Just so you're not totally confused (even though I think it kinda will become obvious in the story), this story is completely Hermione's POV. Also, no one that died in the last parts of the books died in my story. Come one, what is Hogwarts without ol' Dumby or Snape? Exactly! I really have no idea what happened to Voldemort. Let's just say he was killed in the battle, but none of the good guys were. Sound good? He's just reeeeeally not important in this story. So this story play after the battle, when everybody returns to repeat their 7th year. One more thing: I guess some of the characters will be a little out of character at times. Oooooor you just see whole new sides of them. Whatever you want to call it! Enjoy! :)


I'm not exactly sure when it started. Looking back at it I just can't recall a moment where it made click. But I know that it has been pretty much forever, so long that I can't even remember a time I hadn't been in love with Draco Malfoy. It's true he was a git and world class jerk, but there was just something about him. I couldn't put my finger on it, but something about him was different. Something about him drove the whole school crazy. With Draco Malfoy there were no grey zones. You either loved him or hated him, or in my case – both. For my three best friends, Harry, Ginny, and Ron it was clearly hate. They didn't know anything about my feelings and that was good. As a matter of fact they were convinced that I had feelings for Ron, since we were always fighting. But that was just ridiculous, Ron was like a brother to me.

For years I had just been fantasizing over Malfoy, not letting it show. Whenever he had been mean to me or one of my friends it had hurt so bad, but showing my pain would've been unbearable. So instead of that I had spat back at him and fought him, crying in my bed at night. Either the girls in my room hadn't noticed or they were just tactful enough to not comment or talk about it. Either way, I was thankful for it.

One day in third year I had even been hurt enough over a comment Malfoy had made about Hagrid that I had punched Malfoy in the face, breaking his nose. The shock on his face had been priceless. I had enjoyed it so much, but at the same time I didn't want to see him like that. I'm sure he could've hit back and kicked my ass, but he didn't. Maybe because I was a girl, maybe because he didn't want to touch me, maybe because he was to shocked. Maybe he didn't want to see me hurt...

I shook my head as if to shake that thought off of me. That thought was stupid, he didn't care about me. I looked out of the window of the moving train and saw the beautiful English landscape pass by. Why couldn't everything be as easy as nature? As instinctive? I stroke my coat smooth and set the little needle on my chest straight. I smiled to myself. The little needle that read Head Girl. I was sitting alone in the compartment, finally waiting for the Head Boy to arrive. He really should've been here by now. I finally wanted to know who he was. My first guess would've been Harry or Ron, but I knew that neither of them had gotten the title. I guess if the Head Girl is from one house the Head Boy has to be from an other one? That sounded reasonable enough for me anyway. The compartment door opened and I looked up, only to lay my eyes on the window again.

"Malfoy, this is really a bad time. I'm waiting for someone. So how about we just skip all of your insults and pretend like you made them and you leave again?" I said, pretending to be annoyed. All the while my heart was beating fast. I heard the door close again.

"No can do."

I gazed up to him again and just stared at him confused. A big smug smile was plastered on his face. He didn't look like he was here to insult me... In that moment I caught a glimpse of a small needle on his chest.

"No fuckin' way!" I yelled out and immediately held my hand over my mouth, shocked that I had just sworn.

He chuckled a little and sat in a seat across from me. After he realized that I wasn't going to say anything, he asked "So what now?"
I sighed. "We are going to act civil. I mean, we're going to live together! You still remember that Head Boy and Head Girl have their own common room and dorms? If we want to make this work we need to be civil to each other."

He raised an eyebrow. "I was more talking about what we have to do now. Like right now. DO we have to patrol around or something?"
I blushed. "Oh yeah." was all I could come up with to say.

"Okay." he said and got up again. "See you later then."

After he had left the compartment I wanted to kick myself in the butt. "Oh yeah." I imitated myself, annoyed with my own stupidity. But he had just been kind of civil to me. Kind of nice even. He hadn't laughed at me, or insulted me, or anything else. He'd just been... civil. A smile crept up on my face. Maybe this year would be good. Maybe it would make things better.


I looked down the Gryffindor table at dinner. Harry gazed at me curiously and then turned back to his mashed potatoes. Ron, next to him, gulped a big piece of turkey and burped loudly. Dean Thomas and Seamous Finnigan, who sat a couple of seats down the table, laughed loudly. Disgusting.

I glanced over to the Slytherin table and looked for familiar white-blond hair. Finally I made it out, at the end of the table, next to a slutty looking auburn-haired Slytherin-girl. Well, maybe she just looked slutty to me, after all I was kinda biased through jealousy. I should've gotten used to seeing him with girls by now, but for some reason it was still weird to me after all these years. I don't know exactly when Malfoy had become so attractive that every being in Hogwarts that didn't have something dangling between their legs wanted him. Maybe it had been fifth year. In every girls dormitory over the school girls were talking about how muscular Malfoy was and how beautiful Malfoy's storm-grey eyes were and how dreamy Malfoy was. Even in my own dormitory! Not that I would ever participate in those conversations, but Lavender and Parvati certainly talked enough about him for all of us. And he knew it. He knew what an effect he had on the girls and he shamelessly used it. There were some girls in school who kept track of who he was doing it with and when he was doing it with them, but even though I had at least tried to be aware of it, I had lost track. He was a manwhore. And git. And a world class jerk. But he was so cute... And to be honest, that wasn't even the reason I liked him. I had liked him way before he had become so ridiculously hot (even though he'd always been eyecandy). The real reason I had started to feel attracted to him was because I had felt sorry for him. I mean if his family background wouldn't suck as much as it did, maybe everything would've been different. Maybe he would be one of our friends then. Maybe he wouldn't even be a Slytherin. If his father didn't have such a bad influence on him, maybe he'd be just one of the other kids. But Lucius Malfoy was not one to not teach his only son his values. And his values sucked monkey balls.

"I could sleep on the floor, you know. Then you could use my bed and wouldn't have to live with that ferret." Ron suggested.

I looked at him disapprovingly. "That would be against the rules, Ron. What kind of role model would I be if I broke such a rule? I am Head Girl now!"

"What was that? I think I didn't catch it the one thousand times you mentioned that before. You are what?" Ron asked mockingly.

I rolled my eyes at him and laughed. "I just have to bear it. Who knows, maybe it won't even be that bad."

Harry raised his eyebrows. "We're still talking about Malfoy here, right?"

I resisted the urge to roll my eyes again and just smiled. "If he's smart he won't touch me. He knows you two would kill him then." And if he isn't smart then he will touch me. Please don't let him be smart! I added in my head.

"Just be careful, okay?" Harry said concerned.

I nodded and glanced over to the white-blond hair again. The slut next to him now whispered something in his ear. Ugh, sometimes I don't like Hogwarts as much as I should.


A/N: Hey guys,

I hope you like the first chapter, believe me there's a lot more to come. For some reason I never seem to be able to keep myself short haha

Well let me know what you think, I'm open to any kind of criticism! I'll try to upload regularly, it's still summer so I have time!

Love,

ShayleeRae