I wanted to say thank you to all the reviewers and I would like to send an apology to phobe9509 because I put her through misery (lol) :D. Anyway, hope you like this chapter!
The only thing on his mind part 4
As he was leaving his superior's office, Derek Morgan was, all thought still pissed, pretty confident that Aaron Hotchner had gotten the message loud and clear. Because, well let's face it, when he wanted to, Derek could pull just as threatening death glares as the one's of Hotch. And in his book, someone crushing one of his best friends heart was a hell of a reason to such death glares.
Morgan walked back to Garcia's office and knocked on the door. No one responded to him so he knocked once again. Still without a response and getting worried, Morgan opened the door carefully only to find a very sad Garcia sitting at her desk chair, starring at her computer screen. At first Derek didn't understand why she was just starring at it, but as he got closer he could see that her screensaver was a recently taken photo of the whole team, one of the few they had where everybody was smiling. He remembered that the picture was taken right after they finished a case in Chicago and they had been able to save two more families from getting murdered. Cases like that were the reason they were able to get through so many others, because they always had hope that they could find the next victim on time and save them. He remembered how happy all of them were when they saw that the families hadn't been murdered yet. So that night they went out to celebrate and they took the picture right in front of the restaurant.
"I still can't believe he did that to her…" Garcia stated with disbelieving on her voice, while she turned around to fully face Morgan.
"I know Baby Girl, I know." Morgan simply said as he moved to hug Garcia.
"Hey, where did you go?" Garcia asked when she remembered his absence.
"Make sure he'll make it up to her." Morgan said, a grin spread across his beautiful features.
Garcia equally mirrored the grin, giving Morgan a quick peck on the cheek.
"Thank you my Chocolate God, I knew you'd find a way to make this right!" Garcia exclaimed hugging Morgan once more.
"Hey Baby Girl, where did Emily go?" Morgan asked suddenly realizing that Emily wasn't there anymore.
"She went to get some air outside, she needed to recompose herself" Garcia replied, looking at Morgan in the eyes, "This really got to her…" Garcia stated one more time.
Morgan quickly grabbed his cell phone and wrote a quick text and then looked at Garcia and said "Don't worry gorgeous, I know who can take care of that.
Aaron Hotchner still sat at his desk with his head in his hands when his cell phone buzzed with a new text. He opened the phone to find a text from Morgan that said:
"She went to get some air outside; she usually goes to the parking lot. Go talk to her. NOW!"
Hotch didn't need to be told twice and quickly grabbed his jacket and keys and rushed to the elevators.
With large steps he reached the building's lobby and started heading towards the parking lot as fast as he could until he spotted her in her car, with the windows closed but clearly listening to LOUD music. He figured she wouldn't be able to hear him approaching her car so once he got there he softly knocked on the window two times. He watched as she turned her head ever so slowly and looked him in the eyes. It almost crushed his own heart once he saw the hurt present there. Not bothering to give him an answer she just turned her head back to her window and closed her eyes.
Hotch knew that he was probably the last person that Emily wanted to see at the moment but he had to make this right. For both of them.
So he opened her door carefully and sat down on the passenger sit. It was then that he spotted the tear stained tissue papers on the tablier of the car and smudged mascara running over her cheeks. She had been crying and he was the reason for it. An overpowering feeling of guilt hit him when he realized he had made this beautiful, vibrant, intelligent woman cry. Yeah, he definitely needed to do something.
But what? He thought. An apology wouldn't be enough, that was for sure and he couldn't just try to bring her into reasoning, which would have lead to a screaming match, like it would have lead that way with Morgan. Only one option was left, he needed to pour it all out there. He needed to tell her everything that he was feeling and the reasons why he did what he did. If she still wouldn't want him by then, then he would leave her alone.
"Emily… I need to tell you something, is that ok?" he asked, treading carefully so not to upset her.
She didn't even move, she was still with her eyes closed and head resting on the head rest. Hotch took the silence as permission for him to continue and started to talk again.
"Over the past few months, I've come to realize that I care more for you than I should have and that my feelings for you were more than just friendship feelings." Hotch took a moment to observe her facial expression. Still nothing, so he continued. "Once I realized that I was falling for you I tried to keep at arm's length, due to FBI policy-"
"If you WERE falling for me you wouldn't be interested on FBI policy. If you CARED that much for me you be interested in FBI policy!" Emily said through gritted teeth.
"Please Em, just let me finish…" Hotch pleaded.
Emily nodded her head and Hotch continued once again.
"When my feelings grew even stronger for you and I realized that you were in love with me too I started thinking I had to protect you, I couldn't let you give your career and yourself up over me, and I was too scared that anything was going to happen to you either on a professional or personal level. The other night at my office you caught me with my guard down and I knew that you would see past my mask and see that I did have feelings for you. And when I kissed you… Emily that was one of the best experiences of my life! But I had to protect you because I knew you would regret this eventually and we would grow apart and that would eventually have an effect on all of us. I'm sorry if I made you feel like I didn't care for you because I do Emily, very much so, and I can finally see that we DO belong together, and I would really like a new shot at this. Please Emily, please."
Emily finally turned her head to look directly into his eyes and she could indeed see all the love and want on them, but she wasn't ready to give in yet.
"You hurt me bad Hotch. You really hurt me…"
"I know, and I'm sorry about that, but I love you Emily. Please give me a second chance. Give US a second chance." Hotch could see her starting to give in and so he leaned in closer.
"You promise you won't hurt me again?" Emily asked, still unsure of all of this.
"I promise. I love you."
"I love you too." Emily replied, a sudden smile appearing in her features as his lips brushed against hers ever so lightly.
Emily quickly wrapped her arms around his neck deepening the kiss and the feel of his lips and his hand on her waist was all she could think about in that moment. That, and that this could actually work. This could actually be something worth fighting for…
And there you have it! Hope you like it and please leave a review, please. Emily would appreciate it! : D