Rating: M- For lemons (lots of them), language and situations. So this means if you're under 16 please be responsible for yourself.
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer is the sole owner of the world of Twilight. I am just having a little harmless fun with her characters.
Want to give a shout out to my amazing beta's Amanda & Christy. You gals rock! This outtake was inspired by a few visions I had of Bella and her interactions with her daughter. I know, I know, I probably shouldn't say anything about visions. I might have to admit myself…LOL... The song I used is actually my youngest daughter's song. It came out the year she was born and in one of my lowest times, when I was feeling overwhelmed with life I heard it on the radio and looked over at her sleeping figure and at that moment she opened her eyes and smiled at me and I realized as I listened to the words that a) everything would work out as it should and b) she was truly a gift from God.
This outtake takes place 10 years after the epilogue of TMH during Lady B's high school graduation.
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see, she was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe in my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer, I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light, it's in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave, maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy she made me
For I'll be there in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes by Martina McBride
Outtake: Brett Ashley Cullen
"Robbie, where are you taking her?" I ask my son, suspicious immediately. That boy has way too much of me in him to trust completely.
He gives me that smile, that same damn smile his father has, the one he knows works every single time. He leans down and kisses me softly on the forehead. He is definitely up to no good.
"Mom. You worry way too much."
I arch my brow at him and he steps back laughing.
"Kris will be there too. You know she won't let me get into too much trouble."
"Mom, we are just going to listen to a band play. I'm not going to do anything. Don't you trust me?" Lady B says with a pout.
"You I trust, your brother not so much."
Robbie throws his hands against his chest, mocking a chest wound and I can't help but laugh at his theatrics. That boy is nuts sometimes. He had decided his senior year in high school that he didn't want to go to college and wanted to pursue music full time. Granted he does play very well, both piano and guitar, but I was pissed nonetheless. I think I quit talking to him for a good 3 days before I couldn't stand it anymore and gave him my blessing. Not that he really needed it but I know he wanted it. So last year after graduation he moved to Los Angeles to pursue music. He had told us he wanted to do it all on his own but neither Edward nor I were having any of that. So we followed him down there, found a place NOT in the ghetto or gang territory and signed a one year lease on a nice loft. He bitched and complained that it was in Pasadena and not the 'heart of LA' but I told him that Pasadena was as close to LA as he was getting and if he acted up I was gonna cancel that lease and make him move to Cucamonga instead. Heart of LA my ass. Not gonna happen! So Edward and I furnished it and gave him some money, well technically we put money in his checking account every month. There's no way in hell my son is gonna starve trying to become an artist. Robbie had protested profusely but we wouldn't take no for an answer. Edward had simply explained to him that his father had done that for him and that he would just need to accept it or we would drag him back to Seattle, kicking and screaming if necessary. He had looked at our serious expressions and knew without a doubt that we would do it. It took him 3-4 months to finally get some gigs lined up and wouldn't you know it, six months after moving to LA Robbie met Kris at a show he was doing in downtown and they hit it off immediately. By the end of the weekend he was in love and she was living with him. Yeah, déjà mother fucking vu. She is very nice though and quiet but more importantly she makes him happy. They are both up here for Lady B's high school graduation.
"Earth to mom." Lady B says to me and when I look her way she begins begging me, "Please mom. Can I go? Please, Please, Please…"
"Fine, but absolutely NO DRINKING! For any of you." I say indignant.
Robbie again laughs, "Mom, we know. Every time we go out you say the same thing." He then stands tall and gets a serious expression on his face, cocking his brow and placing his hand on his hip. Mocking me, he says, "You know that I'm an addict and that means that you carry that within you as well. You cannot drink because you will most likely become a drunk quicker than your friends. I know it seems fun at the time but it's not. Drinking nearly ruined my life and I won't have that happen to my children."
I stare at him while Lady B and Kris giggle. Do I really sound like that? Probably but fuck it, it's true. Lady B has never had a drink but Robbie. I swear that boy tested my patience. Did I mention that he is a lot like me, stubborn, pig headed and mouthy? He challenged everything. It was always about why? Why not? Why do we have to do it that way? Why can't you let me make my own mistakes? Why don't you trust me? Why, why, why… Thank God Edward is so damn calm because he often served as a go between during Robbie's adolescence or else Lady B would have probably been an only child. Oh, don't get me wrong, Robbie is a great kid. He is so damn smart, smarter than most of the teachers at his school. He taught himself how to play piano when he was 10 and guitar when he was 12. But sometimes being smart just got him in trouble, well that and the fact that he has a quick temper. Another fine feature he got from me. He played around with drinking during high school much to my dismay but thankfully never got addicted. Thank God he didn't inherit THAT wonderful trait of mine. I put my head down and take a deep breath and then feel myself being lifted off of the ground in a huge bear hug and being spun in a circle.
"Mom… I love you but you need to stop freaking out all the time. There is no way in hell I am going to let anything bad happen to my little sister. Besides, Danny and Carter and the rest of the gang are going to be there as well. And you know they will all look out for her too. She will be safe. I promise." He says setting me down.
