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Vaguely aware of the painful crick on her neck, Sadie heard someone whispering her name as she was shaken out of her slumber. Disoriented, she smelled disinfectant that made her stomach churn and winced as her eyes opened to bright white lights that were blinding in the midst of her headache. The blurred faces of her old co-workers jolted her awake as the events of the last few hours hit her all at once and she realized where she was, and why she was there.
"Oh my god… Where's Lexie?" She asked rubbing the sleep out of her eyes, sitting up watching as they sat in front of her.
"She's still with the doctor, we told them we were here, he should be coming out soon to talk to us," Meredith responded, watching as Sadie nodded mutely.
Mark still looked like he was in shock over the whole thing, making Sadie's heart break a little for the poor guy. He and Lexie hadn't had the smoothest road in their relationship, but she always had a soft spot in her heart for them.
"What happened Sadie? Last I heard, Lexie called saying she was coming home. She sounded so much better..."
Nodding as she swallowed back some of her tears. "She just had a headache. She was so excited to get back to Seattle, and work things out with Mark. I should have remembered headache was one of the warning signs of a seizure with her preeclampsia. I'm so sorry.."
Sobbing as if she couldn't hold it back any longer, Sadie felt Mark put his arm around her comfortingly.
Sadie dropped to the floor as soon as she saw Lexie's knees buckle and her fall on the ground. Her immediate reaction was to try and wake her but her body was rigid and started to convulse. Suddenly, light foam started to gather at her lips and her jaw tightened as her eyes rolled to the back of her head.
Frantically, Sadie ran to the kitchen and grabbed the phone to try and call 911.
"I need an ambulance stat," she yells to the operator. "My friend is 20 weeks pregnant, and she's having a seizure!" Her heart was beating so loudly she could barely focus on the questions the operator was asking her. She watched as after a few moments Lexie's body went slack and her head lolled to the side. She tried to put her fingers to her neck to find a pulse. When she couldn't find it, she laid her head on her chest listening and feeling for some type of oxygen exchange.
"Oh my god, Lexie - please wake up," Sadie whispered desperately.
After what seemed like years the EMS crew showed up and began to administer care to Lexie while Sadie stood back and watched in a daze as they laid her on the stretcher and hurried out of the house onto the back of the ambulance. She jumped into her car, whispering silent prayers to herself; she grabbed her phone and started to dial Meredith's number as she drove behind the ambulance towards the hospital.
The bright hallway light hit Mark's face as the on-call room door is opened and a woman walks in. Hoping she'd take the cue and go away, he lays his arm on top of his eyes and covers it, neither one making any sound of acknowledgement towards each other. The tension in the room is crackling with nerves as he feels her stare burning into him. All of the sudden, he feels a rush of cold air on his body as the woman pulls the covers off of him in annoyance, breaking the silence.
Meredith demands, watching as Mark gives her a look of confusion from the bed he was laying in.
"Get up, Mark."
She repeats herself, adding a glare to the end of her statement.
"We're going to Los Angeles. Now."
She states, crossing her arms defiantly.
"Did you hit your head or something because, I don't remember agreeing to any of this?" Mark says with a sigh of annoyance at the end.
Grabbing the pillow from the bunk above, Meredith starts hitting him with it - "Lexie needs you Mark. Whether or not she admits it, let's go. NOW."
"No she doesn't Grey, she made it perfectly clear how little she actually does need me, actually."
Hitting him again, several times before he sits up and angrily grabs the pillow from her.
"What the hell? Do you make it a habit of hitting people when you don't get your way? God, no wonder Derek's crashing at my place."
Pursing her lips in an effort to hold her anger in, Meredith can't help but release a small growl from her throat as she feels her body warm up from all the emotions flying around her. She told Sadie it was a bad idea to corner Mark into going down there. He hadn't been the nice Mark that she'd grown to know and love when Lexie was with him. He was starting to go back to his old, asshole, shut-off-from the world ways and it made her want to deck him every time she saw him being a dick towards people. The only time he was back to Lexie's Mark was when he was around Sofia, Carolynn or Zola, which she was extremely grateful for. At least she knew he hadn't turned himself over completely. But she could understand where he was coming from, she remembered a point in her and Derek's relationship when she thought it was better for everyone if they just gave up and stopped trying to fight to stay together. She naively thought that it was supposed to be easy when you found the right person. Now, she knew all couples have to wade through hard stuff in relationships, the only difference between those that stayed together and those that didn't is they didn't let the hard stuff keep their relationship down.
"Stop being an asshole Mark, my relationship with my husband is not any of your concern, maybe you should worry about your own relationship with your girlfriend who is in the hospital in LA right now because she tried to come back to you and she was supposed to be on bed rest."
Sitting up quickly in fear, Mark looks over at Meredith's angry expression, "Oh god.. is she okay? Is the baby okay?"
"As far as I know, but I haven't heard from her or Sadie for over an hour. And Sadie's not family so they're not giving her much so I'm catching the red-eye in an hour to LAX. Now you're either with me, or you're not so what's it going to be?"
[End of flashback]
"Family for Alexandra Grey?"
A young male doctor spoke out to the waiting room.
Quickly, Mark, Meredith and Sadie stood up and scrambled over to where he was, holding their breath in anticipation.
