The first bit of this is from my 10 iPod Shuffle Drabbles. Thanks to a lovely review from Janto-Lover, I decided to make this into a story. So, I thank you for the idea to make it into one. You're awesome. When I started writing I had a different idea for the end, but I actually like how this turned out, so yeah...ANYWAY, I will stop rambling now. Enjoy!
Jack felt horrible. He knew he would be breaking Ianto's heart. His own heart was breaking just thinking about what he was going to do. He truly loved him, he did. But he couldn't keep doing this. He couldn't keep being with him. It would hurt too much in the end. He would be left alone again. He made promises…but he couldn't keep them. He knew it then and he knew it now…
He felt sick. He took a deep breath and walked into his office, where Ianto was waiting for him.
"Let me apologize for what I'm about to say…"
The smile that fell off Ianto's face shattered Jack's heart into a million pieces.
"I knew this wouldn't last…I…I guess I was just trying to hold onto it for as long as I could…" Ianto said quietly, trying not to show how broken he was and holding back the tears that were threatening to fall down his cheeks.
"Ianto…you have to understand. It's not that –"
"You don't have to explain anything to me Jack. Like I said, I knew this wouldn't last. I knew this day would come soon enough."
Jack looked down and stayed quiet. He really didn't know what to say now. He had something all planned out, similar to what he had said to others, but it was caught in his throat and he just couldn't get it out.
"I'm so sorry…" Jack got out the only words that he could. Ianto cleared his throat before he spoke again, trying to swallow the lump that was forming.
"I should go," Ianto said, getting up and brushing passed Jack as he headed for the door. Jack stayed quiet and staring at the floor as Ianto left the room. He didn't move until he heard the alarms on the large cog door.
Jack sat heavily in his chair and poured himself some whiskey. He really hated his. He always did. But it really was for the best. It hurt less in the long run. He just hoped Ianto would at least come back to work. Jack still wanted him there and they all still did need him.
Jack finished his drink, sighing as he poured himself another glass. He stared out the large glass window of his office, just letting his emotions overwhelm him. He was alone again, just like he thought he always should be…no matter who he loved.
Well that's the first chapter! Please review! I'd love some feedback on this. Hope you liked it!