When people say that they are nervous about the honeymoon, I think that is an understatement. Edward and I had just left that reception and we were on our way to our hotel for the night and I felt as though I had a steamroller on my chest and my heart was beating a mile a minute. I had to get through a two hour drive to Seatle and I couldn't that happening without me throwing up at least once. It didn't help that Edward seemed so at ease, like he wasn't nervous at all.
"Are you okay, Bella?" He asked concerned.
"I'm fine." I said trying to take a deep breath and failing miserably.
"You're not fine."
We were going through some town now and we were stopped at a stoplight, I looked over at him. His face was laced with concern and love and it made my heart skip a beat.
"Forget," I said softly. "its embarrassing."
"I'm not going to forget. You're my wife, and I am not going to let you be unhappy on our wedding day."
"I'm just nervous." I whispered, shutting my eyes.
"Bella." he said lifting my chin. "Look at me." his voice was soft and I couldn't help but obey. "I love you and because I love you, I would be happy to just play cards with you tonight if that helps ease your mind. We don't have to do anything until you are ready."
"You're welcome you silly girl." he said smiling kissing my hand.
When the light turned green we started our journey again. I felt better and was able to relax and laugh. What Edward had said eased my mind and enabled me to be calm and just enjoy this day. It took the unknown pressure off of my shoulders.
When we got into Seatle we pulled up to a high rise hotel. It had to be at least thirty floors and expensive.
Edward must have seen my face because he leaned over and whispered, "Relax."
I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly nodding my head. He took my hand and led me inside. It was even more gorgeous. The hotel had a golden color scheme and it seemed very relaxing.
"May I help you?" the woman at the front desk asked with a smile when we walked up.
"Yes,we have a reservation under Cullen." Edward replied, squeezing my hand.
The receptionist started typing on her computer. "We ave you down for the Honeymoon Suite."
"Correct." Edward smiled at me, his eyes soft. I smiled back at him, leaning my head on his shoulder.
"You in room 2230," she handed Edward the key and smiled. "The bellboy will show you to your room. Enjoy your stay."
"Thank you." Edward said politely before walking toward the elevator where the bellhop was waiting with our bags.
We politely said hello to the bellhop as we walked onto the elevator. The ride was fairly quiet. Every once in a while Edward would squeeze my hand and smile at me, causing me to smile back. When we arrived at our floor the bellhop showed us to our room and opened the door with his master key. When he sat our bags inside he asked us if we wanted anything and we said no. he left quietly and we were finally, truly alone.
"Hi." I whispered as he took my other hand.
"Hi." he replied lowering his head and kissing me softly. He pulled away after a few seconds.
"I love you." I said as he pulled away.
"I love you, too." he tucked some of my hair behind my ear.
The food that I had eaten at our reception almost four hours ago had disintegrated and my stomach growled loudly making Edward laugh.
"Do you want to go out for something to eat or do you want to get room service?" he asked still chuckling.
"Room service." I replied quickly. I didn't want to leave our little bubble.
He ordered the room service and thirty minutes later they were knocking at our door. The persons expression was one of surprise. I guess guess he wasn't used to coming to this room and seeing people fully dressed.
After we had eaten we watched TV and just talked. When I started to yawn he looked at his cell phone.
"Its after 1:30, no wonder you're tired."
I laughed. "No wonder."
"Why don't we got to bed?"
I gathered my stuff for my nightly routine while Edward changed and did his things in the bathroom. I was struggling to get the zipper on the back of my dress when he came out of the bathroom.
"Need help?" he asked.
I turned my back to him, moving my hair so that he could get to the zipper. I felt his fingers at my back, giving me goose bumps. As the zipper was lowered my breathing increased. When his fingers made contact with my back electricity went through me. His fingers were trailing along the skin of my back a lot longer than necessary.
"Thank you." I said when he dropped his hands.
I turned to look at him and saw a look in his eyes that I had rarely ever seen before. Lust.
"I'm going to go change now." I said awkwardly scouting around him. When I got inside the bathroom I leaned against the counter the nerves from earlier returning. Why was I so nervous, it was Edward out there, my best friend and now my husband. I was took deep breaths and calmed myself and changed. I splashed water on my face before exiting the bathroom.
Edward was sitting on the edge of the bed and when he heard me come into the room he lifted his head.
"Hey." he smiled.
"Hey." I said crawling on the bed next to him and lying down.
He laughed and lied down next to me pulling the covers over both of us. I laid my head down on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. I could hear his heart beating fast like mine was at the moment. He was just as nervous as I was. I found comfort in that as I propped myself up on his chest. He looked at me with a questioning expression on his face. It was dark except for the lights and the moon outside and his face was shadowed but I could see clearly the love in his eyes as he looked at me in that moment.
I leaned down and kissed him. His lips were moving with mine in a frenzied pace and I gripped his hair. When his tongue glided across my lips I moaned letting him in. He sat up making me straddle his lap all the while his lips never left mine. I felt the fire in the pit of my stomach grow and all of my nervousness was gone as his lips left mine and trailed down my neck. I took the time to run my hands down the smooth skin of his back. I trailed my fingers across his tattoo.
