*Here is the sequel to Forbidden.. I hope you enjoy it.
I hate when you think you have your entire life planned out and then that one thing happens to change everything. You think you have everything and then you have nothing. Your whole life gone in an instance. Everything you've ever known gone and you're alone. How do you even come back from that? Can you even come back from that is the question. I'm going to try to come back from that. I have to try to come back from it. I can't keep living my life unhappily. I need to move on and realize it's over and nothing is going to change.
It was Thanksgiving and I was visiting my parents in West Newbury like I do every year on Thanksgiving. It's what I look forward to. I don't see them as much as I like so I try to make it to see them when I can. I'm a workaholic and I usually put my job in front of everything else. I don't have to lie about that. It's what I do. I love being a wrestler and I put my heart and soul into my career. Maybe that's where everything went wrong. I don't know but I know I was dealt some cards in life that I didn't deserve. It's been a tough year for me but I do have a little sunshine shining through. It's just tough as I look out the window and see her. I see her with her boyfriend; the man who took away my life, I hate him with a passion. I see him living the life I should be living with her. She looks happy as she walks with him and their son. He should have been my son, that should have been my life. It hurts me so much to see this sight. She keeps looking back at the house so I guess she's thinking about me just like I'm thinking about her. I would talk to her but it's just not a good idea. She seems happy and as long as she's happy that's all that matters. I love her enough to let her be happy with someone else.
Tessa Montgomery; my former best friend and my ex-girlfriend. I had it all with her. I met her when I was just 7 years old and she was 5 years old. She moved in next door to my family and I befriended her right away. She was so cute with her big glasses, stringy hair and her homely look. She was probably the biggest dork that I knew but she was my best friend. We spent everyday together. We played outside and I used to always threaten to beat her up but I would never do that. It was just fun to see her run away when I tried. I would never hit a girl. It's just not in me. We had sleepovers, we went swimming on hot summer days, built snowmen in blizzard filled winters, picked apples from the apple tree down the street on fall days and had campouts on spring days. I protected her from the bullies on the bus. I wanted to be her knight in shining armor. Obviously at 7 I didn't have a crush on her but she was the only girl to me that didn't have cooties. She was clumsy and she was smart. She was a teacher's pet but she was my best friend.
In middle school she had it just as rough as she did in elementary school. I felt bad for her because no one knew her like I did. She just didn't fit in with the other girls and that's what I liked about her. She wasn't like everyone else. She was Tessa Montgomery. I think it was the end of middle school that I started to see her as more than a friend but I knew she would NEVER be interested in me.
In high school I was the big football star and you'd be surprised at how many girls would throw themselves at me. I fazed them and went out on dates with them but it wasn't anything serious. I had one serious girlfriend in high school but we ended up breaking up because I couldn't get over my feelings for Tessa. She had no idea how I felt about her and to be honest I wasn't sure how she felt about me. She always said I was like the brother she never had so maybe it was a little creepy for me to have feelings for her but I couldn't help it. I did. I loved her so much. I used to always make fun of her for staying home on Friday nights to study but one Friday night I had a party and I invited her. She didn't say no so she showed up. It was one wild party. There was alcohol, sex and smoking. My house got trashed but Tessa was nice enough to stay and help me clean up afterward. That was the first night that changed my life. Once we got everything back to normal we went out to the trash cans to throw away all the trash we cleaned up. I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore and said, "Montgomery, what's your deal?"
"What are you talking about?" She asked.
"You're always so quiet and you never want to be social but tonight you were the social butterfly."
"I don't know," she said. "I guess my comfort zone and I couldn't let you host a party by yourself."
"And why not?" I asked her with a smile. She looked so beautiful without her glasses and those deep blue eyes were mesmerizing.
"Because if it weren't for me would you have gotten your house back to normal?"
"Probably not," I said. "But I mean you never want to go to parties with me and you never want to have fun. You just sit at home and study. Why? You're only young once, Montgomery. I think you should live a little."
