I didn't want to go to school today, I was hurt. I'm still hurt. I know I shouldn't have lied about myself, I didn't even think I would find someone, Alice, I think she knew. She knew that I wasn't Alec but Matthias, and that I was a nobody, an ugly piece of crap. It was because I lied, I hurt her, and now I can stop thinking about her. I was obsessed with that website because of her. I always had to talk to her, I couldn't help it. She made me smile. Her pictures. Her laugh. Even though all I got from her was a picture, I couldn't help but imagine what her laugh would be like. I guess I fall too hard. I didn't even get to tell her how I felt. She just left, because of him. I swear to god ill find Shaun. No more. There I was, walking in the hallway of Harrow Brook Private School. When I saw her, she was beautiful. I couldn't help myself but stare, Matthias, youre done dating, you don't want her. But I couldn't, she made me even forget about Alice, and once I did remember about Alice, I snapped out of my gawking moment about the beautiful stranger standing in front of me. I then realized that she was staring at me just the same way I was, but why me? I'm not as good looking as I want to be.
"Hi…" She said after moments of silence.
I took the courage to open my mouth. Somehow my vocal tubes seemed to be working with me as I managed to say something. When I said hi, he smiled. His smile. His eyes, his hair, his arms. I couldn't do it, I knew I wasn't even suppose to be looking at him this way, but I couldn't. Its not like he'll even like me in that way. Okay, say something else. ! "Hey" he replied.. "Im Matthias, and you are…?" He held out his hand for me to shake it. I CANT SHAKE HIS HAND. Oh god, oh god. I cant do this. After taking a few breaths I shook his hand and gave him my horrible name.
"You have a beautiful name, Nekoda"