All I can do is nod, "Alright, alright. I mean it Robbie, if something happens to her."
"Nothing will happen, mom." He says quickly cutting me off. "When's dad gonna be home?"
"He has a night class so not until around 10:30"
"I thought he didn't like night classes. Doesn't being acting Dean give him some kind of special privileges?" He says rolling his eyes as he plops down on the loveseat, motioning for Kris to join him. She giggles as she sits on his lap, snuggling up next to him.
I smile as I watch them, thinking how much they remind me of Edward and me. I sit down across from them, "Well yes, he generally gets to choose which classes he wants but in this case the teacher that was supposed to teach the class couldn't do it at the last minute and he wasn't able to find a replacement quick enough so he had to teach it."
"Hmm, I guess that makes sense." He smiles and then looks at Kris with mischief in his eyes, "Let's got to UW, they have a cool library near my dad's office that I want to show you then we can stop in and see my dad before coming back to get B." She smiles and nods at him.
I nearly choke when he mentions going to the Allen. He loved that place when he was younger, both him and B could always be found in there. Of course the library doesn't mean the same thing to him as it does to me and Edward, well, it better not. But damn just hearing him say he wants to take Kris there makes my whole body tingle thinking about all of the wonderful times Edward and I have had there. God I love that library!
"We'll pick you up at 7:00 Lady B so be ready!" He says winking at her, knowing her propensity for taking forever to get ready for anything. He kisses Kris on the forehead and then lifts her up and off of him much to her delight. They are both giggling and whispering to each other as they walk towards the front door.
"I'll be ready." She says frowning at his retreating figure and then skips upstairs.
I smile and walk into the kitchen to start putting things together for dinner. About an hour or so later I hear all kinds of racket upstairs and go up to see what the hell is going on. When I step inside of Lady B's room she is sitting in the corner crying and there are clothes strewn all over the damn place. I maneuver around the chaos and sit against the wall next to her.
"What's going on B?"
She glances over at me. "I didn't know anyone else was going to be there. I have nothing to wear and I need to look nice. I just…" She puts her head down, crying some more.
"Well, I think the clothes we can work out." I say standing up and reaching my hand out to her.
She takes it and we walk into mine and Edward's bedroom. Now, Edward and I have a fucking awesome bedroom. This was the only room we actually redesigned before we moved in. It takes up half of the upstairs but fuck it I wanted it a certain way. We have a large four post king bed because, well, it was necessary and at the end of the bed is a padded bench that basically houses all of our toys. Plus hell, it's perfect for certain positions. I smile remembering one of the times I had him laying down on it with his arms and legs tied to the posts.
I stare down at my beautiful husband all sweaty and out of breath. We have been going at it for hours already. The kids are gone tonight and we are taking full advantage of the privacy. We have already fucked against his bookcase, in the shower, on the bed, on our deck, on the stairs and I now have him tied to our bench. His eyes are closed as I tap both of his overly sensitive nipples with my crop. His mouth parts as he lets out a breathy gasp. I smile and do it again and then lean down to swirl my tongue around first one then the other nipple. He is whimpering and I feel his cock start to come to life. He slowly opens his eyes and they are dark with lust. Out of all my toys he likes my riding crop the best. In fact he was the one that pulled it out today, giving me that sexy smirk of his. I was sort of surprised he had the energy left after our sex marathon to want to be tied up as well but fuck it, I am never gonna turn down a bondage & toy request.
"You like that don't you baby?" I say as I tap his nipples again with the crop.
"Oh God… Yes, oh Yes… I like it." He whimpers and I do it a few more times and then snap the crop against his thighs as he arches his hips up, wanting more, needing more.
"Do you want more Edward?" I ask, leaning down and running my tongue across the head of his cock.
"More… Please… Baby, More." He says panting, writhing and bucking wildly.
I grin and hit him softly right along the sensitive skin leading to his ass and then scrape the tip of my crop up his shaft. His eyebrows scrunch together and he starts getting that glassy look in his eyes as his cock bobs in anticipation. He then starts doing that cry moan thing that always sets me on fire and I feel my own pulse quickening. He closes eyes tightly as I quickly tap the crop against his balls, then the base of his cock and then his head. He has started mumbling incoherently as he pants and groans. I can see he is so ready. He isn't going to last very much longer.
"Oh Fuck baby…" I say straddling his pulsing cock. "Baby, open your eyes and look at me."
He opens his hooded eyes and his mouth parts as I take the crop and snap it at my clit a couple of times, moaning as the sensation sends me closer and closer to the edge. Just a little bit more. I snap it again right between his balls and ass and then scrape it across his balls which sends him flying over the edge. Oh My! His cock is pulsing within me and his body is tensed and rigid as I snap it against where our bodies are joined. His whole body convulses as does mine, I continue to tap us there a few more times as we ride out our orgasms, our screams of ecstasy echoing in the room. When I finally feel his cock stop twitching inside of me I drop the crop and lay my head against his chest while I try to control my own breathing. Oh man, we are so not going to be functional at Frankie's party tomorrow, hell I doubt either of us will be able to get out of bed. I kiss him lightly on his chest looking up at the almost drunk look on his face. Man, I am going to be lucky if I can get him in bed. I smile and slowly separate from him, kneeling to untie his binds.
