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"You're thinking too loud" I said, I heard Emily laugh.
"I'm sorry" I turned in her arms and gave her a small smile.
"What's going on in your head?" She gave me a small smile before looking away.
"What are we going to do JJ?" I leaned up on my elbow, she turned her head to look at me again. "Strauss is going to make us chose, each other or our job" We both moved to sit up in the bed.
"You think Hotch is going to take it to her?" Emily nodded and let out a sigh.
"He has to, he can't risk his job for us and he shouldn't have to" I nodded, she was right. "If we choose each other-"I cut her off right away.
"When we choose each other" She laughed and nodded.
"When we choose each other they're going to split us up" She ran a hand through her hair before continuing. "One of us goes to a different department and the other one stays with the team or we both get put into different areas and then the team loses both of us"
"It'll work out, Hotch will fight for us" I took her hand in mine and kissed the back of it.
"But it's not up to Hotch or Strauss for the matter, it's up to the Director" I let out a breath and put my head on her shoulder.
I walked into my office the next day and saw Garcia sitting in my chair, obviously waiting for me.
"How could you not tell me that it was Emily?" I rolled my eyes; I threw my coat and bag on to the chair in front of my desk.
"Garcia, please I am not in the mood for this" She stood up and made her way over to me.
"JJ, I'm your best friend, if there's anyone that you could talk to about it is me" Since last night I felt a need to let out everything that I was going through, all the anger and sadness…Now it was going to come out and it was going to come out at Garcia.
"No, we couldn't talk about it because we were scared that it was going to come out!" I could feel tears building up but I kept them at bay. "And now it is out in the worst way possible, now we have to go through interviews with Hotch and Strauss and wait for the Director to tell us that we have to walk away from our team…That we have to lose our friends and our family" My voice got chocked with the tears.
"Oh JJ" She pulled me into a hug and held me tight.
I heard the door open over my sobs and suddenly I was in familiar arms, I felt Emily place a small kiss on the top of my head.
"It's going to be okay" I heard her whisper.
We walked into Hotch's office and he gave us a small smile before indicating for us to sit.
"Strauss will be here soon" We gave him a nod. "How long have you two been together?"
"6 months" I answered and he frowned slightly, I guess he was surprised that we kept it a secret as long as we had. He looked between us and suddenly his face softened.
"Look as your friend, I'm very happy for both of you" JJ and I gave him a small smile. "You make each other happy and in our line of work that is very hard to find. As your boss I'm obligated to tell you that what you did is frowned upon and that what you did is wrong, but I don't think it was and because of that I will fight for you" He gave us a very small smile. "I don't want to lose either of you because the fact of the matter is this team needs you, both of you, equally" We gave him a small nod, he looked passed us and I assume that Strauss is making her way in. "Don't worry about Strauss, I can handle her"
In walked Strauss and all three of us stood up to greet her.
"Agents" She shook JJ's hand and then mine. "Aaron" She quickly shook his before taking a seat. "Aaron has filled me in on what's been going on, how long has it been going on?" JJ answered this time.
"6 months, Ma'am" She raised an eyebrow before turning to Hotch.
"6 months and you didn't know?" Hotch shook his head. "I thought you and your team are the best profilers" I took everything I had to bite my tongue at that comment.
"Well that show that they were able to handle being in a relationship with each other but not compromise the team or the job" Hotch's voice was soft but there was a slight bite to it.
"Not yet" She turned back to us. "Do you both understand that being in a relationship could cause you to make a bad choice and in danger your team?"
"Ma'am" JJ began. "No offence but like Hotch just said, we were able to keep this relationship quiet for the last six months and not compromise anything. We were still able to do our job and do it well" JJ didn't bother to hide the bite in her own voice.
"Let me put you in scenario Jennifer" Strauss crossed her legs before leaning back in her seat. "Emily is in a building with a bomb, would you risk your team to save her?"
"I would go in there myself, I would never risk my team" I reached over and placed my hand on JJ's, she was starting to become agitated.
