My hands grasped the steering wheel a bit too tightly as I drove really slow to the vampire bar. Even with Eric in the side of the car and the tension almost overwhelming, I was in no rush to get to Fangtasia. Being there would mean being in the same building as Eric and Pam… at the same time. I didn't particularly think that was a good idea right now. I mean, I was still confused about what had happened. I had never thought of Pam, or any woman for that matter, that way. I liked men, that's just the way it was. Or was it? I risked a glance from the corner of my eye to the massive Viking vampire sitting in my passenger seat and felt the familiar twist of my stomach and tightening of my, well, my private area. My eyes darted back to the road but I think he saw me looking because there was a slight pull in the corner of his mouth as if he were amused. Yes, I definitely still liked men.
"How was she?" His voice startled me.
"Um, what?" Brilliant, just brilliant. Maybe I could manage more than a word and a half next time.
"Pam. At first you felt, scared, and then…" His voice trailed off but I could have finished the rest. I could have, but I didn't. Actually, I didn't speak at all. So much for saying two words or more.
Eric was silent for a while, too, which surprised me. I slowed the car down even more and got honked at and passed several times. That was fine with me. I'd deal with this tension a thousand times before I had to deal with Eric and Pam at the same time even once. Again I felt the natural blush flood my face. If Eric had felt what I had with Pam, then Bill did too. I shouldn't worry about what Bill knew, but it was a bit embarrassing. I was never going to live this down.
"You're driving slow tonight, Sookie." The way he said my name had my breath caught in my throat. His voice was low and seductive. Well hell, like I hadn't had enough sexual confusion for one night.
"I'm stalling." Might as well go with the truth.
"Why?" From the corner of my eye I could see that he was looking at me. My grip tightened and I tried to focus on the road.
"I don't want to deal with you and Pam in the same room." Again, honesty. There was no use in lying, he could probably feel that I was anxious.
His lips pulled into another smirk. He was amused. Stupid vampire. My confusion would make him happy. It was just like the vampire. One of these days I was going to drive a stake through his unbeating heart… You know, if I could ever bring myself to destroy something that beautiful.
"Pam crossed a line." He wasn't smiling anymore, not that I was looking. I could hear it in his voice. I pulled into the parking lot, unable to prolong the drive anymore.
"I agree," I blurted, not realizing what I was saying. I did like what had happened with Pam at the time, but when I thought about it, it just didn't feel like me. Maybe it was one of those in-the-moment things. I don't know. But given the option of Pam or Eric, I'd definitely go for the big hunk of blond Viking sitting next to me.
I turned the car off and got out, not wanting to be in the same seat that Pam had just… well, you know. Eric did the same but walked around to the driver's side and practically pushed me up against the car, caging me in with his arms. What the hell was I doing? Well, I guess Eric was the one doing something. But still, it was awkward. I wasn't used to going from one guy, or in this case girl, to the next guy.. Not until lately anyway. It seemed like it was always something, or someone. Sam had showed interest right after Bill and the just sort of decided he didn't like me I guess, which was fine. Then there were Eric and Alcide. Now Pam? No. I had to cut out some of these relationships. For. Good.
"Can… we not…?" The breath was taken away from me again, but that hadn't seemed to register in Eric's head. He frowned.
"Do you prefer Pam?"
"Bill?" Why did he bring Bill up?
"I'm. No. I… I'm not with Bill."
"Then what's the damn problem?"
I blinked. I had to think about that. There was this incredibly attractive vampire standing right in front of me, now a foot away with his arms crossed because he was obviously not having a good time right now, and I was stopping him from getting any closer to me. Okay, well part of it was because of everything that had just happened with Pam. But part of it was because I really wasn't sure about Eric. I liked the guy, but I didn't know how much he liked me. Most of the time I thought he just wanted in my pants. Right now I wasn't so sure. Something in his eyes just made me wonder why he'd be so mad if he just wanted to get me in bed.
"Can we go inside?" My voice came out softer than I intended.
"A few minutes ago you were doing everything to prevent going inside."
"I don't like talking behind your bar."
He rolled his eyes but gestured for me to lead the way in. I opened the door and started walking down the hallway, intending to go to the main room where all of the customers were, but Eric pulled me into his office.
"Pam, leave." His voice was tough again and the woman who had been waiting in the office slinked out with a glare at her Maker.
"I've never seen Pam look at you like that."
"She'll get over it." He shut the door and motioned for me to sit down, so I did.
"So… what did you want to talk about? You know, before…"
"I wanna know."
Eric shook his head. "You're so impossible, Sookie. What do you want from me?" He towered over me now, leaning against his desk, and I had to take a deep breath before I could speak.
"I don't know what you mean."
"You think guys are just supposed to watch something like what you did and-"
"Pam did it."
"Right." He breathed out unnecessarily. It was kind of creepy when he did that.
Then it was silent for a minute. I shifted awkwardly in my seat and looked around the office. It was the same as ever, but the tension filled up the room. It was almost suffocating. I realized that if someone didn't start asking and answering questions we were going to remain this way forever, or as long as his interest lasted. That was another thing that scared me.
"I don't know what you want." I guess I sort of reversed his question, but it was true. I think he noticed my wording because he actually blinked a few times and he didn't answer right away. And when he did answer, it wasn't with words. I was practically yanked out of my chair. The next thing I knew I was wrapped in strong arms and pressed up against a wall. My head was fuzzy and I couldn't get my brain to work right. I was running completely on instinct. My arms found their way around his shoulders and he lifted me up so I could wrap my legs around him. It was about that time that I really wished there was a bed in the office instead of the standard vampire travel coffin.
It didn't matter though, because I had just gotten Eric's pants unbuttoned and my shorts somehow off and there was a knock on the door. Eric whispered "Ignore it" in my ear and moved his lips to my neck, but when I looked at the door there were now two vampires standing in the doorway. An angry looking King Bill and the ever blond pastel-wearing Pam. I hit my head against the wall and then everything went black.
… tbc …