I am drawn out of my memory by Lady B's desperate sigh. I glance around our room with a smile. It really is a great room. We had them build a reading nook in one of the corners of the room so that it overlooks the backyard and next to the nook are built in bookshelves that house Edward's favorite books. Not too far from the nook there is a sliding glass door that leads out to our private deck which has very, very comfortable deck lounges that have been broken in many times. In addition there is a huge master bathroom set up just like the one at the Edgewater because I HAD to have it and finally there is a very large walk in closet. I think over the years Edward and I have fucked on every possible surface in this room.
Lady B sits down on the bench with another sigh as I walk into the closet. I pull out several dresses that have not seen the light of day for at least 10 or more years. I don't keep everything but some things I didn't have the heart to get rid of. I flip through and grab about six dresses that are not too revealing and place them on the bed. A smile comes across B's face as she picks up several of them stopping on one in particular.
"I've never seen you wear this one?" She says picking up a red, silver and black sequined mini dress.
"Your aunt designed that one for me about 20 years ago. I actually took that dress to Paris." I say with a smile, remembering how Edward couldn't keep his hands off of me. Hmm, maybe I should rethink this. The dress is not revealing at all. In fact it is a loose fitting dress with ¾ sleeves with a round neckline but it is extremely short and very sparkly. I was just starting to show and Alice said it would make me look sexy but not really pregnant. She was right of course. She's always right it seems.
"It's so pretty. Can I try it on?" She says lovingly touching the fabric.
She quickly takes her clothes off and slips the dress on which actually fits her perfectly. Well, we are basically the same size. I hand her the shoes that go with it and she stands there posing in my three way mirror.
"So, are you planning on telling him tonight? Is that what this whole I need to look nice thing is coming from?"
She stops posing and turns to look at me.
"I don't know. No…" She says turning back around. She starts playing with her hair nervously.
"Mom it doesn't matter anyway. He is going to Arizona State and I am attending UW." She takes a deep breath before turning around and leaning against the mirrors. "He doesn't see me that way, anyway."
"Oh honey… he definitely sees you that way. But the thing is you two have been skirting around each other for years. You know I saw it a long time ago but both of you are too busy denying your feelings to see that maybe you two are meant to be together."
She grins, "You sound like grandma."
"Yeah, well I have had enough therapy. I probably know more than most shrinks out there." I say with a chuckle.
She walks over and sits down on the bench next to me. She looks down and I can tell she is contemplating. She looks nervous and sad all of a sudden.
"If I say something to him and he tells me he thinks of me as… I don't know… a sister I will just die." She says softly.
I wrap my arm around her and kiss the top of her head. "But wouldn't you rather know than just wonder?"
"I don't think I could take it if he said no. I would be devastated." And I can tell by the sound of her voice that she is crying.
I rub her shoulders lovingly and then squeeze her tighter, "Well… if that happens then I will just have to go over there and kick his ass."
She giggles against me, "Well, I think if you did that his mom might try to kick yours."
Now it's my turn to giggle, "Oh I can take her."
"That would be worth it right there. We could sell tickets." She says laughing as she wipes her eyes and looks up at me, "I love you mom."
"I love you too sweetheart."
At 6:45 Robbie and Kris were back at the house. Apparently neither one of them is planning on dressing up. She has on jeans and one of his t-shirts which she has knotted to the side and he is wearing jeans and a plaid shirt unbuttoned part way with a black beanie on his head. I swear the two of them look like poster children for the grunge movement of the 90's. When Lady B walks down the stairs a smile spreads across mine and Kris's face and a frown across Robbie's. He turns and glares at me.
"You're going to let her wear that?" He says, infuriated.
I laugh, "Of course. She looks beautiful."
"Everyone is going to be staring at her." He says flustered.
"Well, isn't that the point." I say giving him my best 'DUH!' look.
He turns to her, "Go change Lady B. You're going to make me get in a fight wearing that outfit."
She places her hands on her hips and shakes her head, "No way. Mom said I could wear it. Auntie made it for her for their honeymoon. It's perfect! I'm not changing." She says holding her ground. He stares at her for a moment and then turns to me.
"Does dad know she's wearing that?"
"Oh for crying out loud Robbie calm down. She looks extraordinary. And aside from it being short it is not revealing at all. She's not a little girl anymore." I say forcefully.
"Robbie. She looks beautiful" Kris says, touching his arm. "She's an adult and she has a right to wear what she wants to wear."