"But can you guarantee that?" JJ opened her mouth but closed it almost right away, unsure what to say. "We don't make these rules to keep you people miserable, we make them to keep you safe" She let out sigh. "You can go, I need to talk to Aaron alone" JJ and I stood up to walk away, before we could leave I turned back around.
"Ma'am, we love each other more than anything but this is our family. Please don't separate us, don't separate us from them" With that we both walked out of Hotch's office.
As we headed down to the bullpen we saw the team waiting for us.
"How did it go?" Morgan asked right away.
"Honestly, I don't know" I answered him before taking a seat at my desk, JJ sat on top of it.
"They can't take you both away, we need you" Reid spoke, looking down at his desk. JJ reached across and placed her hand on his shoulder.
"Didn't they realize this the last time" I turned my eyes to Rossi. "This team wasn't the same when we lost JJ and worse when we lost Emily" We gave him a small smile.
"We're a family" Garcia spoke up. "That's why we can do what we do, because we're more than a team we are a family" Morgan wrapped an arm around Garcia to calm her down.
"This is bullshit" Morgan spoke the words that were running through all our minds.
We turned our eyes to JJ when we heard her phone ring; she looked down at the ID before looking back at us.
"Excuse me guys" She got up and moved away from us, answering her phone as she did.
I felt a tap on my shoulder, I looked beside me at Morgan and followed his line of site and saw Hotch and Strauss leaving his office. She moved to the exit of the bullpen while he made his way over to us.
"Where's JJ?" He asked right away, directing his question to me.
"She got a phone call" He nodded, he looked behind me and I looked over my shoulder to see JJ making her way back to us.
"We have a case" She said when she was in front of us again. "Toronto needs us down there, the lead detective is faxing the case to me right now" Hotch gave her a nod.
"Alright, get the case ready and then we'll meet in the conference room in an hour" JJ turned and was about to walk away but Hotch stopped her. "JJ wait, only one of you is allowed to come with us until the Director makes his decision" I stood up and rolled my eyes.
"Hotch, this is crap" He shrugged and nodded.
"I know, but this is what Strauss wants and I can't go over her head the team is already in jeopardy" I shook my head and let out a sigh.
"Why does one of them have to stay behind? Erin knows we need them both" Rossi asked.
"I know and that's what I told her" Hotch turned his eyes back to us. "But she feels that one of you could put the team at risk by making an emotional decision in order to protect the other"
"It's fine" I looked over at JJ. "If this is what it takes to keep the team together in the end, then we'll do what we have to do"
"Who's going to stay?" Hotch asked us, we both looked at each other and before I even had a chance to say anything JJ started.
"You should go" She said. "They need you there more than they need me"
"No you need to go, they need you to deal with the press" She shook her head right away.
"One of them can step in as a Communication Liaison, but I can't step in as a Profiler" I looked away from her, she was right. "You need to go; I can help them from here with Garcia"
"Alright" I gave her a small smile and nod.
"Okay, conference room in an hour" She gave Hotch another nod before walking out of the bullpen.
I had just finished presenting the case for Toronto, four couples all found beaten to death in their house.
"Alright, wheels up in 20" Hotch stood up, gave me a look and walked out of the room. He was followed by the rest of the team except for Emily.
I turned the TV off and slowly walked over to her; she put the tablet down and gave me a smile.
"Are you okay?" I shook my head with a small smile, I kept a front up for the team and I didn't need to do that with Emily.
"I hate that I'm not going to be out there with you" She gave me a small smile, taking my hand in her own.
"Me too" I squeezed her hand.
"Just please be safe" She nodded. "Come home to me"
"I will, I promise" I wanted to kiss her but I couldn't, not here, and it killed me. "I love you"
"I love you too" She squeezed my hand once more before pulling away.
"Oh and when I get back we can celebrate our six months, we never got the chance" She said with a smile, I gave her a nod and she walked out.
We were finally on our way home, five days later, I had been away from JJ for way too long. Just before I could get on the Jet I got a text from JJ telling me that she going to be waiting at home for me. I looked up when I saw Hotch take a seat in front of me.
