"It's Not Right"

Title: It's Not Right

Author: Langleigh

Rating: PG

Category: V, A

Keywords: Yves pov, post-ep for "Jump the Shark"

Spoilers: Jump the Shark, any LGM episode I see fit

Archiving: Ephemeral, Gossamer, Harem of XF Other Women, all other must ask

Disclaimers: The Lone Gunmen, Yves and Jimmy are owned by people who don't really deserve to own them, much to my sorrow.

Summary: Yves's reflections on the death of three friends

Authors Notes: I loved the Lone Gunmen, both as they were on the X-Files and as they were on their own series. They were 3 friends I never thought to care so much about, and tonight, I mourn them as Yves does.

"It's Not Right"

"It's not right," I say, and my voice sounds strange in my ears, distant and removed from where I am.

It wasn't right; they shouldn't have died. But they did, and they died because of me... because of my father.. but mostly because of me and their attachment to me.

One I never should have let them make.

The Lone Gunmen--Melvin Frohike, John Byers, and Richard Langly--were three of the only four friends I've ever really had. I never asked for their friendship, and I never asked to care about them in return. But I did. In the brief time I knew them, I cared for them more than anyone else in the world.

That's why I didn't tell them where I was or what I doing. It was too dangerous... and besides, if anyone was going to stop my father's organization, it ought to be me. Alone.

Only, I didn't count on Jimmy trailing me, or the guys showing up in that hotel. I didn't count of seeing the concern in their eyes when Jimmy begged me to tell Fletcher and FBI that that I hadn't become a murderer. Concern because they cared... cared enough to spend all their money--and Jimmy's--to chase me half way around the world.

I loved them in that moment.

My only regret is that I'll never get the chance to tell them how much.