He looks conflicted. He has always been protective of her; well over-protective is more like it. She wasn't able to have a boyfriend until high school because Robbie and the boys would scare them off. I still remember the drama that ensued with her first boyfriend. Robbie was a sophomore and B was a freshman.
I am cuddled into Edward's arms as we sit with Alice and Jasper and Rose and Emmett watching Frankie's game. He's the starting wide receiver for the local high school team. The boys, Robbie, Danny & Carter are sitting together laughing, all huddled together a few rows below us. Oh those boys are definitely up to something. A few minutes later the three of them jump up simultaneously, pulling their shirts off and swirling them over their heads, chanting "Frankie, Frankie, Frankie, Frankie." Until Frankie turns and starts laughing at them. I just shake my head and glance to see that Edward, Em and Jazz are all laughing riotously. Boys!
"Robbie, you better come quick." Michael says running up to the three of them out of breath just as they are putting their shirts back on.
I cock my eyebrow and stare at Edward who looks upset immediately. Michael looks up quickly at his parents and then us. But before he can say anything else Robbie is yanking him down the stairs and telling him to lead the way. Edward and I look at each other and I am already feeling a panic brewing in my gut and just as I decide to go looking for them Amanda and Christy are running up the stairs frantic and out of breath.
"Auntie you better get over there. B is crying. Sammie and Erin are with her but she asked us to get you." Amanda says out of breath.
I jump up quickly on high alert as all of us follow the girls. We run to the side of the school, behind the concession stands where I see two things concurrently 1) Lady B is leaning against the wall crying while Sammie and Erin try to calm her down and 2) Robbie is beating the shit out of Lady B's boyfriend, while Danny and Carter are trying unsuccessfully to pull him off. Edward quickly runs to Robbie and yanks him off of Jason.
"Dad let me go. He deserves it."
"Calm down Robbie." Edward says, jerking him further away before letting him go.
All the boys look at us and I swear Danny and Carter look fit to be tied. If Frankie wasn't playing right now I am sure he would be right in the middle of this as well. Lady B looks up and sees me and runs to me quickly, wrapping her arms around me and crying.
"Mom I want to go home." She says through fits of tears.
"Of course sweetheart." I turn to Edward. "I'm taking B home."
He nods as he tries to prevent Robbie from going after Jason again. But as he's doing that I see Carter clock Jason in the eye and then Danny gets a few good kicks in when he falls to the ground. The last thing I see is Emmett swooping each of them up, one under each arm as they are kicking and wriggling trying desperately to get out of their dad's death grip. If I wasn't so upset about B I would laugh at the sight. When we are safely on our way home I turn to her and take in her appearance. She looks okay physically. Her clothes aren't torn but she still looks bad.
"B, what happened?"
She doesn't turn to me and continues to stare out the window.
"I was with the girls and when we went to look for Jason we found him behind the concession stand kissing Brittany. I couldn't move so Christy pushed him off of her by the back of his hair and then Amanda slapped Brittany and told her to get lost. Brittany took off and Jason turned to me and I could tell that he was mad. He started saying mean things to me..." I see her wince and I am pissed already, thinking maybe Edward shouldn't have pulled Robbie off of him.
"He was saying I was a tease and that if I wasn't he wouldn't have to go to someone else. So I slapped him. He got really pissed and pushed me against the wall calling me a bitch but before anything else could happen Robbie was there and he threw him away from me. I just started crying and wanted to go home so I asked them to go get you."
I can see her chest heaving.
"Why would he do that mom?" but before I have a chance to answer her I hear her say under her breath, "Maybe I should have just had sex with him like he wanted."
Oh… no… she… didn't. I pull to the side of the road quickly and turn to her.
"Brett Ashley Cullen… Look at me!"
She turns to me and there is a little fear in her eyes now. I never call her Brett. It's always Lady B or B. But this is serious. I will not have her believe that she is supposed to put out. She is so sweet and caring, so much like her father and I will not have some asshole taint that. Yes, I should have definitely let Robbie beat the shit out of him. In fact I might just text Edward to tell him to let Robbie at him again.
"You should never have sex with anyone just to keep them. You know my history Brett. I made many mistakes when I was younger. I used sex and I used men. Your father changed that and I will not allow you to think for one single minute that sex is the answer. If that's all he wants from you than FUCK HIM! He isn't good enough." I say incensed.
Fuck! I can't believe this shit. I am having a really hard time right now not pulling the car around and beating the crap out of him myself. She is staring at me with wide eyes.
"You need to save yourself for someone who will love you and only you. Someone who will cherish you and the ground that you walk on. That is the minimum that you deserve. Do you understand me?" I say as calmly as I can under the circumstances.
She nods, tears streaking her face as she wraps her arms around me.
I am brought out of my memory by Robbie's harsh voice.
"Fine, whatever. But you aren't talking to ANYONE!" Robbie says with a huff as he turns to walk out the door.
Kris walks over to B and smiles at her, "Don't worry B. I will keep him occupied for you." She says with a wink before taking her hand and walking towards the door.
