Time skip! Enjoy :) Also I've stopped getting emails from this site for some reason, so I apologize if I don't respond to a review.
School seems to both fly by and drag on, second by second, a stretching time line with no visible end. Yet there's nothing to hold onto, so I get dragged along with it, driven fast through his work that is slipping. Summers are worse, with nowhere to spend them, and each day in the temporary housing facility a small part of me feels bitter towards the Evans. I know we aren't friends, but I need them.
In a way, though, it was almost a good thing. The falling out. Because now I'm where I'm meant to be, and there's no guilt holding me back. I'm doing this for me, I'm righting the world, and it feels amazing.
After graduation, I follow the rest. It's an easy choice, since I have nothing to lose. I mix potions, I follow old schoolmates, I spy and steal and I'm good at it. A part of me knows I'm in too deep, but I'm rising up and we can't be stopped. We're righting the world, I tell myself. So that a muggle can never hurt a wizard again, or a father his wife. So that magic is recognized, loved, respected. So that I'm on top, for once in my life, and the Gryffindors who torment me will glower from beneath, with no hope of scaling to my level. It'll be too late for them.
I still listen for word on muggle-born treatment after victory. With every attack I wince, because I know we're one person closer to Lily. It shouldn't matter, but it does. I don't date, or even think about it. I know I still love her, and I always will. But now, I don't want to. I don't want to wait around for a girl that won't happen, or hope for someone who's lost. She's happy, and so am I. She should be on her own.
I commit to my work, and I hope that that will be enough. But when I hear that Lily's engaged, I know that it shouldn't be over between us. I know I have to see her again, just once.
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