"I don't know. I just don't like to be that girl," she said.
"What girl?" I asked. I had no idea what she was talking about.
"The girl everyone talks about. The one that they say doesn't deserve you. I see how people look at us when we talk. Let's face it, Cena. I am a nerd. And nerds don't have friends like you."
"Why do you care what people think? I don't care what people think about me. If I want to hang out with my best friend Tessa Montgomery I'm going to hang out with my best friend. I don't care what they think. And besides maybe I like you as a nerd," I said with a smile.
"No one likes the nerdy girl," she said.
"I think I can prove that fact wrong," I said, "because I do," I said as I leaned down and softly kissed her lips. I dropped the trash bag I was holding and wrapped my arms around her waist as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I had wanted to kiss her for so long and I had dreamed about kissing her and it was everything I thought it would be.
After that we began going out and I finally got the one girl that I truly loved. We dated the rest of my senior year and when I went to Springfield college I continued to date her. When she graduated from high school as the valedictorian she went to Notre Dame but I still continued to go out with her. We made it work and while she was still in college I started looking at being a wrestler as a career. I trained and worked my ass off while Tessa was in college so when she was out looking to be a journalist or do something with writing I had my big moment. I got into OVW and Tessa stood by my side. It was a tough time for us but we managed and then I hit the big time with WWE and Tessa was miserable because she wanted to work so I talked them into giving her a job on the creative team. They called it a risky move but they hired her anyway. In the end they made the right choice because Tessa took my character to new heights and she worked with a lot of superstars to take their characters to new heights.
I will never forget the day we had the draft for the company and the one man I truly despised made it to the RAW roster; Dave Batista. He is a horrible man. He has no respect for anyone; not women, not the business, not his co-workers and not his bosses. He was a delinquent in my eyes. I knew that once he was on RAW there was going to be nothing but problems. This also got Tessa in an uproar because she felt the exact same way about Batista as I had. She didn't like him. I tried to make her feel better about it but there was no doing it. She felt the same way. She knew it was going to be nothing but trouble and then it happened. She was assigned to work with Dave Batista on character development. She didn't want to do it and personally I didn't want her to do it but she had to. It was her job. It was only a job right? That's what I thought too until everything changed.
Tessa began to stay out all night claiming she was with her friends. I bought it and I don't' know why I was so stupid about it but I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt. I was hearing things about how close Dave and Tessa were getting and it came to her actually defending this guy. I didn't know what to think of it. At this same time Tessa and me were starting to fight because after being together for 16 years I thought we should get married and settle down and have a family. I just wanted one baby with her that was it. I was willing to quit my job and stay home with it but she didn't' want marriage and she didn't want a baby. We fought about it ALL the time. I guess she got tired of fighting about it and she gave in to having a baby but not marriage. We began trying but she was still going out with her friends all the time. She was never with me at night. I should have suspected something but I didn't. The more she was gone the more I hated Batista. I wasn't sure why I hated Batista so much but the more she was gone this underlying hatred for him increased. Maybe that was a sign to me and I should have read into it more but I didn't. Maybe I knew there was something between them but I didn't want to believe it. Even my best friend Randy kept trying to tell me something wasn't right with Tessa and Batista but I didn't' want to listen. That was my problem. I didn't want to listen. I thought Tessa and me were doing all right especially after she announced to me that she was pregnant.
Knowing I was going to be a father was one of the greatest joys of my life. I was so excited. My entire life was about to change (but not in the way that I thought). My life was starting to make sense and I was truly the happiest I had ever been. I wanted to be a father more than anything in my life and I was willing to do whatever it took to be a father. Then in an instance my entire life came crashing down around me and I learned it was all a big lie. I was in the middle of a match with my enemy, Dave Batista, it was a pretty intense match but it got even more intense as he said to me, "Ever wonder where your girlfriend is at night? She's with me asshole. I'm the baby's father." I suddenly filled up with rage and lost all control. I blacked out and just started beating this guy around. I wasn't even aware of the damage I caused until I was backstage and saw blood pouring from the guy's head. I couldn't address the Tessa and Dave affair in private. I let it all out in front of my bosses, Tessa's bosses and the superstars. I didn't care who heard me. I was pissed and I felt like a fool. She made a fool out of me. For someone that claimed they hated Dave Batista she wasted no time opening her legs for him. I saw her as nothing more than a slut but I didn't believe for one second that child was Dave Batista's.