Lady B blushes profusely and nods before turning back to me. "Bye mom. I love you."
"Bye sweetheart. Have fun." She grins and starts following Kris, "But not too much fun." I say as she opens the door and waves without turning around.
I grin and look around the room. Soon B will move out. It's required that all freshman stay on campus. We told her we could get her out of it but she really wanted to live in a dorm so she will move by the end of the summer and then it will just be Edward and I. Not that I am complaining but it's going to be weird not running around for someone. I glance at the clock knowing I have a while before Edward is home. I smile as I pick up one of B's baby pictures. I had such a difficult pregnancy with her. I was so depressed throughout most of it. Dr. Jackson had said it was partly postpartum depression along with just the normal crazy hormones of pregnancy. But by the end of the second trimester I had decided that I was getting my tubes tied. I couldn't do another pregnancy. I wasn't cut out for it. What I didn't anticipate was how angry Edward would get. We fought for two months and during that time he became more and more distant with me. That was the loneliest I have ever felt since he came into my life.
He texted me that he was running late and wouldn't be home for another hour. That's been happening a lot lately. I think he doesn't want to be around me but he denies it when I say that. I walk outside to the patio of our new home, carrying the baby monitor in my hand. Robbie is fast asleep and I am getting stir crazy. I sit down and lean against the wall, watching the moon and wishing my dad was here. Would he be on my side or Edward's I wonder. The moon moves a little higher up so I lay down on the patio, watching it, trying desperately not to get drawn into the darkness. Pretty soon I hear his keys drop on the table and then hear his footsteps walk up the stairs. A few moments later I hear him in Robbie's room. Robbie starts cooing. He's awake.
"Hey big man. Where's mama?"
I feel tears coming out of my eyes as I listen to him taking care of his son. He's such a good father. He always gets up in the middle of night, more so now that I am so far along. I listen to him talking to Robbie and after a while I hear footsteps coming back down the stairs. There is hesitation and then the steps start coming my way. He steps outside and sits down next to me, bringing my head into his lap and gently stroking my hair. I feel the tears again.
"What are you doing out here baby?" He says sweetly.
I don't say anything, but swallow hard. He continues to stroke my hair and I am sure he can feel my tears. How could he not?
"Are you still mad at me?"
"Isabella. I love you, always."
"That doesn't answer my question." I say rolling on my back so I can see him.
He looks away from me and closes his eyes.
"You made this decision and you gave me no choice. You just did it. You didn't consider how I would feel about it. Hell. You didn't even ask me for input." He says sharply. "We're supposed to be partners but…" he takes a deep breath, "you're making all the decisions."
He finally looks down at me, with hurt and anguish on his face. I know that he is right but I don't know how to fix this. I don't know how to make him comprehend what I'm feeling.
"You don't understand what this is like for me. Every day Edward, every single day I just want to be dead, just so I can't feel all of this anymore..." He winces when I say dead but I need to make him understand, "I have to fight so hard to not listen to all the shit going on in my head, to not just run my car off the road and be done with it. Why do you think I quit driving?" I feel tears streaking down my face, "I don't trust myself and I don't know, I'm tired Edward. I'm tired of feeling like this. This is my second pregnancy and its worse than the first. What makes you think a third or fourth would be any better?" He is watching me intently and I can tell he is trying to fight back tears, "It won't be better Edward but what if during those pregnancies I'm not able to win the battle? What if in a moment of weakness I listen to the craziness in my head and do something to hurt myself or our children? Is that what you want?"
He frowns, "Of course not."
"Please, tell me you understand. I don't want to lose you but… I don't want to lose myself either. I need you. Oh God Please Edward, I need you." I say feeling the heaviness of my words weighing me down. I can't do this without him. Why can't he see that?
He leans down and pulls me up into his arms and I can feel his tears.
"I'm here baby. We'll get through this together." He reaches his hand under my chin forcing me to look at him and in his eyes I see love and determination, "Always." He whispers.
The sound of my phone brings me out of my memory. I smile when I see it's from Edward. I wipe my eyes and quickly answer it.
"Hey baby." He says in that sweet melodious voice of his.
I smile, "Are you on break?"
"Yeah. So what was B wearing that had Robbie in such a state?"
I laugh, "That red and black dress I wore on our honeymoon. She wanted to dress up so we raided my closet. I figured it was one of the least revealing things I owned."
He lets out a soft breath. "God! You were beautiful in that dress. If I remember correctly we didn't make it out of the gallery before I had to have you."
"Yes, you have a great memory Professor Cullen." I say grinning.
He starts laughing, God I love the sound of his laugh, "Robbie said he'll have her home by midnight, sooner if someone starts hitting on her."
I can't help but laugh at that, "Who's her father exactly."
"I know, I know… well, I was curious about what she picked out. The way Robbie was acting I wondered what you let her wear. As protective as you are, I knew it couldn't be as bad as Robbie was making it out to be." He says chuckling.
"Yeah, he still acts like she's 12. I can't believe he called you."