"Strauss took everything to the Director, but we're still waiting for his response" I nodded, but kept silent. "He wants to talk to all three of us first thing tomorrow, I am going to do everything in my power to keep you two with us" I gave him a smile, if there was anyone I wanted to fight for me it was Hotch.
"I know you will, thank you" He gave me a small smirk.
"I really am happy for the both of you" I gave him a bigger smile this time. "Our line of work doesn't make it easy to find love, with our hours and things we see, but you have it Emily…Don't ever let it go"
"I don't ever want to let her go" He gave me a full blown smile and I returned it.
I walked into JJ's house and placed my go bag down by the door, I walked further into the house and smiled at JJ who was sleeping on the couch. I walked over to her and kneeled down in front of her, I leaned in a placed a small kiss on cheek. Her face scrunched up for a second before her eyes began to flutter open.
"Hey" I said to her with a small smile.
"Hey" She began to sit up and I moved to give her room.
Once she sat up she stretched her hands out and I helped her stand up, pulling her close to me.
"Tough case" She said as she ran a hand threw my hair. "Are you okay?" I nodded, placing a small kiss on her forehead.
"Yeah, are you?" She nodded as well.
"Yeah, I missed you" I let out a small laugh.
"I missed you too" I pulled her into a soft kiss, we exchanged a few soft, small kisses.
"I wish I was there with you, these five days have been hell not knowing if every time you walked into a room if you would be okay" She pulled me into another kiss, this one longer and deeper.
"I'm so happy to be home" I spoke against her lips.
"I'm so happy to have you home" She kissed me once more before fully pulling away. "Bed?"
"Yes please, I'm so tired" She let out a laugh.
"Come on, I'll grab your go bag you can get ready for bed" I thanked her before heading upstairs.
I walked into the bedroom and saw that Emily was in the bathroom; I placed her go bag on the bed and opened it. I took the clothes out and tossed them into the laundry hamper and at that moment something hit me, something so amazing that I couldn't stop the smile from coming on to my face. I walked over to my side of the bed and leaned against the headboard, waiting for Emily to get out of the bathroom.
Emily walked out a few moments later and gave me a smile before getting into bed beside me.
"Em?" She looked over at me, sitting up as well. "Let's move in together"
"What?" She asked in complete shock.
"Let's move in together, I mean most of your stuff is here anyway and it's not like you can go back to your place for a while after the break in…Not that I would let you even if you wanted to" She laughed at that. "I know a lot of my stuff is at your place too but my place wasn't broken into" Another laugh, before I could ramble on even more Emily cut me off.
"JJ" I looked at her and she was smiling. "You don't need to convince me, lets do it" I gave her a smile before moving over her and kissing her, but she stopped me before we could get too hot. "Wait, we should really go to sleep" I gave her a frown. "We have a meeting with the Director first thing tomorrow" I groaned and moved away from her.
"I'm really starting to hate him" She laughed.
Emily and I made our way to the Directors office, we expected to only find Hotch there because he was going to be going in with us but we found the whole team there…We're a family, I shouldn't be surprised.
"Hey guys" Emily said once we got closer.
"What are you doing here?" I asked with a smile.
"We know we can't be in there with you, but we can support you from here at least" Rossi answered with a smile.
Morgan walked up to us and wrapped his arms around our shoulders.
"We never got a chance to tell you how happy we are for you guys" We both gave him a smile.
"And we really are" Reid said with a small smile.
"So happy" Garcia pulled me away from Morgan and hugged me, I smiled at her when we pulled back. "Go in there and kick ass my lesbian lovely's" Emily and I laughed.
"Garcia" Hotch threw her a stern look.
"Sorry sir" She gave him a small smile.
"Let's go in" We gave Hotch a nod and followed him in.
As we walked in we saw the Director sitting in front of three chairs, he looked up at us from his desk and gave us a small smile.
