Ride on Back

((A/N: This is my first attempt at a RideBack fanfiction, so I decided to make a oneshot songfic for it. This is also for a contest on another site. But...I'm hoping to do my best in general. Song – RideBack by Mell. (RideBack themesong). Apologies for any mistransliterated lyrics ))

Squeez'n step on it hard
Try to feel my heart beat
High, as high as you can
All your blood will turn to fountain water

It was time for my first race, and I could feel the adrenaline pushing me to my limits. My blood raced so quickly, I felt like I couldn't keep up- my anxiety was at its peak. It was a fluke that I had managed to ride Fuego well that day- and yet somehow, I couldn't stop myself. The rideback...It was amazing. And I wanted to ride it even more.

We're surrounded by plot in this universe
Wash away the stain of blood with tears
We cannot look, or they will spell on you
Wind of fuego will lead us through

I gave a glance to Fuego. In one of my depressed states, the rideback had really gotten me out of my rut. I was even able to do ballet in some way while riding! My life felt like it had a new meaning. Fuego was leading me to a new purpose. Even though I fell into the water that time during our first encounter with Tamayo's riding, it felt like I could do anything. And Fuego was teaching me how, washing away the pain of the past.

I found the light, was real, I am united
I found guide-in line in the raging world
There you see, in the sky, even in this insane world
Ride on Back
All we need is your sympathy
We make history of our own

It was like my heart was burning with a new hope the first time. But now I sit on another RideBack. I know I'm excited, but where's that light that was guiding me before? With Fuego, the adrenaline pumped so much more. I want to ride as fast as I can, but...This rideback feels like it's holding me back rather than helping me go further. I can't give up, though. I won't let history repeat. I have to wind!

I dance blindly in a cage.
She was beaten to the ground.
Streets are filled with lies.
No one knows what's right and what is wrong.

As the race is starting, I'm beginning to notice just how hard it is to go faster. This rideback feels like it has a mind of its own, going against me! Were my feelings when I rode Fuego only for Fuego? As I listen to Hishida's explanation of the support system the rideback has, I frown. What do you mean? You mean I lost control over a system that Fuego didn't have fully functioning? Is that a good thing or a bad thing, anyway?

So you think we are one peaceful nation.
Did you imagine this starvation?
Why we stain the love when we need it.
We are fed up with your opinion.

Hishida fixed the rideback I'm on, so now the support won't cause me trouble- and I have to admit, it feels pretty good now. I have control- but I'm way behind. I can feel the strength of those around me pushing me forward, faster than ever. The rideback is listening to me- it doesn't feel the same as Fuego still, but it feels more similar. I'm feeling more in tune. Oh look, I'm getting closer to Tamayo! I really passed a lot of people after all.

Stars fall out of the sky, words turned into lies.
Drunk with the power that forces us to hate.
I sacrifice all my life. The evolution was so wrong.
The heart it yearns, for a love that's pure and true.
The palace crumbles to the ground.

As I ride forward, I notice that some of the other contestants are a bit cocky. There's quite a bit of pushing and shoving, as if it's a life or death battle. But I'm not going to give up! I won't let the words of encouragement my friends gave me become lies in the distance. I have to sacrifice everything on this race- I have to give it my all. In my heart, I'm sure that's true.

Yes I can. No I can't. I must go.
Or Should I stay? I cried hard.
Is that me? But no more tears.

Yes I can. No I can't. I must go.
Or Should I stay? I cried hard.
Is that me? Ready go yes!

Something's starting to feel off. Is that smoke I smell? I can't give up, but I'm almost afraid to move on. But the rideback deserves so much more from me. Riding Fuego after that rain was like a calling and it made me stop crying. I didn't know why I returned, but I felt a need to stay with the rideback path. Right! I have to keep going! I made my decision.

I found the light, was real, I am united
I found guide-in line in the raging world
There you see, in the sky, even in this insane world
Ride on Back
All we need is your sympathy

This race is like a new light. I have to finish it. But why do I feel like I'm losing control again? The rideback! The smoke is coming from the rideback! I can't believe I didn't notice- but why is the engine so hot? And why am I unable to move the way I want now? Oh no- I'm crashing. This is really horrible luck. I felt the crash easily, and nearly fell. Taking off my helmet, I sighed. I lost, but I did my best. And the others seem proud of me. But why do I feel so down?

Stars fall out of the sky, words turned into lies.
Drunk with the power that forces us to hate.
I sacrifice all my life. The evolution was so wrong.
The heart it yearns, for a love that's pure and true.
The palace, it crumbles to the ground.

After the race we had a party, but I just didn't feel like joining in. I had become so drunk with motivation that I sacrificed everything on that race, and I couldn't even pull through because I pushed the engine so hard. Apparently a lot of other racers got nervous too. But isn't it normal to want to go so fast? Am I strange? Am I not meant to ride? I snuck out of the party with these thoughts. I didn't care if I was meant to ride. I wanted to. So I went to the one that would understand.

But I want to see you again.

I went to Fuego, and rode my heart out to ease the pain of a new confusion.