By: Accalia Silvermoon
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter! If I did, Remus would have married Harry instead of Nymphadora Tonks!
Chapter One: Blame
Remus Lupin sat on his bed in his room at Number 12 Grimmauld Place. Two weeks ago, Sirius had been killed while fighting Bellatrix Lestrange at the Department of Mysteries. Suddenly, Remus heard a hesitant knock on his door. "Come in", he said, his voice flat. The door opened and Harry stepped into the room and sat down on the floor. "Well, what do you want?", Remus said bitterly. Harry cringed at Remus's tone. He had come, needing someone to talk too, someone who missed Sirius as much as he did. But now, Harry was rethinking this decision.
"Remus, I miss him", Harry finally managed to say. Remus raised an eyebrow. "I mean, I was so stupid! Hermione told me it might be a trap, and I ignored her! If I had listened to her, Sirius would not have died. It's all my fault!" Harry burst out. "
Yes, it is." Remus said coldly. Harry flinched as if Remus had taken a knife and thrust it into Harry's heart.
"Thinking after acting never really works. Your guilt, however, can't change the fact. He is dead. Intentionally or unintentionally, it doesn't matter. However, I don't think you'll ever change. People you get close with die a bit earlier, leaving behind the ones who truly care. But you will continue to be 'The Chosen One', acting according to your will and your will alone, and then, oh yeah, a bit of missing them. I wish you would go kill yourself! I certainly won't miss you!" Remus finished, his voice full of loathing. He stood up abruptly and stalked out of the room without looking back.
As the door slammed shut, Harry just sat there in shock. Remus's last words ran through his mind.
"I wish you would go kill yourself! I certainly won't miss you." Well, if Remus wanted him dead, then Harry was happy to oblige. He just had to make sure no one could try to stop him. With that last determined thought, Harry slowly stood up and left the room.