"Agents" We shook his hand when we were close enough. "Please take a seat" Silence took over the room and he simply looked between Emily and me. "Normally I would simply separate the two of you without a thought, but Chief Strauss seems to think that you both are very vital to the BAU and to your team" He turned his eyes to Hotch. "You seem to think that too, right?"
"Yes, they contribute so much to the team and we need them" Hotch answered honestly.
"Agents, do you like your jobs?" He asked us.
"Yes, we love them" Emily answered for both of us.
"Then why would you risk your job for a relationship?" Before we could answer he continued. "What happens if you two break up and can be around each other anymore, don't you think there's a chance that you could put your team in danger?"
"We're not gonna break-up" I said as politely as possible.
"Do all relationships last Agent Jareau?" He asked me with a raised eyebrow.
"No, but not all relationships end either" He looked away from me; I guess he didn't know what to say to that. "We've been together for the last six months and we have had fights, like any other relationship, but not once did our team know about it and not once did we put them at risk. We know how to leave our personal lives at home" He shook his head.
"Hard to leave your personal life at home when your personal life is your co-worker" He said with a smirk that makes me want to punch him, but instead I clenched my fist.
"With all due respect sir, we love our jobs so much and we would never get into a relationship that would put our jobs at risk without believing that it's a forever thing" He was about to say something but she continued over him. "And I know, there is a chance that we could break up but if that happens it still won't change anything. That team is our family, we love them so much and they mean everything, we would never do anything that could call them harm"
"That's why this works so well, because we're not just a team we're a family" I said, quoting Garcia.
"This team, this family" Hotch began. "Was never the same after we lost both Agents Jareau and Prentiss and, Director, I think you know that" He looked away from us and down at his paper work.
"Alright, you two can go" He said to Emily and I. "Agent Hotchner, can you please stay for second" He nodded, while Em and I walked out.
When we walked out of the office everyone was looking at us, waiting for us to tell them something but we just shook our head.
"What?" Garcia asked, fear in her voice.
"We don't know" JJ answered. "He hasn't said anything" Before anything more could be said Hotch walked out of the office.
He looked at our faces and knew that we were waiting for an answer, hoping that he had one.
"I don't know what his decision is, he says he hasn't made one yet" We gave him a small nod. "Till then if a case comes up he wants us to stick to procedure, one of you comes with us and the other stays behind"
"Alright let's forget it for now" Rossi walked up to us and laid his hands on our shoulders. "Since we missed six months of your relationship, I think it's time to go out and celebrate" We both laughed.
"I agree" We all looked at Hotch a bit shocked, but his face held a small smile. "Let's go to dinner"
We began to make our way out of the building.
We had gone to a nice small restaurant and we were having a good time, it's been a while since we could all sit down and laugh. I had JJ's hand in mine and right now there is no better feeling in the world, it feels so good not to hide what we have.
"Listen guys" I spoke up, getting the team to look at me. "We never wanted you guys to find out about us this way"
"Were you ever going to tell us?" Reid asked, it wasn't a rhetorical question or sarcastic, he was genuinely curious.
"Of course Spence" JJ took over. "We didn't think we could keep it away from you guys forever" That got the table to laugh.
"We didn't want to keep it away from you guys as long as we have" I started again. "We just couldn't find the right time to tell you"
"We also didn't know how to tell you" I nodded in agreement with JJ. "It's just not an easy thing to do"
"We understand" Hotch gave us a small smile.
"Now that you know this" I looked at JJ before continuing, we shared a smile. "You should also know that we're moving in together"
The team broke out in smiles and 'congratulations'.
"Thanks guys" JJ said after pulling away from a hug given to her by Garcia. "The only reason we're telling you guys is because we need the boys to pick up boxes" JJ said, trying her best to keep a straight face.
"Thanks JJ" Morgan put on his best fake hurt look and JJ laughed.
"I'm kidding, I'm kidding" We laughed as the food came to our table.
I happen to look up and I caught site of Hotch looking down at his phone, I guess it was ringing but I couldn't hear it.
"It's the Director" That caught everyone's attention, JJ took my hand in hers. Hotch took a breath before picking up the phone. "Director"