When he got to my collar bone and he nibbled on the skin there it made me gasp and my thighs clench around his sides.
"Edward." I said leaning my head back to give him more room.
When he pulled away from my skin I looked at him. He was breathing as fast as I was. I ran my finger across his rough jaw. He hadn't shaved tonight and I had to admit I liked the slight stubble.
"Are you sure?" he asked concerned.
I smiled and nodded my head.
That was all he needed as he went back to kissing my lips. He rolled so that I was under him. Soon our tongues and teeth were clashing and I wrapped my legs around his waist. My hands went to his hair and I gripped it. I felt his hands that were under my shoulders start to move along the sides of my breast down my waist and to the bottom of my nightgown. I felt his hands go under the fabric and his hands against my bare skin sent shock waves through me and I kissed him harder.
Soon, his hands started to go up my stomach taking my nightgown with it. When his hands and my nightgown were just under my breast, he pulled back from my lips and looked at me and asking for silent permission to continue.
When I nodded my head he pulled my nightgown over my head and threw it to the floor. When he saw my hands coming to cover myself he grabbed my hands and put them by head on my pillow.
"Don't." was all he said. He looked at me, his eyes were filled with love, lust, and adoration.
He let go of on of my wrist and his hand came to my cheek. I could feel his fingers trembling as he ran fingers back and forth across my jaw. I brought my free hand up to his and held it against my cheek. I knew he could feel my hands trembling on top of his and I squeezed his, letting him know that I felt the same way I did in that moment. Nervous.
I took a heavy breath as he brought his lips back to mine. He let go of both of my hands and brought both of them to my face to cup my cheeks. I put mine on his shoulders.
My legs were still wrapped around his waist and I took my feet and slid them under his pajama pants, careful not to get his boxers, I started to take them down his legs. When I could no longer reach he kicked them off making them disappear somewhere underneath the covers. I pulled my lips from his and trailed them to his jaw. I began to suck and nibble on his jaw, the coarse hairs rough under my lips.
He moaned softly as I took his earlobe in my mouth and sucked on it. I don't know where all this courage was coming from, and I was surprising myself with how forward I was being in that moment, but I didn't care, I didn't want to stop. I felt more connected with him in that moment than I had ever felt. That's the only way I can explain it. He kissed my shoulder before making his way down to my breast his lips leading the way.
"Oh!" I gasped as his lips encased my left nipple. His lips trailed over the taut tip. My hand went to the back of his head to keep him there. After a few minutes he switched breasts and gave me the same treatment to the other side.
My heart was pounding in my chest and my breathing was ragged. I had a hard time keeping my focus. I felt his lips start to go down the center of my chest toward my stomach. He showed me with kisses and when he got to my belly button his tongue dipped inside making me gasp and arch into him. When I felt his lips at the edge of my panties my breathing quickened, which I didn't think was possible. He kissed along the edge before looking up at me. I knew what he was doing, he was asking my permission again and I felt my heart swell, I knew that if I shook my head at this moment he would stop and we would go to sleep, but I didn't want that so I nodded my head taking another deep breath and closing my eyes as I felt his fingers hook onto the edge and start to take them down my legs. I bit my lip as I felt them leave my ankles, I was trying to take a deep breath but it wasn't working. I was a goner and I knew it. I didn't want to stop and I knew if I continued to not be able to breath Edward would stop thinking that I wasn't ready and I definitely didn't want that.
I felt his hand on my cheek, his thumb stroking, coaxing me to open my eyes. When I did I saw his brow furrowed and his eyes questioning.
"I'm fine." I said.
I nodded, "I'm sure."
He leaned down and connected our lips. My hands once again went to my hair and tugged slightly causing Edward to moan. Suddenly I felt his hand at my slit making me inhale my breath sharply through my nose. His finger dipped inside to rub my clitoris and I moaned as I felt the pressure start to build slightly in my belly. I felt his finger dip inside my entrance while his thumb continued to rub me and I moaned loudly against his lips. Sooner than I expected my hands went to claw his back as my walls contracted around his fingers. My head arched back against my pillow as the pleasurable waves went through me.
He continued to rub me while I came down from my high and my breathing went back to normal. My hand went to my hair as I pushed the sweat matted hair off my forehead. When I looked at Edward something snapped in me and my hands flew to his hand and pulled him down to me to me and kissed my roughly. My tongue ran along his lips begging for permission which he gladly gave. Our tongues fought for dominance. His teeth took my bottom lip and nibbled on it. My feet once again went to his waist and found the edge of his boxers and gave them the same treatment as his pajama bottoms and he once again kicked them off when I could no longer reach. I felt his hard member against my thigh. This was it. There was no going back, not that I wanted to.
His hands went to mine and put them back on the pillow by my head. He looked at me and asked, "Are you ready?"
