"Edward, why didn't you tell me this has been going on?" I looked at my husband with questioning eyes.
"Bella, love, I honestly thought you knew. I assumed you just didn't want that for us."
He looked at me with so much love in his eyes. Edward and I have been blissfully married for ten years. Our daughter Renessme had grown into a beautiful woman. The inevitable had happened and she had married Jake at the tender age of seven, even though physically and mentally she was eighteen.
"Dad, are you telling me Mom had absolutely no clue?" said Nessie as she burst through the door of our cottage with Jake in tow. I groaned. The last thing I wanted was to have this discussion in front of my daughter and son-in-law.
Earlier that day, I had gone to the main house to find Alice. I needed to buy some new clothes and I figured I would just let her order the stuff for me online. As I searched the house I heard an Alice like giggle coming from Carlisle's study. So I bounded up the stairs and walked into the study. That's when I found a very naked Alice riding a very naked Emmett like he was a mechanical bull. I managed to choke out a quick sorry and ran from the room as fast as I could.
I went back to the cottage and Edward immediately knew something was wrong. That's when he explained to me that both Rosalie and Jasper knew and it was okay. He also explained that it wasn't just Alice and Emmett, but the whole family excluding Edward and I, occasionally swapped partners. He said after so many years together and with a family that has no secrets, it was just something that happened and everyone was okay with it.
"Nessie, you knew about this?" I asked in complete shock.
"Yup, and we are totally cool with it." she said grinning at Jake.
I looked from Nessie to Jake and then back to Nessie.
"Ness, please tell me you and Jake haven't..." I was having a hard time processing the thought. "participated?"
Edward looked at me with sympathy in his eyes. Nessie and Jake both blushed.
"Love, I wasn't to thrilled about that either, but remember we all love each other and no one is getting their feelings hurt."
I shook my head.
"I'm going for a run. I just need some time to process all of this." I said and took off for the woods.
While I ran I thought about Edward. Was I enough for him? Yeah, the sex was great and it was like the our first time every time, but was it enough? Did I want more? It was something that had never even crossed my mind. Okay, I can't say never, especially when Emmett decided to run around the house butt naked. He was unbelievably hot. I was lost in my thoughts when I heard someone approaching. I turned to look and immediately Alice was at my side. I looked at her and her tiny frame squeezed me in a bone crushing hug.
"Please, tell me you are not mad or disappointed with me?" she said through pouted lips.
"No," I sighed. "Can you just help me understand?"
Alice looked thoughtful for a moment, as she tried to find the best way to explain.
"For me, it's just something different from what I have with Jasper," Alice said quickly.
I looked down at my toes. Alice grabbed my chin and gave me a quick peck on the lips. I looked at her with shock.
"You know, after Jasper I was with Rosalie first," she said with a smile.
My mind was spinning.
"Do the guys, you know... together" I said shyly.
"We've had threesomes before, but the guys typically don't touch each other, unless you ask them to of course," she giggled. "Carlisle likes to get into the kinky stuff. You know chains and leather kinda stuff."
"I would have never guessed." I said with shock in my voice.
"Look, Bella, you don't have to do anything you are not comfortable with, but if you decide this is something you want, can I make a suggestion?"
"Well since Jasper can control emotions he could help you feel comfortable, and we could be your first partners."
"Thank you Alice. I feel better about the whole situation. I haven't made a decision yet, I still have to talk to Edward," I told her.
"I understand," Alice said and was gone in a blink.
My mind was still spinning as I walked back to the cottage. Could I be comfortable with someone else? Would I be comfortable with Edward being with someone else? The more I thought about it though I realized that it wasn't just anybody. It was people I knew, that I loved and trusted. It was my family. I made up my mind then. I could do this. I sprinted the rest of the way back to the cottage.
Edward was sitting in his leather recliner when I got back.
"Where is Nessie and Jake?" I asked as I made my way over to his lap.
"I heard your thoughts when you got close enough and thought that you might want to discuss this privately. So I sent Ness and Jake back to the house." After our encounter with the Voturi where I stretched my shield to its limit, I found that I could drop my shield for longer periods of time. After a year or so with no other threats to our family, I was able to drop it completely for days at a time. I used the shield repeatedly when Ness and Jake started dating, to keep Edward from ripping off Jakes head. Now I only used it when the family played games, so Edward couldn't cheat.
"Thanks, so what do you think? Is this something that you want too?"
Edward grabbed me and swung me around so I was straddling his lap.
"I want whatever you want, love." he said with a kiss.
All I wanted was to melt into his soft warm lips, but I forced myself to pull away.
"You can't dazzle your way out of this one Edward Cullen!" I snapped. "This is an important decision and I want us to make it together. I want to know how you would feel if we slept with other people?"
"Look, love, while I love having you all to myself, my feeling for you won't change if you decide to sleep with one of my brothers or my sisters for that matter."
I wiggled my hips further up his lap and he let out a soft moan.
I whispered seductively in his ear, "So, if I want Carlisle to handcuff me to the bed and whip my ass with a leather whip, you would be okay with that?"
I could feel the bulge in his pant growing.
"If that is what you wanted love," he said with a husky voice.
"What if I wanted to watch you suck Rosalie's full supple breasts?"
He ground his hips harder to create the friction he wanted.
"I would happily oblige," he smirked.
"I bet you would," I growled into his kiss.