He laughs again, "I better go baby. I love you!"
"I love you too. Now go and impart some knowledge."
He chuckles, "Will do ma'am."
I hang up and walk into the kitchen to grab a drink. Everything seems so quiet. Edward hasn't had to teach a night class for several years. I am only working part time right now at the hospital and volunteering part time at Swan House so my nights are always free. I glance at the calendar and smile. It's a full moon.
"What are you doing hun?" Edward asks coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist. He gently kisses right behind my ear and I shiver in response. He giggles at my reaction and then looks up, following my gaze outside. "What's she doing?"
"I think she is picking flowers."
We are both watching B who is now 5; skip around to the various flower beds in the backyard, touching several flowers before breaking the stem and putting them in her shirt, which she is holding up like a basket. She does this for a while and then starts skipping back towards the house with a huge smile on her face.
"What cha got there Lady B?" I ask with a smile when she enters the kitchen.
"Flowers for grandpa." She says in her sing song voice. "Mama, can we make them real purty like they do on TV?" She says bouncing on the balls of her feet.
"Sure sweetheart. Grandpa Carlisle will like that a lot." I say as I pull out a large mixing bowl for her to drop the flowers in.
"These aren't for Grandpa Carlisle, Mama."
Edward and I look at each other confused. She then skips over to the calendar and points to the picture of the moon, showing that tonight there will be a full moon.
"Robbie said that when the picture looks like that then the moon is the biggest and the brightest. That means Grandpa Charlie will be able to see really far tonight."
I bring my hand to my mouth and breathe in deeply, I can feel tears already pooling in my eyes.
"These are for Grandpa Charlie." I choke out.
"Uh huh. Do you think he will like them mama?"
I smile and take a deep breath. She has always been so caring and compassionate. I have tried so desperately not to remember my childhood and the things I went through but B, she just brings a new meaning to everything. A new hope and I couldn't help but look at the world through her eyes when we were together. I look out at the moon and decide to go lay outside for a while. I haven't done that in a long time. I walk to the hall closet and grab a blanket, throwing it over my arm and walking outside. The air is crisp and clean. There is a gentle breeze blowing that makes everything feel so fresh and perfect. I lay down in the middle of our yard, looking up at the bright orb in the sky. Every time the moon was full B wanted to bring a blanket outside and talk to Grandpa Charlie. She hasn't done that in a long time though. We had some of our best conversations out here.
"Mom, how do you know when you are in love?"
I glance at her. She's only 12. Please don't tell me she has a boyfriend. No, if she had a boyfriend Robbie would definitely tell on her. But my heart is beating fast nonetheless.
"Um, I guess it's sort of different for everyone."
"How did you know you loved daddy?"
"Your daddy was the only man I ever loved and I loved him the day I met him."
"So you have never been with anyone else."
UH OH! Oh God, Oh God, Oh God… I really don't want to go there. She turns her head so she can look at me. I can't lie to her but hell I don't want her to know I was a whore. FUCK!
"Umm… No I have been with other people. I never met anyone like your dad though. He showed me what love was but I made a lot of mistakes before I met him and even in the beginning of our relationship I had some difficulties trusting in the idea of love."
She watches me for a moment, processing what I am saying. I think she might be satisfied with that answer but I can tell by the look on her face that she has further questions about that. Well… I will be honest with her when she asks. I just hope it isn't tonight!
"Do you guys ever fight? Sandra says her parents fight all the time but I can't think of a time when you two were mad at each other."
"Well… I don't know. We disagree sometimes but basically he lets me have my way." I say smiling. She looks at me real serious for a minute and then laughs. She knows it's true.
"So I should strive to find a man who will let me have my way all the time. Is that your motherly advice to me?" She says sarcastically.
"Alright, don't be a smart ass…" I say laughing. "All I can say honey is that love is when you put someone else's needs above your own, when you look at them and you can't imagine any other place you want to be and when they kiss you, your world stops and you know in your heart and soul that as long as they are near, you can get through anything." I take a deep breath, "At least that is how it is for your father and I. I suppose someone else may have a different version."
She is watching me and she has tears in her eyes.
I am startled awake when I feel Edward move his hips against me. I smile as my eyes open to the most stunning sight imaginable. Edward had already removed his shirt and is unbuttoning his slacks. The light of the moon is reflecting off of his pale skin making him seem almost ethereal. He swivels his hips again, giving me that sexy smirk he knows I love and then lifts up to take his pants all the way off, never once taking his eyes off of me. He is still the most beautiful man I have ever seen. His muscles may not be as refined as they once were but I still lose my breath just looking at him. He quickly removes my shorts and top and starts running his hands over my breasts and then my stomach.
"You look so beautiful laying here." He says as he kisses me softly on my lips and then down my neck, "I just couldn't resist."
"I've missed you today." I whisper, running my fingers into his hair.
"I hate this current schedule I have. I am away too much." He says as he brings one of my nipples into his mouth.