"Her blood pressure skyrocketed in such a short amount of time, that with her pre-eclampsia her body was forced into an epileptic shock. We've put her on a high dose of magnesium sulfate in order to lower her blood pressure and make sure she doesn't have any other seizures. However, if she doesn't respond to treatment in the next few hours, I'm afraid our only option will be an emergency C-section in order to save her life."
"What about the risks to the child, it's too soon for a c-section isn't it?" Meredith croaked in fear as she imagined a 20 week old infant trying to survive. She'd done a neonatal rotation in med school. She knew the odds were stacked against them right now.
Mark stood there trying to listen as the doctor told him just how serious Lexie's condition was. But with how fast his heart was beating, his voice had started to sound farther and farther away. The look of sympathy the doctor gave them after that last question answered any hesitations he may have had about the danger this pregnancy entailed for his Lexie.
"At this point, it's a waiting game, I can tell you the longer the baby stays inside Ms. Grey the safer that child will be, however it's at a risk to her own health."
"Will she be alright, will she be able to recover from all this?" Sadie asked, sitting down as tears welled up in her eyes.
"If her blood pressure increases again, she could have another seizure or worse – a stroke. But we're doing everything we can to monitor both her and the fetus for signs of distress and we're prepared to take action if either one of their conditions worsens. It's extremely important that Ms. Grey remains calm and not brought on any stress whatsoever. We need to put off delivery as close to her due date as possible, she'll be on strict hospital watch and bed rest for the remainder of her pregnancy."
Nodding in understanding Meredith asked the question they were all waiting to ask. "Can we see her?"
"Yes. But she needs to stay calm, so you must not do anything to upset her."
Mark buried his face in his hands trying to will himself to keep calm. Lexie needed him now more than ever. And he would die before ever letting her think she or their baby weren't the most important things in the world to him.
Pausing outside of Lexie's room, Mark debated whether or not he should go inside. What if him just being there upset her? Did she even want him around? He knew Meredith said she was on her way back to Seattle to see him, but he wasn't sure if that was something said in the heat of the moment or if she really was on her way back to him.
His hand rested on the door handle, he leaped back as Meredith stepped out glancing at him curiously probably wondering why he hadn't gone inside yet.
"She would want you in there with her Mark," Meredith said as she walked by him, squeezing his shoulder in a gesture of support before walking away and pulling out her phone in what he assumed was to call Derek to check on the girls.
Walking into her room Mark pulled up a chair beside her bed, holding her hand and watching as she slept peacefully, her hand that had an IV attached to it was resting on top of her belly protectively. She looked so small, and fragile surrounded by all the medical equipment, the squiggly red line come out of the machine next to her was monitoring their baby. Suddenly he watched as her eyes fluttered open, looking around and finally landing on him in confusion.
"How are you feeling?" He asked leaning over to give her a kiss on the forehead.
Pulling back, he notices her squeeze his hand lightly as he sits down next to her.
"Confused. My head doesn't hurt anymore. Are my feet still swollen?"
Lifting up her covers, he looks at her feet feeling for any kind of water retention. He looks back up at her and shakes his head, noticing her sigh of relief as she lays back down against the pillows.
"You had a seizure. Sadie called an ambulance. They put you on a magnesium sulfate drip to try and lower your blood pressure."
"The baby's fine. We got ourselves a fighter here. Just like his momma."
She fell back against the pillow, feeling a tremendous amount of relief as she closed her eyes. She didn't have the energy to do anything but sit back and thank whatever higher power was out there that her baby was okay.
"I'm so glad you're here Mark," Lexie said, looking at him as her eyes started watering.
"Hey, hey no crying Lex. No getting upset. You know there's no where else I'd rather be, baby" Mark responded, kissing away her tears feeling the sadness drip out of her.
Laughing lightly as happiness flowed through her, Lexie tightened her grip on him making an effort to keep herself calm for their baby.
His elbows were on the edge of the bed and he was so close to her she could feel his breath on her face. He was nervous. She could tell by how shallow his breaths were and how tightly he was holding on to her hand. She didn't know how she could make a man like Mark nervous, but it always awed her.
"I love you Lex. I don't know when I fell so deep in love with you. Maybe it was the first time I looked at you across that bar and you spouted off the periodic table of elements from memory for me. Or the first time you came to my hotel room and gave yourself to me. Or maybe it was watching you fight for our child's life. And then fight for my daughter. It doesn't matter. I love you. I'm in love with you. That's all. I hope it's enough for you."
Her heart felt like it was being squeezed in her chest, as she closed her eyes savoring the feeling of his words hitting her.
"I love you too Mark. And you've always been enough for me. More than enough."
The smiled they shared between them was interrupted as their baby rolled around in Lexie's stomach causing her to grab Mark's hand and put it on her stomach in excitement.
The smile that lit up his face was enough to make her heart melt. "Is that?"
"Yeah," Lexie responded knowing what Mark was going to say. "He's moving around in there."
"Well. Yeah. Mother's instinct and all," Lexie mumbled a slight blush taking over her cheeks.
"You'll be a great mom, Lex." Mark mumbled as he kissed her again in reassurance. "We'll be fine. Don't worry about anything."
Nodding in acceptance, she closed her eyes as she felt him sit down beside her again. She knew odds and sciences were against her right now. But science was not the total answer; this was something she learned in her life. And left her with the belief that miracles, no matter how inexplicable or unbelievable, were real and could occur without regard to the natural order of things
And if children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope?
We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up or fight like hell.