He's actually quite attractive. He has his mother's good looks. He's actually been asked out quite a number of times, though, for some unknown reason, he's rejected them all, including one of the hottest and most popular girls in school, Bebe Stevens.

She was in complete shock when he turned her down. She was never rejected before and now she hates Cartman with an absolute passion. She shoots him hateful glares from time to time but whenever she does, Cartman would simply smirk at her, unaffected at all by the hatred from her.

When people talk to him about this situation, he would simply state that he doesn't care if she hates him or not and that her feelings for him didn't matter.

I admire Cartman for that reason. He's so strong and confident and doesn't care what others think. If it was me in that situation, I'd definitely care.

There's a rumour going around the school at the moment that Cartman has a massive crush on Wendy Testaburger, Bebe's best friend and the school president. I really hope it's not true, though it possibly is.

Wendy's extremely hot, hotter than Bebe, and she has a really great personality. It's possible Cartman could like her, though I can't be sure.

There was another rumour going around the school about two months ago, again about Cartman, saying that he was gay since he rejected all the girls who asked him out. He found out that Craig started the rumour and so beat him up roughly and made him tell everyone it was all a lie and that Cartman was perfectly straight. Some people believed it but others still think Cartman is gay.

I, myself, am not too sure. It's true that Cartman has rejected all the girls who asked him out but that could be because he only has his eyes set out on one particular girl, Wendy Testaburger perhaps. Or maybe he is gay and doesn't want anyone knowing.

Either way, it doesn't matter. Cartman doesn't like me the way I like him so let's just leave it at that.

Though, despite everything, I can't help wonder… if there's a chance.



Hope you enjoyed that introduction. I'm going to try to update as soon as I can. Please try to be patient with me.

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