Needless to say after that fight I was suspended, Dave was suspended and Tessa was fired. She probably didn't deserve to get fired but she broke the rules. She slept with Batista. It was what it was. Not only did she lose her job but she lost me. I couldn't be with someone that could sleep with someone else. I know I'm not innocent because there were times I cheated on Tessa but she never knew about it but I could not be with her after that. I still love her but I can't be with her. I still held out hope that the baby was mine but it wasn't. We had two paternity tests done on him. One while she was pregnant and Dave came back as the father but I didn't want to believe it so we had another one after he was born and Dave came back as the father. My life was changed forever and that's how I came to have nothing and lost everything I had after 16 years. I thought Tessa and me had it all but obviously we didn't. Till this day I do not understand why she cheated on me and why she hurt me so badly when all I wanted to do was love her.
I see them walking back down the street now. I can't deny that Tessa and Dave have the cutest little guy in the world. I just wish it would be me. I can't stop looking out the window until my mom startles me and says, "John, what are you doing?"
"Nothing," I say quickly moving away from the window.
"Tessa and Dave?" she asked.
"Yeah," I say sadly. "It still hurts."
"I'm sure it does. You and Tessa were together for 16 years. You two have a lot of history and then you found out she wasn't who you thought she was. She's a monster, John. You deserve better than that. Let him have her. You can do better."
"I thought you loved her, Mom?" I ask.
"I did but then she hurt you. After she hurt you I lost all respect for her."
"I see," I say. "I just don't think I can move on from this mom. It's been a year and I can't move on. I still love her."
"You can't move on or you don't want to move on?"
"I can't, Mom. It's hard. I still love her. How do you just stop loving someone after 16 years?"
"I know it's hard, John, but you deserve to be happy and the only way you can be happy is by moving on."
"I can try to move on but I can't promise anything," I say. As much as I knew I should move on I just couldn't do it. I love Tessa way too much and I don't think I will ever be able to move on.
"Let's look at it this way," she says, "she moved on. She's with this Dave guy and I heard from Kate that they got married so they are husband and wife."
"They're married?" I ask. That is news to me. I never expected Tessa to get married. She didn't want to marry me but she could marry that animal? I just didn't' get it.
"Yes," she says, "and apparently she's pregnant again."
"What the hell? How does this asshole get the life I was supposed to have?"
"John, did you ever stop to think that maybe that wasn't the life you were supposed to have?"
"I don't know," I say. "Married and pregnant?"
"Married and Pregnant. John, if Tessa is happy you deserve to be happy. Go out and find someone better and find someone that's going to love you and not hurt you. You're a good looking boy. You can have any woman that you want. Use that to your advantage."
"I would but I have a girl in mind. I know the perfect girl."
"There's a girl?" she asks me.
"There is someone I am interested in. I just haven't gotten the nerve to ask her out yet but I think I will."
"You do that. You should be happy."
"You're right," I say. She was right. If Tessa could be happy then I should be happy. If Tessa could move on, get married and get pregnant again. I could do the same thing. I knew the perfect girl the new trainer for WWE. She was absolutely beautiful with tan skin, brown curly hair and dark brown eyes. I usually see her when I'm getting taped up for a match but other than that I don't really go to see her. Maybe this upcoming RAW I could make a visit to see her, maybe ask her out. I don't know.. I just want to be happy.
*A/N: So what do you think? Is it a keeper or no? Please review and thank-you for reading.