Songbirds

A series of one shot song fics.

Amy, I am ashamed! Three chapters, and you haven't reviewed. * sad *

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters or the songs mentioned.

Track Three: In Too Deep by Phil Collins

Lily Evans

All that time I was searching, with nowhere to run to, it started me thinking,
Wondering what I could make of my life, and who'd be waiting,
Asking all kinds of questions, to myself, but never finding the answers,
Crying at the top of my voice, and no one listening,
All this time, I still remember everything you said
There's so much you promised, how could I ever forget.

Severus turned out to be a dunderhead. I should've seen that one coming. But it still hurt. So I got thinking. If someone that nice could turn out to be that cruel, could someone like you turn out to be amazing? I couldn't work it out. Couldn't, wouldn't... Take your pick. And I just keep replaying everything you've ever said to me in my head, hoping I can find something sincere. You promised me the world, how could I forget that?

Listen, you know I love you, but I just can't take this,
You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps,
Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this,
You know I want to, but I'm in too deep.

Yes, James, I know you know that I love you. And I know I love you, and need you. But I don't want your idea of a relationship. I want a real one. I want to spend my life with you, not being chucked in three weeks time like your last girlfriend. I should leave you now, but I'm in too deep.

So listen, listen to me,
Ooh you must believe me,
I can feel your eyes go thru me,
But I don't know why.

You seem to be trying to stare into my soul. It's odd, James. I don't think that's how you would look at me if you just wanted a casual relationship. But I don't really know why. Don't you know my soul already?

Ooh I know you're going, but I can't believe
It's the way that you're leaving,
It's like we never knew each other at all, it may be my fault,
I gave you too many reasons, being alone, when I didn't want to
I thought you'd always be there, I almost believed you,
All this time, I still remember everything you said, oh
There's so much you promised, how could I ever forget.

Whenever you go off on missions for the Order now, it scares me. It scares me you'll come back changed. It scares me you'll come back different. It scares me you'll come back with someone else. Maybe it's my fault, maybe I should go with you, but it's difficult when you're four months pregnant.

Listen, you know I love you, but I just can't take this,
You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps,
Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this,
You know I want to, but I'm in too deep.

I'm in too deep with the baby now. My baby. My little baby. You'll grow up strong in a new world created from this chaos, won't you? I need you, my baby, but I don't think in the state this world is in that I'll make it to giving birth.

So listen, listen to me,
I can feel your eyes go thru me

And then you were born, Harry, and your eyes were like mine. Exactly like mine, but with the same intensity as your father. Once again, I found eyes looking into my soul. Listen to me, Harry. Know that no matter what happens your father and I love you.

It seems I've spent too long
Only thinking about myself - oh
Now I want to spend my life Just caring bout somebody else.

The rest of my life I will spend caring about you and your father. I spent so much of my life just bothering about myself, I didn't even notice what was going on under my nose with Sev. He would have hated you, if he ever met you, Harry. You look like your father, like James.

Listen, you know I love you, but I just can't take this,
You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps,
Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this,
You know I want to, but I'm in too deep.

Yes, I love you. I'm playing for life. I don't live without you, Harry, James. My Potter boys. I'm not gonna make it through this night, I know I'm not. He's here. In our house. He's killed James, your father, and now he's after us.

You see, Harry, there's a prophecy about you and Him. Neither can live while the other survives. So he wants to kill you. Well, over my dead body.

You know I love you, but I just can't take this,
You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps,
Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this,
You know I want to, but I'm in too deep...

Harry, we are so proud of you. There was so much I wanted to tell you when you used the resurrection stone, but just not enough time. And now you have a family of your own, one that you love. I can't take just watching you, not being able to hug you, to comfort you, to give you advice. I'm playing fate to help you survive, to keep you alive. I love you, Harry, but I'm dead.

In Too Deep to death.

A/N: Well that was cheerful for a Thursday morning... Woo, two updates in one day, feel honoured people! :)