I close my eyes and moan. How can after all these years he still make me feel like this. I run my hand down his back, resting them over his plump ass.
"I think I want to take some time off this summer. I have accumulated a lot of vacation that I need to use. Maybe we could travel or something after B moves out but before the next semester starts for you." I say between moans of delight.
"We could go back to Paris." He says looking up at me and smiling.
Oh yeah, I really liked Paris. He spoke French the whole time we were there and I couldn't control myself. Every time he opened his mouth I needed to fuck him. We actually didn't see too much of the city. I smile as he starts moving his mouth down towards my stomach. I knead his fine ass and bring his legs up and he looks back at me with fire in his eyes. He knows what I want. I lay on my side as does he and I bring his cock into my mouth, squeezing his balls as I take him to the back of my throat.
"Fuuucccckkkk!" He mumbles before plunging his tongue inside of me.
We are both resting our heads on the others legs as we pleasure one another. I love to 69 in this position because we both seem to have more ability to move. He loves it because I suck him slowly, prolonging his orgasm. He usually ends up making me come a few times before I make him come. He brings his mouth further against me as he removes his tongue and starts nipping around my folds and clit. I buck into him moaning against his cock which makes him suck and nibble harder against me. I instinctively clamp my leg down over his head as he swirls his tongue around me and then in me making me writhe in pleasure.
I start scraping my teeth over his cock, moaning and grunting as my release takes me. I find myself sucking more vigorously on him as my one hand works his balls while my other hand is kneading his ass. He is panting against my pussy, his hot breath setting me on fire. I quickly start moving my finger from the base of his balls to his ass and back again, just barely circling his hole as he whimpers against me. He grabs my ass and starts moving me against his mouth in a circular manner and fuck me if he isn't going to make me come again.
I pull his body closer to me, his cock moving smoothly down my throat over and over again. I start humming against his pulsing cock and squeeze his balls which are now hard as a rock. I use my finger to circle his hole again and then press down softly causing his whole body to vibrate as warm fluid shoots down my throat. He bites down on my clit and I cry out, my body shaking and convulsing as I cum again. We are both breathing heavily as we continue to suck and lick one another. When his cock is completely flaccid he rolls away from me on his back, reaching his hands out to me. I crawl to him quickly, wrapping my arms around his chest.
"I love you so much." I say breathlessly.
"Mmm, me too baby."
"We've had a good life haven't we?" I say kissing him lightly on the chest.
"A very good life and it will just keep getting better." He says kissing the top of my head. "I can't believe I am finally going to get you all to myself."
"We can actually have sex wherever we want to." I say pinching his nipple.
He laughs, "Is that all you want me for?"
I run my hand down his chest and start entwining my fingers in his oh so happy trail. I kiss him lightly on the chest again and look up at him, "Nah… I kind of like you a little too."
He smiles and pulls me on top of him, bringing his knees up so that I am cradled between them with my breasts pressed against his chest. He starts kissing me and running his hands over my back and ass and then back up again. We continue to kiss and he continues to caress me until we hear a car pull into the driveway. Then it was scramble time to get our clothes back on before the kids walked through the living room and could see us which is sort of funny considering my proclivity towards public sex. Of course that's not so much anymore and I certainly don't want my kids to see us naked and having sex. When we are fully dressed Edward stands up and reaches his hands to me, helping me up. He pulls me into his arms smiling widely as he kisses me lightly on the forehead.
"To be continued." He says sexily.
"I should hope so, Professor Cullen." I say with a smirk.
The graduation was simply perfect. We had all decided to throw a joint graduation party since Lady B, Danny and Carter were all graduating this year. And of course as is custom the shin dig was being held at Carlisle and Esme's house. Both Carlisle and Esme traveled all the time now. In fact we saw them very rarely. Esme had retired a few years ago but got stir crazy and decided she wanted to travel to every continent and see everything. Carlisle had NOT retired yet but he wasn't about to have his wife traipsing across the world without him. So he went part time and did most of his work through his proxy which was Frankie. Frankie was the only one of his grandchildren that showed any interest in business and had been working with Carlisle since high school. He isn't finished with college yet but spends most of his time with him at the office learning the ropes. I think Carlisle will retire when Frankie finishes school and can officially take over for him. By the time that happens Frankie will be well established in the company. Everyone loves him anyway but they also know that Carlisle is grooming him to take over so no one has any intention of going against Carlisle's wishes. No one is THAT stupid!
Esme had outdone herself yet again. It was similarly decorated for Robbie's graduation as well as Frankie's. She had flowers everywhere, a DJ and a huge dance floor with tables finely decorated all around it. The dinner was exquisite and there were tons of gifts. Danny and Carter were out on the dance floor dancing crazy with two girls I didn't really recognize. Of course the one with Carter was grinding up against him like she wanted to have his baby. Good Lord! Was I that bad? Robbie and Kris were dancing close together swaying to a beat that was all their own. Yep, she will be around for a while. I don't even think they notice anyone else. The girls were all dancing with some boys but basically I think they are dancing with each other. I finally see B and she is not on the dance floor but is staring at everyone with a pained expression on her face. I sigh and walk over to her.
