Emails Edwards POV
Hey guys, sorry it has been so long but I've been really busy with school, family and friends, and boyfriend. I will try to update on Midnight Sun at least once a week. And I have decided that I will be doing all the Twilight books in Edwards POV .I hope you like Edward's POV of Emails .
I sighed as I stared out the wall facing the river. Alice had claimed Bella for her own today so I was bored at home until Alice got back and I could go over to my Bella's house. I smiled slightly at the thought of seeing her beautiful smiling face and rose colored cheeks. I can't believe that Alice is keeping her hostage until it is the usual time that I sneak through her window.
It has been torture stuck in this house with Jasper and Emmett fighting all day and Esme and Rosalie trying to break them up. I glanced at the clock for what felt to be the millionth time today and perked up slightly when I saw the time. It was nine-thirty and I knew that Alice would be home in about thirty minutes. I slowly sat on my leather couch and calmed slightly knowing that I could see my Bella soon.
I allowed myself to be lost in my thoughts of her and before I knew it I heard Alice's thoughts coming through the woods. "I need to stop thinking about what happened because Edward can hear me…oh crap...La la la la la…" I gave up on listening because I knew she would keep doing that but apparently something happened while she was at Bella's and I was determined to find out what.
I was ready for Alice when she ran in the back door, "Hey, Sis, how was your visit with Bella?" I asked her with innocence.
"Good "she replied out loud but her thoughts said otherwise, "I still cannot believe she wrote all those emails"; before she could block her thoughts I saw an email with Alice's name at the top and words filled with extreme pain and depression.
When I came out of the shock I stared at Alice with the obvious question in my mind, "what was that?"my face read.
Alice sighed and shook her head, "She asked me to check her email and I said ok but I was being nosey and after I got through checking her new email I went through her old sent emails and there were tons of emails that were never able to be sent because she didn't have the receivers email address. When I opened one of them I saw my name at the top and when I checked the time stamp they were all sent while we were gone. Edward, they had all her thoughts in them from when you left her. I never knew she was that broken from her own words."
I stared at my sister as her words sank in. I couldn't believe Bella hid this kind of thing from me. I'm not mad but I wish that she had told me because I could've tried harder to convince her that I am NEVER leaving her again. She means the universe to me I could never give her up.
"I need to go talk to her."I murmured softly to my sister.
She nodded, "Yes you do. Convince her how much you love her. Edward, get her to let you read the emails so you can understand; you both need to completely heal together." She said as she placed a comforting hand on my shoulder.
I nodded and was out of the back door as fast as my legs would carry me. I was in front of her window in less than five minutes and I quickly jumped through the open window and found her sitting on her bed watching the window.
I sighed, "Hey," I whispered just loud enough for her to hear.
She smiled sadly, "Hi…did Alice tell you?" she asked as if she was the one who could read minds.
I nodded silently and she stood from her spot on the bed and took a step closer, "I'm so sorry, Edward. I had totally forgotten about them that's why I didn't tell you." She explained quickly.
When I saw how she was wringing her hands and I realized that she as scared that I was angry with her I ran and enveloped her in my arms, "My Bella, I'm in no way, shape, or form angry with you."I whispered into her hair.
She sighed out of relief, "Good, I was so worried that you would be," she whispered against my chest.
I chuckled softly, "No, Bella, I could never get angry at you for expressing your hurt; although I am angry with myself for causing that hurt." I said with affection clouding my voice and features.
She shook her head harshly and pulled back slightly so that I could see her beautiful face, "Please, Edward, we have already had this discussion; it wasn't your fault." She said strongly.
I nodded and continued, "I'll take your word for it, Bella. Anyhow, I would like to read all the emails in order so that I can understand better and so that we can comfort and heal each other."
She sighed before nodding her head slowly and I kissed her forehead before I sat in her computer chair and she sat on my lap and pulled up her email account. I kissed her neck as she found the emails to insure that she knew it would be okay. That night was spent reading the emails quietly and when the last one was read I felt as if my heart had been torn out of my chest. I picked Bella up and carried her to her bed. We both curled up together and I sobbed as she started to cry. We cried together for about an hour before I calmed down and I started to stroke her hair back away from her face.
After she finished her crying we just lay together and after a few moments her eyes started to droop. I kissed her softly on the lips and she breathed out an, "I love you," before her eyes closed completely. I smiled slightly, "I love you too, My Beautiful Bella," I whispered softly. She smiled and snuggled closer to me.
I watched as she slept and smiled as I thought about the fact that we are both completely healed and we did it together. We said very little but we could see what we needed to see in each other's eyes. We were healed.