"Yes." I answered breathlessly.
My lips went to his, wanting to be connected in every way possible when he was finally in me.
I felt start to ease himself in and I felt myself stretching. It wasn't painful but it wasn't comfortable either. As he got closer and closer to my barrier I kissed him harder. When he stopped when he reached it we stopped kissing but our lips never left each others. He seemed unsure if I wanted this or not so I nodded my head knowing he'd be able to feel it. He squeezed my hands letting me know he got what I was telling him.
When he thrust through my barrier I gripped his hands hard as my eyes filled with tears. The pain was excruciating, but all of that was lost on me as the realization that he was inside me over whelmed my senses.
He stayed still letting me get used to him and after a while the pain started to ebb. When it was no long pain but just a burn I lifted my hips to his and we both moaned. He dropped his head to my shoulder as he thrust into me again. My hands went around his shoulders as we found a rhythm. Soon he was panting and I knew he was closer than I was and I wanted him to let go.
"Let go." I whispered in his ear and that's exactly what he did.
He groaned seating himself fully inside me as he came. He collapsed on top of me breathing heavily. His head on my chest. I ran my hands through his sweat soaked hair as we regained our breathing. His lips were slowly kissing up my neck.
He propped himself up on his arms above me. His eyes were relaxed as he looked at me. I smiled up at him. He kissed softly. He pushed my hair back from my face.
"Hi." he whispered smiling down at me.
"Hi." I smiled back at him. "That was nothing like I thought it would be."
"You're talking like I'm done with you." he whispered kissing up my jaw.
I swallowed thickly feeling tingles in my belly. "You're not?"
"Nope. I'm not done until you come again."
I started laughing as he tickled my sides.
We were both breathing heavily. Edward's hands were on the headboard for leverage while mine were gripping the sheets for dear life.
"God, it didn't feel like this the first time." I said throwing my lag around his waist to take him in deeper.
His reply was to thrust harder into me. I moaned my toes curling and my hands practically ripping the sheets apart. I had a feeling by the time this was over with I would rip them to shreds.
His next thrust hit a particularly sensitive spot and I came undone. My head was thrown back with silent cries as my leg tightened around him. I contracted tightly around him again and again. He kept his rhythm and before long he shuddered above me with his release.
"Bella." he ground out collapsing on top of me once again.
Our breathing was heavy and our hearts were pounding.
"I love you." I whispered once I caught my breath.
"I love you, too." he replied pulling out of me and rolling over on his back taking me with him.
I laid my head on his chest listening to his heartbeat and before I knew it I drifted off to sleep.
The next morning I woke to see Edward standing next to the bed pulling on his pajama pants.
"Come back." I said, reaching my hand out to him.
He turned to me and smiled. "I wish I could, but there is someone at the door."
"Why?" I was able to scout over to over far enough to grab his arm and pull him on top of me.
"I ordered room service to be delivered at nine so we wouldn't miss our flight."
"Stupid plane." I mumbled leaning up to capture his lips with mine.
We were broken apart by another knock at the door.
"I better go get it." Edward got off the bed and exited the bedroom closing the door behind him. I heard him open the main door and the voice of another man. Edward reappeared not two minutes later informing me that we were alone once again.
"What time does our flight leave?" I asked him, as his lips were ravishing my neck.
"Eleven." he mumbled against my skin.
"Then we should probably eat the breakfast that's out there and get ready so we don't miss our flight." I pushed him off of me. I wrapped the sheet around me and got off the bed and found my nightgown. Dropping the sheet I pulled it over my head.
Once I was decent I turned back to Edward.
"I like this new side of you." he said his voice husky as he got off the bed and walked towards me. His lips crashed against mine making me gasp. His hands were gripping my waist and gripped his arms.
"Edward," I breathed as he showered my face with kisses. "You're making me the responsible one in this situation. That's so backwards."
He groaned and pulled away. "You're right." he pulled away. "Breakfast time."
We ate quickly and showered (separately) and were checked out in less than an hour.
"So, where exactly are we going?" I asked when we were on our way to the airport.
"Nosy." he chuckled.
"I'm not nosy, I'm just curious. Its my honeymoon, too."
"Fine. We're going to England." he sighed.
"Seriously?" I asked excitedly. He knew that I had always wanted to go there and for him to have planned this was so sweet.
"Yes. I know its your dream."
"I love you." I smiled, taking his free hand.
He lifted my hand to his mouth and kissed it.
The ride to the airport was quiet after that. I was trying to keep my eyes open. I was exhausted and when I thought of the reason I was so exhausted I blushed. The memories of last night flooded my head and I smiled and bit my lip.
"What?" he asked when he noticed my face.
"Just thinking." I said.
"Last night." I smiled some more.
"Oh." I could hear the smile in his voice as he squeezed my hand.
When we got to the airport. It seemed like whirlwind, I don't remember half of it. I just remember getting on the plane and that's it. Once we were off the ground I finally let myself give into my heavy lids.