"You know. If he were my man I sure as hell wouldn't let some other girl dance with him like that."
She rolls her eyes, "He's not 'my man' mom." She says angrily.
"Well, maybe you need to rectify that." I say in her ear. "What's the worst that could happen?"
She shrugs and then looks like she might cry as her mouth opens and closes several times without actually saying anything.
"What do I do?"
I smile, "Well, if it was me I would just walk up to him, grab his face and kiss him with such passion that he would forever remember the day that I chose him."
She turns to me and her face turns scarlet, okay well maybe too soon for that.
"Or you could just walk up to him and say let's dance."
She lets out an exaggerated sigh, "You make it all sound so easy."
I laugh, "It is honey. You are in charge. You decide. You don't give him a choice. Guys like that."
She is breathing heavily, just watching. I swear sometimes I can't believe she's my daughter. I would have been on that a long time ago. She takes a deep breath and starts walking out to the dance floor and I see her stop when he looks up at her. She looks down at the ground and takes another deep breath and walks over to him. She sort of nudges the tramp dancing with him out of the way and then brings her hands to Carter's face, kissing him right there on the dance floor. He looks surprised at first and then his eyes flutter closed as he pulls her closer to him. I bring my hand to my mouth. Holy shit! I can't believe she did it.
Several people stop dancing and stare at them. I glance around and see the girls jumping up and down, screaming like teenage girls do. I know they have been pushing her, especially Amanda and Christy. I look over at Rose and she has her hand over her mouth, trying to stifle a smile. Her and I had discussed this in depth a while back and wondered how long it would take them to pull their heads out of their assess and realize maybe they should be together. Carter never said anything to her but she sensed it as well as I did. I grin when I see Emmett with his mouth hung open in shock. Robbie and Kris are in their own bubble so he hasn't noticed what is going on around him… yet!
"Is that B?" Edward says walking up next to me, "When the hell did she start liking Carter?"
Men… I swear they notice nothing! "Edward they have liked each other for a long time. They just wouldn't admit it to one another." I say rolling my eyes at him.
Then he laughs, "Look at Emmett, I think he is about to have kittens."
I start laughing as Edward wraps his arms around my waist and then leads me to the dance floor. We get just close enough to see when Robbie goes ballistic.
"What the hell Carter!" Robbie says pushing him away from B.
"I'm sorry man, she kissed me."
"I didn't see you stop her."
"Robbie man, calm down." Danny says trying to stop the inevitable.
Robbie turns to Lady B frowning, "What the hell are you thinking B?" Robbie says somewhat defeated, "He's my best friend, that's not cool."
She puts her head down, "I don't know. I just…I think I love him."
"What the fuck!" Robbie says stepping back. He turns and looks at Carter like he wants to hit him or something.
"Don't be mad at him. He didn't know I was going to do that." She says to Robbie angrily and then turns to Carter, "I like you… a lot. I have for a long time. I couldn't have you leave without telling you that. I'm sorry. I… I didn't want to cause a problem." She says turning around and quickly trying to make her way off the dance floor.
"Wait!" He yells at her retreating figure.
He darts through the crowd and finally catches up to her. He turns her around and she immediately looks to the ground. I am watching hoping that he doesn't do something that's going to make me kick his ass.
"I love you too." He says with a huge cheesy smile and then pulls her into his arms and kisses her ardently while Robbie groans in the background.
"Robbie… Quit it and I mean NOW!" I say to him sternly.
He looks at Edward like somehow he will be on his side but Edward is frowning at him and shaking his head in disapproval. Robbie sighs and mumbles some obscenities before walking away with Kris. He's been in Cali too long. He's already cussing like them.
"Well… What's a party without a little drama?" Edward says smirking and then kissing me.
"Can we start our vacation now?" I whisper against his lips.
He giggles and kisses me again as the music changes. When we come up for air I look around the dance floor. I see Lady B and Carter go off to a table away from everyone else. They are leaning into each other talking intently. Kris has Robbie to the side and she is whispering to him and I can tell he is trying to still be mad but I catch him grinning. I look around and see my friends and family and I know that I have truly been blessed. I never would have thought that someone like me would find happiness and love but I did. I know I still have that bitch inside of me but she doesn't rear her head as much as when I was younger. And as I dance with my beautiful and sexy husband I find myself in awe that such a perfect and loving man walked into my life so long ago. And I realize that Edward is right, it is only going to get better.
The end (really, I mean it this time)
A/N…. Okay this is the final outtake of the story I really hope you enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing it. So did anyone guess who she liked before I announced it at the end? I just had a vision of the two of them together and technically they are not family as Rose and Emmett are not related to the Cullen's in any way. I do still plan on doing a separate story on Daddy C but that won't happen for about a month or so. Gonna focus on RoaL which I hope you are all enjoying.
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